What are you thinking?

Iridescent_Revival_<3 wrote:Thank you for reminding me the benefits of taking these comments with a grain of salt! Even if she WAS constructive about it, I'm healthy and that should be enough for a mother in my opinion. I'll try to be more active (ugh broken record) so yes LET'S TALK MORE :)that's directed at everyone really.

You're welcome ^_^ And yep, it should be enough. She'll just have to deal with it! There's nothing better than being comfortable in your own body, regardless of weight. It's a precious feeling, especially for girls/women :) Since you're healthy, there's no need to be ashamed or feel bad about anything. I'm sure you've seen pictures of gorgeous plump pin-up ladies, they're totally rocking it :D
Now I wonder why your mom would say something like that... It's like, those who call others names are usually uncomfortable in their skin themselves. Maybe she has noticed your new-found confidence and is jealous? Probably even unconsciously. How would she react if you told her she's beautiful?

I'll try to be more active as well, last year during this time I worked out almost every day...

Hope those colds are short-lived and you feel better soon!

It was, actually! At least for me, it was horrible for the first two days, but now it's sooo much better. I'm not completely healthy yet, but at least I can keep my eyes open!

@Up♥Up♥Up; ooh, I'm so happy for you! ^_^

Krissy, I wonder about the same things... Though I rarely get angry enough to actually even shout, let alone call names or anything, it might be more common in those who are hotheads :D I prefer to have a conversation and try to find a solution.


A bit nervous about tomorrow... It's the "anniversary" of the fight between J and JP xD But I'm quite sure I won't see him... I'll just spend time with a couple of friends and JP, of course :) Take it easy.

Iridescent_Revival_<3 wrote:

ilumoonmarks wrote:^ I'm so sorry :/ that must be really tough. I used to have weight problems and I can totally relate to how words like that make you feel. Sending you lots of support and hugs.
Oxo

PS - don't forget, you are so LOVED

Thank you so much. Weirdly enough, I had actually come to like my weight this year, mostly because I went to the doctor earlier in the year when I had a couple of blackouts (which turned out to be stress-related) so they ran a whole lot of tests on me and I'm completely healthy, which kind of made me think "well my body can't be THAT disgusting if it's healthy?" and yet hearing that from my mum was such a slap across the face.

If you're comfortable in your skin, don't let anyone take that away from you. People just need to see you the way that you do.

Alright, no need to feel nervous, I'm alone at home :D Feeling kinda sad because of it, but I don't want to go anywhere either, so... heh. Don't know what to do, I guess I'll play something. I plan to do one special thing later!

Yeah, I guess i'll never know blah

This NYE Im spending with my family. Its only 45minutes until 2014
Happy New Year everybody! I love you all so much <3

It's only like 6.03PM here not new years yet. But happy new year to you. Hope 2014 is a great year for everyone. LEts ALL BE POSITIVE FOR the new year

happy new year, pumpkins!   may at least some of your dreams come true!

epic new year guys!

im back in london now and back to work! i just received a message from my work mate saying how much he misses me which made my day ^^ it feels great being back. as much as i love love love going home, my life is here now.

Kind of delayed, but I hope that everyone has an AWESOME 2014!

I want to wish everyone happy new year!!!!

but mimi, one day you plan to come back to Estonia, raise your kids etc, right?

^ I don't think so, sadly.
they will definitely speak Estonian and spend their summers in Estonia but..
That's how I feel now though, maybe one day when I have my children I'm willing to sacrifice my own dreams for the sake of their childhood..

Happy New Year from me as well! ^_^

I'm feeling very happy today, hehe. Despite my acne having been outrageous lately >_> Good thing it's focusing the jaw; it means I'm old!
(there was a study, that acne is on your nose/forehead area when young, and it moves to the chin/jaw/neck when you're past 25)

Happy new year to all. Hope 2014 is a awesome year.

I just logged in to find the strangest email in my inbox...

Hi,our dear friends in Christ,
We are so much happy to visit your good and touching website which has touched and moved our lost hope and hearts to email you by kindly requesting you to allow us to be part of your ministry because we are deeply new to the Word of God.We are the born again Christians.We kindly pray that you will respond to our kind email.Welcome to teach us the Word of God We kindly request you to continue praying for the orphans who are among us in our church.Your response will be of great encouraging to our lost hope to God.We are after the Word of God from your ministry by you to come.
Kindly,reply to us.
We pray for you to be blessed.
pastor David Makori

What a depressing email D: Sooo, they've lost their hope to God? Become atheists. Problem solved.
And we're a ministry? And they want us to teach them the Word of God? No such thing here; if this were a religious place, I wouldn't be here xD
And how can a religious person be so lost as to ask help from a website? I thought they have them Bibles for that.

Poor writing and poor English; I smell a hoax. So ignore it ^_^

^ I feel like that email was supposed to make sense... It didn't do a very good job.

wow,we have spring here
hope that everyone in usa is safe

Wow! Lucky for you!

Yes, Canada & America sure been getting such cold & Bad weather this winter!

We have a loooong end-of-winter weather here, the temperature won't drop under 0'C for long... They're saying winter is canceled this year :/ Meaning, the term "winter" can't be used. So it's just sleet and rain here. We'll see if we'll have an early spring, or will the temperature drop at any point...?
This is confusing, really. I've never seen a snowless winter.

I went for a walk today, with the same friend I go to the kettlebell classes with. I walked for almost two hours :D Tomorrow we'll go to the class again! Hopefully, if she can find a babysitter.
And we're considering of starting kickboxing D: The noob classes are beginning soon.

I have a portrait commission from this friend, and I'm supposed to do it with pastels... Soft chalky pastels. I have them, I've just never used them! So I've been watching some speedpaintings and tutorials on YouTube. I'm gonna test them with a picture of my own, first, so I won't ruin the paper I'm gonna use for the portrait...

Wow! That must be odd for you guy's. I've never had so much snow and such cold winter in a long time here. This is going to be a long winter for us I guess. Strange freaking weather I tell ya.

That's cool.

I wonder if I was blocked. Or maybe the persons page was removed on FB. Her name and picture shows up. When I click on her .This shows up.

Sorry, this page isn't available

The link you followed may be broken, or the page may have been removed.

I love chalk/soft pastels, they're so much fun to blend.

hey guys, my facebook and twitter doesn't work... with your is ok?

unfortunately system of computer my sis diying and e.g. data option works bad and it made that it's my end on facebook and twitter... i just wanna cry because i lost the last contact with people..always my b-days are horrible

Happy Birthday Natt! We love you so much! <3 <3 <3

Thank you honey <3 And Happy christmas time to you

That sucks about your computer. Maybe you can get it fixed or something.

Lilee wrote:I love chalk/soft pastels, they're so much fun to blend.

Oh yeah, they blend so nicely, I was able to create really good looking skin! For small details I'm gonna have to use colored pencils, the chalks are way too chunky. Unless... I wonder if I can find pastel pencils somewhere...

I'm so sorry to hear that, Natt... I hope something can be done to the computer so it'll work better! Has the computer been defragmented and cleaned regularly? By "cleaned", I mean browser history deleted and unnecessary folders removed etc... They can make the computer real slow.
Happy birthday nonetheless! <3 Love you so much <3


Went to the kettlebell class today, there were a lot of people! Probably following New Year's resolutions like "I'll start exercising!" and such xD We'll see how long that decision lasts... I've been doing it for 4-5 years, so I'm not giving up xD
We also got a cat tunnel for our kitty, he likes it ^_^

happy birthday natt

Hey Silja, it's computer my sis, she will give today friend and I'll received her new Internet if will be work on my laptop.. her friend said that it must be virus
Thank you for yous wishes <2

And Silja good luck!!!!!!

Happy Birthday Mimi!!!!! I wish you everything the best!!!

It's still so cold. I'm counting down for summer. haha

i had such an EPIC birthday!!!!
First of all, on the eve of my birthday I went to the theatre with a friend and then we stayed up til 2 am, drinking whiskey and talking about girly stuff.

Then on my birthday morning I woke up to tons and tons of messages Had breakfast, chilled out, went to the piercer and got my nipple pierced (ouch!), had late lunch at a lebanese restaurant, got changed and went to The Little Bar (a little bar called the little bar) and soon enough most of my friends had arrived.. I honestly didn't think that many people would show up so I was absolutely gobsmacked! we drunk, we laughed, we had banter. after many shots we left to go to my house where we partied til 5 am. i am so freaking grateful and happy aaaah!


ALSO! ordering the cards T O D A Y!!

Mimi, I'm so happy for you!!!!!

during the weekend I heard not nice words about my weight, some people laughed from it... I heard that I shouldn't drink water because I'll more fat and that for sure I eat paper.... people are sometimes horrible

who are these people?

they are nobody but insecure bullies who target someone they see they can hurt.
they are words and if you can choose not to let them get to you. because if you allow them to get to you, they've won. don't give them the satisfaction.

Glad you had a good one.

Mimi, it people from my school... in every school week I hear things similar to it... I know that they laughed from me,,,,,,I want to be accepted so much


And I watched a few days ago in TV, new James Arthur clip to "Recovery" I'm in love in it <3

Remember, karma is a bitch if you're one.
Whoever laughs and jokes about an illness are rotten.

We all love you to the moon and back!

Thank you honey, you know that I love everyone so much. You are my the best family!!!!

We love you, Natt <3

Have a good week everyone.   I don't really have anything much to say.

I made a account on myspace again. I like the new changes to it. It's cool.  

i love everyone too


good luck with myspace krissy

 thanks

Today is a mild day. Least it feels a little warmer

Natt wrote:Hey Silja, it's computer my sis, she will give today friend and I'll received her new Internet if will be work on my laptop.. her friend said that it must be virus
Thank you for yous wishes <2

And Silja good luck!!!!!!

Ugh, I hate viruses on computer; and people make them on purpose. Well, viruses aren't nice in people, either :D I'm happy it worked out!
And thank you <3

Natt wrote:during the weekend I heard not nice words about my weight, some people laughed from it... I heard that I shouldn't drink water because I'll more fat and that for sure I eat paper.... people are sometimes horrible :(

Ah... Ignore them, they're not thinking what they're saying. At all. They think they're funny when making "witty" comments about your weight, and they don't realize how much it hurts you... If they think you eat paper, they're being sarcastic. Forgive and forget them; they don't know you, and they don't know your condition. They're just being really stupid and inconsiderate :/ It's like saying to a plump kid something like: "did you eat a whole cow for breakfast?". It might be funny to the other people, but not for the person who's being made fun of.
Could you tell them to stop? Let them know it hurts you?


Feeling good today, tired as well. As usual. My mom told me she left her husband, and is now staying with her new boyfriend. The husband is drinking and saying ugly things to mom :/ But this was all expected, really. I'm happy for her, if she can find love again and again, even being 50+. I'll probably never be alone, either :DD If I inherited any of her qualities... Besides being short and small.

What is it with men, you can't really dump them peacefully xD Such drama when they realize they're gonna lose their woman.

OOH, hey, it's winter here! -16'C YISSSsss... Still not much snow, but at least you can freeze your face off! <3

Double-post, but who cares, another day, another post xD

It's -22'C today <3
Yesterday, an old schoolmate from the animation school asked me to help with a game project... I said yes @_@ I have to make backgrounds and maybe some details, we'll see~

Cool!

I got rid of a bunch of clothes to the second hand store because they had rust marks on it. From the dryer, They were ones I had a while anyways.

i went to see 12 years a slave yesterday and it was heartbreakkiinnggggggg. i cried so much in the end that when i left the screen all my co-workers (i work in a cinema) were laughing at me