What are you thinking?

I just got back from another dentist appointment. They fixed a tooth from which the filling fell off last week. And something else, too, I'm not quite sure because of the numbness xD I'll have to look in the mirror.

i guess its not nice to ask your neighbor for his gasmask
he keeps laughing saying he needs it for work and i use the line "fashion is much more important than work."

i have tooooo many problems here where i am.... feel so terrible that don't read your post.... everything is the worse in my place....i am unlucky like always

when you're in a dark place im your life everything seems bad and unlucky. maybe try writing down for yourself what good things you have in your life. and it doesn't have to be "now" , but every realization you have of "wow I'm actually happy to have this in my life" or the the things you didn't notice before.
it'll help some I'm sure (:

I agree wrighting down your feelings helps.What seems bad now won't seem that forever.Things will get better in time.you just have to have faith.

Damn it's cold.

but this isn;t easy

to can end of my school and go to the exm i must to did practite to the end of the 31th November.. this is 120 hours=4 weeks and this isn't possible...
no one wanted me on practice.. no one...= end of my job, failed semester... it doesn;t have any good side

Oh dear! You can't just give up like that.Keep trying and fighting!!

krissy, you don;t understand

I'M trying too but you have to keep trying Natt.Things are not gonna stay that way forever/I'm sorry you have such a rough life.

I'm sorry, Natt :( It makes me so angry no one wanted you on practice, because you're so smart and qualified and have so much potential... Is the ANY way you could do the practice anyway? It would be so stupid that your studies would fall because of this, it's not fair. Can your professor/teacher think of something so you could pass?

Silja <3 I'm not qualified.. I have 4,5 but I don;t know nothing about tourism.. I don't know geography of Poland, Europe(just know where are countries), World... I don;t know stuffs..and we did one time tests and I don't fix to tourism because have problem with contact witht the people...Silja, I'm not the first person which this problem... some places have some things which where we go on the practic we must to know... i don;t know nothing... and true is that i'll not work in this but i need end... i just wanna die

I'M sorry to here about that natt.

I am thinking about if we get enough love here on Earth or we should get more.
Then I also think that "embracing" our dark emotions can be either a trap or a blessing.
Then I think about the time I really got threwn in by "The Satanic Bible" by Anton Szander Lavey.
I also think that irony is a cool thing, if you don't mean anything bad, but then on the other side, it could not give back only the positive energy, somebody can misunderstand. For example, it might be my way to show my feeling of love, even though I am not completely sure what love is.
I feel like I don't want to be entierly peaceful, nor I cannot be innocent all the time.

hi guys!! <3
kerli has put all the halloween costumes to a public vote, and my picture is quite far back, i think i'm picture 99 or 171.
could i ask you a favour to vote for it? it would mean so much

http://kerli-halloweencostumes.buzznet.com/user/photos/391642-360901590665928-714909602-n/?id=68380211

thank you!!

sooo its saturday night, not even 6 pm yet and i am sitting in my pajamas.. working.
had to say no to a birthday party because i thought my future is more important so being old and boring and working. still love it though!

join the lucky ones mission!!! <3

mimi wrote:sooo its saturday night, not even 6 pm yet and i am sitting in my pajamas.. working.
had to say no to a birthday party because i thought my future is more important so being old and boring and working. still love it though!

join the lucky ones mission!!! <3

your not old and you are certainly not boring XD your just allergic to birthdays


i feel really pretty green skin and all

kenkreeker wrote:I am thinking about if we get enough love here on Earth or we should get more.
Then I also think that "embracing" our dark emotions can be either a trap or a blessing.
Then I think about the time I really got threwn in by "The Satanic Bible" by Anton Szander Lavey.
I also think that irony is a cool thing, if you don't mean anything bad, but then on the other side, it could not give back only the positive energy, somebody can misunderstand. For example, it might be my way to show my feeling of love, even though I am not completely sure what love is.
I feel like I don't want to be entierly peaceful, nor I cannot be innocent all the time.

That's interesting about embracing dark emotions. If you do it in a healthy way, it can make you stronger; but if you embrace that darkness the wrong way, it can end up hurting you. You've got some pretty deep thoughts there, kenkreeker.

stargirlstrike wrote:

kenkreeker wrote:I am thinking about if we get enough love here on Earth or we should get more.
Then I also think that "embracing" our dark emotions can be either a trap or a blessing.
Then I think about the time I really got threwn in by "The Satanic Bible" by Anton Szander Lavey.
I also think that irony is a cool thing, if you don't mean anything bad, but then on the other side, it could not give back only the positive energy, somebody can misunderstand. For example, it might be my way to show my feeling of love, even though I am not completely sure what love is.
I feel like I don't want to be entierly peaceful, nor I cannot be innocent all the time.

That's interesting about embracing dark emotions. If you do it in a healthy way, it can make you stronger; but if you embrace that darkness the wrong way, it can end up hurting you. You've got some pretty deep thoughts there, kenkreeker.

people can misunderstand you no matter what you do. someone will always take it the wrong way
give them something they want ((say a haircare product)) and someone will think "they think your ugly and need it" when you just know they have wanted to try it

dont take misunderstandings to heart.

the darkness is in everyone and at different times you need to use it...either if its just to not care about something you really want to care about or to tell someone how you really feel

Mimi, I can't jon because I'm more unlucky with my stuffs

and I feel still so bad and my sister doesn't want download me Kerli's songs... now when we can hear because she agreed it I don't know even what there is... it makes me more sad :/

either I'm fat or XXL legging size is meant for stick figures... 10 euros down the drain

NocturnDrops wrote:either I'm fat or XXL legging size is meant for stick figures... 10 euros down the drain

im going to guess stick figures because no way are you fat

just get pissed off and wear them on your arms...you will be a trend setter

I'll ruin them with me sewing machine.

NocturnDrops wrote:I'll ruin them with me sewing machine.

put them on your head as bunny ears then...

no I mean I will ruin them with my sewong machine on purpose lol

NocturnDrops wrote:no I mean I will ruin them with my sewong machine on purpose lol

oh ok...ruin away then XD
being in a full blown costume is hard when its cold.

I feel warm and fuzzy. coke and jager <3

NocturnDrops wrote:I feel warm and fuzzy. coke and jager <3

jager is nasty how can you drink that XD

because its herby and coughsyropy. perfect winter drink

cold brrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr

sorry ;"(

MoonChildEve wrote:hi guys!! <3
kerli has put all the halloween costumes to a public vote, and my picture is quite far back, i think i'm picture 99 or 171.
could i ask you a favour to vote for it? it would mean so much

This one right?



And how do I vote?

Natt wrote:Mimi, I can't jon because I'm more unlucky with my stuffs

and I feel still so bad and my sister doesn't want download me Kerli's songs... now when we can hear because she agreed it I don't know even what there is... it makes me more sad :/

Natt but you are still lucky for some things. :/ You are alive, creative, and kind, you have big dreams, and you have moonchildren.

And you WILL get to hear those songs. If I have to burn you a CD and mail it to you, even.

NocturnDrops wrote:either I'm fat or XXL legging size is meant for stick figures... 10 euros down the drain

WHAT! Maybe they were XXL child-size leggings?

And for whatever reason Jager is the only alcohol I like to drink just by itself.. Even though it burns at least it doesn't taste like you'd think straight lighter fluid would

Eve, I'll vote on you tomorrow <3

Out of the hollow, really I'm not lucky girl, everything is worse... and please even don;t joke....

and my new poems

„She’s death!”

I lose myself in reality
Though try to change the path of my life
It always someone is there
Who hurts me more

It back to me like the bubble
Candy dreams don’t shine anymore
My rendez-vous with bleeding wounds
The silence killing me so slowly

She’s death! She’s death!
Teddy bears will not hug her anymore
She found the better place
Let her leave us in peace

“I can’t”

Inside me the pain growing up
I can’t breathe, I can’t eat

So alone in the Unkownland
I can’t think, I can’t sleep

Forgotten emotion crying in the shadow
I can’t live, I can’t die

The pain in my heart doesn’t have end
I can’t say, I can’t be myself

I really need to get out of this mood. ugh!

NocturnDrops wrote:because its herby and coughsyropy. perfect winter drink

it tastes like gas
a perfect winter drink is hot cocoa

maybe i could put them on Soundcloud

Let Me Say I'm Sorry just leaked (by the same person, of course) too... or is this an old leak?

Where do people even get songs to leak????

^^I think it's a new one :/

^ Right?!

Natt wrote:Eve, I'll vote on you tomorrow <3

Out of the hollow, really I'm not lucky girl, everything is worse... and please even don;t joke....

I'm so sorry if I upset you. I wasn't joking, though, I wouldn't tease about that. I want you to get to hear the songs and if you can't any other way, I can send them to you on a CD. I have no problem doing that.

stargirlstrike wrote:

kenkreeker wrote:I am thinking about if we get enough love here on Earth or we should get more.
Then I also think that "embracing" our dark emotions can be either a trap or a blessing.
Then I think about the time I really got threwn in by "The Satanic Bible" by Anton Szander Lavey.
I also think that irony is a cool thing, if you don't mean anything bad, but then on the other side, it could not give back only the positive energy, somebody can misunderstand. For example, it might be my way to show my feeling of love, even though I am not completely sure what love is.
I feel like I don't want to be entierly peaceful, nor I cannot be innocent all the time.

That's interesting about embracing dark emotions. If you do it in a healthy way, it can make you stronger; but if you embrace that darkness the wrong way, it can end up hurting you. You've got some pretty deep thoughts there, kenkreeker.

I found one book about this matter. I will certainly read it to get better and better.

jayson526 wrote:

stargirlstrike wrote:

kenkreeker wrote:I am thinking about if we get enough love here on Earth or we should get more.
Then I also think that "embracing" our dark emotions can be either a trap or a blessing.
Then I think about the time I really got threwn in by "The Satanic Bible" by Anton Szander Lavey.
I also think that irony is a cool thing, if you don't mean anything bad, but then on the other side, it could not give back only the positive energy, somebody can misunderstand. For example, it might be my way to show my feeling of love, even though I am not completely sure what love is.
I feel like I don't want to be entierly peaceful, nor I cannot be innocent all the time.

That's interesting about embracing dark emotions. If you do it in a healthy way, it can make you stronger; but if you embrace that darkness the wrong way, it can end up hurting you. You've got some pretty deep thoughts there, kenkreeker.

people can misunderstand you no matter what you do. someone will always take it the wrong way
give them something they want ((say a haircare product)) and someone will think "they think your ugly and need it" when you just know they have wanted to try it

dont take misunderstandings to heart.

the darkness is in everyone and at different times you need to use it...either if its just to not care about something you really want to care about or to tell someone how you really feel

a haircare product. yes this is a perfect example what we all can relate to. I have attended one Christian place where they gave everyone a Christmas gift and my friend said something like: "Look at what they gave us. It is like telling us:"Go to wash yourself.""



yes everyone is a little evil.
but it is important to be necessary evil sometimes.
and sometimes my feelings are like the darkness is beautiful and without evil I can't live/love.
the "fun" fact is: isn't it this way that the word "live" is backwards "evil".
so to be perfectly wise you need sometimes not only the colors of the rainbow.
sadly or not, we need to embrace the dark, I think.
it is good that you remind me that the darkness is sometimes necessary.

but it does not mean that I am happy all the time with evil by my side. it always sound childish to think in extremes, but sometimes it is good to simplify things. dumb them down to understand them better oneself.

The area around my eyes and close to my mouth and nose are so dry and flaky. I wonder why this all of a sudden happened. Yesterday the skin around my eyes was red, and today when I woke up it looked like I had 1000 wrinkles because my skin was so dry. I have been applying almond oil every few hours 'cause my skin absorbs quicker than usual. So annoying and it hurts in the outer corners of my eyes. Any advice to make my skin not dry ? xD If this continues next week as well, I'll go to the doctor or dermatologist or something like that.

Let me say im sorry is an old song but im still annoyed as kerli said it was fine IF people ask her first. she didnt just say 'oh yeah go on and leak everything'.
people are just so stupid sometimes -_-

mimi wrote:Let me say im sorry is an old song but im still annoyed as kerli said it was fine IF people ask her first. she didnt just say 'oh yeah go on and leak everything'.
people are just so stupid sometimes -_-

+1

I can't be the only one missing the iamamoonchild.net website right? :3

I miss it sooo much. I don't really like buzznet to be honest...

mimi wrote:Let me say im sorry is an old song but im still annoyed as kerli said it was fine IF people ask her first. she didnt just say 'oh yeah go on and leak everything'.
people are just so stupid sometimes -_-

but she was asked on Facebook wall.... in one comment she answered to someone that some songs are too artists... and someone asked her about many songs, and she agreed to leak

What about the One and Be my angel then? These 2 are up on youtube as well.
What kind of songs that leaked were written for other artists then???

Man...I don't know how someone can call themselves "Moonchild" but be leaking all Kerli's songs on youtube. So rude -.-They are lovely songs and its nice to be able to hear them but if it hurts Kerli people shouldn't be doing it like they are helping us or smth

someone: Kerli i have Mantra,Too long,Miracle,Insomnia,What u see aint u get,Worldland,Be my angel,fly,fire,ones, and others,i can leakes some on youtube for all moonchilds?

Kerli : these are all old demos so these are fine<3
But please make sure to add that these are old unreleased demos from like 2004

https://www.facebook.com/Kerli/posts/10151263504844415