Iridescent_Revival_<3 (rants-a-lot)

So cool. Try to don't be scared. You don't know if it's really a demon. It could be a human soul that needs help. Kidding, kind of. But could be; why don't you try to get to know this creature, It could be friendly. I would be really curious to know him/her/it/. In case it's dangerous and it wants to hurt you or someone from your family, then you should tell Kerli about this, you know, she's into stuff like this. Lol, don't listen to me, just for the last thing. I don't know how to help you, just stay strong.

There's no problem, hun. And I don't think telling Kerli will be wasting of her time. I know that she wants to stay in touch with her fans and she wants to know what they're going through, so if there's a need she could help them. It could be that you imagine this stuff but you said that your brother have seen demons. Where did he see them? Was it in your house or somewhere else? Because if he saw demons in your house maybe you're not just imagining, because you're not the only one who thinks there are demons in there . But as I said, don't be afraid. Untill everything is ok you shouldn't be scared.

I think u should conact your angels more then. every time u get scared or hear/see somethink reach for your angels and ask them to protect you. they will

and whatever you do. DO NOT WATCH PARANORMAL ACTIVITY

go to her formspring www.formspring.me/bubblegoth and post a question. she will definitely answer ur question!

Just visited her formspring and saw a question that kinda helped:

Q: I feel a lot of bad things around me, I feel like i need to protect myself. Do you know something, a symbol, fairy, something that could bring that sense of protection to me? PLEASE?
A: when I feel dark, I just ask for the angels to be with me and clear the space around me of all energy but the energy of love. It helps.

Hmmm but it still doesn't answer EVERYTHING.... To be honest I just wanna know what to do because I feel absolutely helpless :/

Well ILU is so beautiful because it stands for so many beautiful things:
ILU - i love you
ILU - integrity love unity
ILU - beauty in estonian


so u can say so much in 3 little letters

I am going to tell you something that kerli told me when i was breaking down.
As much as it hurts right now, it will get better. To hurt and to be hurt is all a part of life and that is going to build your character..

Stay strong and even if you're in deep shit don't let your head down!

ps you've got us! and we would NEVER judge anybody by their looks, weight, hair colour or what they wear.

Don't let everyone put you down, keep your head up high.

everyone is not perfect, we all have flaws. People who had a hard time during school and childhood/teen stage grow up to be successful people :]

Kerli was put down a lot, and look at who she is right now? We are here for you :] And ignore them, report and block.

Smile please aaaaaaaa Pokemon are amazing <3 What is ur fav?

Pokemon are so cool :] I have 2 games and a pokemon sticker collection book that is left of my older brother.

Eevee is so cute >-< I love mudkip <3

AAAAAA Evee is wonderful. My favorite was Pikatchu When I was kid I loved Pokemon's

I love you too Caroline. I'll miss you! x x x

<3 <3 love you girly, have funn!
we'll be here when you get back

Umbreon is fantastical ^.^ <33

And I love you :* See you

<3 Don't overstudy!!! Take a nap sometimes too lol

aww
i think ToL is a BASIC HUMAN RIGHT and shouldn't be taken away from people, especially moonchildren lol

We miss you too Caroline :]
naww you are very talented at songwriting and poetry, there are websites out there where you can send them to bands. Not every singer/band written their songs by themselves.

But it's never too late to learn any skills, don't stress :]

Entry #7

Soo many dramas this week!

For example, yesterday morning one of my friends came to school and said "i had such a bad sleep last night! i just had so much on my mind!" and i asked "like what? maybe we can help?" and she said "well at 11.30PM zach (her ex boyfriend) said that he's decided that he doesn't want to be christian anymore" so i said "well, isn't that kind of his own personal decision to make? don't you want him to be comfortable with what he believes in? surely, that's the most important thing?"

She said "you wouldn't understand because you're not christian"

I swear a part of me DIED! i've always treasured christianity and hold it close to my heart. But she has never considered me a Christian because I also believe that there is no right or wrong when it comes to religion. I believe it is a person's own choice and it should be whatever feels right to them. She has always said that all other religions are wrong and demonic and if people haven't found Jesus then they will always be "lost". So I've always been inferior to her because I think all faiths are beautiful.

*sigh* then I walked off in a huff because I really didn't know what to say to that. Half our friends came with me and said that she was inappropriate and that they agree with what I said.

But then later on, she came up to me and apologised for HOW I TOOK IT. How stupid does she think I am? Telling someone that they're not Christian seems like a pretty air-tight accusation to me. That was when I started to talk to some of my Buddhist friends which turned out to be one of the most amazing conversations I've ever had.

We just talked about how we're all aiming for the same things: love and peace. And that calmed me down and I reminded myself that I shouldn't let things like this distract me from the true beauty in this world.

BUT whenever I see her now, I can't help but get so angry and I start to feel like a volcano that just NEEDS to erupt!!! In other words, I've been an emotional mess all week.

But then today, we had students from Japan at our school and I was helping a group of four with their English worksheets. And then I came across a girl called Mioko. Between her eyes were 3 aligned red dots. Moonmarks. They may just have been a coincidence, but they prompted me to reflect on my OWN behaviour this week and I suddenly felt ashamed for my hostility. I certainly wasn't showing Integrity, Love or Unity!

I hope to make a new start next week, starting with a heart-felt apology for my pettiness towards my friends. I regret encouraging bitchiness like that and want to accept my friends views so that I can support her. I didn't even help her after she'd had so much on her mind that she couldn't sleep!

I want to be a better person so much <3




PS: This "drama" inspired me for a song that i've started, but i won't be able to finish it for at least 3 weeks because I'm going to join up with another friend so that we can collaborate. Here is the first verse and chorus anyway:

I am free, I refuse to believe
That you have power over me
I know what I am
But who are you to challenge my views?
We are all equally divine
The separation’s all in our minds
I strive for the same things as you
So why do you think you know me more than I do?

Who I love is my decision
What I pray (for) is my right
Where I worship is yet to be decided
But I’m sure He’s got the time
And I know in my heart
That He’s waiting patiently
For me to settle in Him
And that that leap of faith is up to me

This is one reason why I love being a Buddhist, most people I met who are Buddhist are very sweet and interesting. There is quite a few people who are very stuck up for their religion and I think it is wrong to judge rudely on other people's faith. I have a friend who is Christian and we both respect our beliefs and your friend should do as well.

Heh, funny how I joined up with a friend writting a story too :]

Don't feel too bad about what happened, Caroline. Everyone, including Moon Children, have times when they feel they cannot love. I've been through a similar thing recently. You realised what you'd done wrong and want to make up for it, and for me that displays so much Integrity, Love and Unity

That song looks wonderful so far, I can't wait to see it when it's finished

:O Your parents lack faith in you. This is one reason I don't tell anyone but my close friends about these things.

Iridescent_Revival_<3 wrote:

Iridescent_Revival_<3 wrote:hmmm i just asked out loud that if i have a guardian with me, whether they're angel or fairy, could they please let me know how to recognise them... and for a few seconds i saw a triangle of fluorescent (can't spell D:) moving shapes. They seemed to change from a light blue to a light pink, but mainly kept to a grey-blue tint...

hmmm so what do you guys think?

!!!!! i told my parents and they organised for me to see a therapist. so then i asked my friends what they think and they said i imagined it. why does nobody believe me!?!? i wish they'd take me seriously.

OMG, hugggggsss!! Tons of hugs. I guess your parents are just different. If they don't get it then it doesn't matter. Just don't tell them about it anymore. I know it's hard but for your own sake keep it to yourself (and share with those who understand or won't judge you). I'm lucky with my mom. She's different too. She believes in magic, fairies etc. She's actually clairvoyant but decided not to develop her powers because she had this knowing that it's gonna cost her later on in life. A smart woman!

Oh no, that's awful...

It's a shame, but some people have closed themselves off to magic and angels. They believe growing up and being normal means leaving all of those beliefs behind. It's a special thing to be able to contact angels or fairies and everybody could do it if they tried...it's so sad...But at least you can tell us these things, and we will always believe you.

Also, I don't know why people see being crazy as a bad thing. Caroline, I've probably known you were a little bit crazy for longer than your parents and I've only known you for a few weeks xD Maybe that's just because I'm crazy too I don't know where I've picked this up from, but this is one of my favourite quotes at the moment: "I don't suffer from insanity. I'm enjoying every minute of it!"

Just keep believing and your angel/fairy will help you through this. Keep it a secret from your parents from now. My mum believes in magic to a certain extent, but I think she'd believe I was a bit crazy too if I told her about my fairy guardian. Enjoy having your little secret

People have closed minds. You are unique!!!Please, don't think about people..

Entry #8

OMG THIS IS SO WEIRD!!!!!! I mean I come back and everything looks so different and all my blue writing looks ugly on the new colour scheme lol xD I'm not sure what all the moons and hearts etc mean but I'm sure I'll get used to it

I swear life always follows certain themes. Like all the events happening around me will all be connected to each other somehow. Around December – April/May, the theme was sexual orientation. Before that it was sex before marriage. Before that it was the “past” as in the people from my hometown. I can’t remember the themes before that. At the moment, with there being so many dramas going on, the theme is a mixture of things. Kerli, Moon Marks, and Table of Love are a big component of this. But there are also fairies, angels and demons.

This week, my friend showed me a poster she was working on for a school assignment (in Design). It was AMAZING! And it freaked me out how relevant it was to the current themes in my life. I told her “if someone put my soul on a computer screen that would be it”. The background was a full moon which of course made me think of I.L.U. The title was ‘Fallen Angel’ which is something I’ve been interested in lately. And then there was a picture of the fallen angel, but she had fairy wings with 3 dots on them which looked like moon marks.

And then the next day, when my nose was bleeding, 3 drops of blood landed on my sleeve in a perfect line and won’t wash out so now my white school shirt is stained. But I don’t mind because that means that now I will always have the moon marks there to remind me of the kind of person I want to be.

Maybe it’s just my brain trying to make connections between my surroundings but I’m sure that these can’t all just be coincidence. Everything happens for a reason. Surely, these thoughts wouldn’t pop up in my head. Sometimes I wonder if it is my guardian putting ideas into my head, trying to teach me something, or remind me to stay on track. Whatever it is, it kind of gives me a sense of stability in my life, for which I am extremely grateful

I am happy today, Moon Children. This is the first time that I have been genuinely happy in a long time. So I’m going to enjoy this for a while.

I send you all the love and light I can bring from my happiness because I want you all to feel as warm as I do now. Because you are my marshmallows. And my marshmallows deserve all the joy this world has to give.

Arohanui, nga tamariki o te po! <3333

hiii
im happy to see u here again! yes everything is different - ive made a little entry in the 'kerli.net' about the new images so u can see what the icons mean!

also.. there is a book called 'fallen angel' as well u should check it out xx