jayson526 thoughts

Jayson, please don't worry about their, you know that you are better than it.
I will not say bad about their because this is your family. They can to have bad moments and maybe it reason why are so hard for you.
I hope that everything will be better for you
Yes, you deserve only on the best things on this world <3
I love u <3

Well good news and bad news

we are back in contact with my grandparents, life is to short to let silly things like a fight let me not see my grandparents ((my other family is a no show but oh well)) but well thats not that the bad the bad is that im having surgery a week before something that i planned all last year and now i have to cancel that thing, so now im depressed because i dont get to see my friends.

I think it's good that your trying to work things out with your grandparents

honey, u know how much i believe in you
u are wonderful person so cute and lovely
try to think positive
there on the night sky is so sweet star
and smile to u !!!
you are so amazing, you shouldn't be sad...
please don't be depressed we love you so much
you are part of us!!!!!!!
many hugs and kisses

Krissy wrote:I think it's good that your trying to work things out with your grandparents

yeah we are because well my mom is kinda sick also and i think she is going to be put into the hospital pretty soon for awhile, i have been crying because of her for the past month and a half fearing that every day i wake up i wont have a mother anymore because she just gets worse and worse but well she finally saw me at one of my breaking points and i told her i feared her death and she got the picture and she said if it got any worse she would go to the hospital right away. So we started talking to my grandparents because well we wanted to patch things up before anything happened like that.

awwww.Hugs* I'am so sorry.Wish things can get better

Ok i thought i would update this and tell you what i have been up to since i have been gone.

well everything was alright up until a few weeks ago when i had to have three surgeries at the same week finding out that later in life i will suffer from galstones ((which are stones formed in your galbladder)) i also found out that i might not have celiac ((which is a great thing)) but also that for how long that i have been on a gluten free diet i could have hurt my body beyond repair. now i didnt mind that because just thinking i could have cake and stuff again made my day. and now two days ago my baby puppy died, i had him for nine years as my sleeping partner and well i am crushed right now. and before that i had a huge fight with my dads side of the family and now i never want to see them again because i dont think i need that kind of people in my life.

loves i know some of you have been worried about me and i love all of you for that.

My wonderful J, i'm sorry for your loss...but what's most important is you and the people you love to be ok..I'm sorry you had to go through all of these things. I have a problem with my dad's sister and her daughters, they're totally bitchies and sluts, actually whores, literally, so my dad doesn't speak with them and neither do we.. I hate them..So i was kinda sad at the beginning until i realised that i don't need them..I have my family and friends, and the most important thing in the world is to be surounded be people who make your day, and make you smile, make you feel comfortable and you can depend on...Screw them, you deserve better..You made us worry! but that's ok now..as long as you're fine <3

it was a few weeks ago but I send to u many love and light
I love u so much

i'M sorry for your loss

thank you krissy

oh and just to let people know my mom is in the hospital its been five days now

yw.hope things will be ok

Aww...sorry to hear that

You surround yourself with people that make you smile, not people who hurt you <3

ok so i got to get dressed soon to go out so im just going to keep it simple and sweet with just small outlines of whats going on..


Me and my mom have been talking more and more and she is getting so much better everyday...she was on alot of pain meds because of everything and i talked to her about them and she is going off of them little by little and now i have my old mom back. ((not health wise but mental and personality)

i have saw my cousins more and more in the last two months because my grandparents get them every friday so they come over for like a hour and they just love that i have a chalk board in my room ((and have chalk because *cough* i have fun with it to XD))

im getting the new house in a livable state since we are fully moved in and everything its just making the house a home now.

i might not like him but my dad is starting to understand what im doing and being at least alittle nicer to me and stuff ((ok so for a week i just stopped everything so that he saw what all i did))

my grandfather while still a pain has let a few things go that he harps on all the time like my love life ((i think he thinks i should be like others and date but when i told him i dont like anyone he dropped it XD)) and finding a job ((i told him to back off on that because i am getting tired of it)) and driving ((i asked him if he was willing to have someone die because im not ready because that was the chance he was taking by pushing me))

im like soo freaking happy and i dont know why i mean its not like much has changed but just the fact that i see my cousins ((and my boy cousin is like a mini me down to the way he shops XD and the girl one is the parts he isnt like a diva and spoiled XD)) plus my moms health and the fact that nobody is jumping down my throat anymore is like great.

Hi Jayson,
I’m so sorry that I reply right now but I have crazy time. Hope that you understand me.
And I’m so happy, you don’t know how much that with your mom is better. I was so worried about her. Sending to her many so sweet love and happiness It good that you meet with cousins, I remember that you missed to their. I’m too happy for your new house. It wonderful that your dad starting to understand you. You see, new home=new place=new part of life. You started new life and it must be like the best for you. About your love life. I feel that your grandfather loves you so much and cares about you. He wants like the best for you. I think that we shouldn’t looking for love. It love should to found us. Many hugs <3

Ok her is what im going through oh and this is just this month ((past 24 days))

On the third my dads mother passed away so i had to spend the whole rest of the week up in Michigan for the funeral. The day after we got home we had to call 911 because my mom was in sort of a coma ((she was not responding and wouldnt wake up)) and for four days we had to hear how she was not going to be the same with a severe amount of brain damage. She is now awake and is getting better to the point where she is now the old mother that i knew and loved. While my mom was in the hospital ((still is)) my grandfather had to go into the hospital for his heart and he now needs to be on oxygen for the rest of his life. i Also have been getting sicker and sicker because well im not taking care of myself so i can be with my mom and the fact that hospitals is the worst place to catch things. All of this is making me loose sleep not eat and in fact i feel like im loosing my mind.

Jayson I'm so sorry. That's a whole lot of painful stuff to deal with at once. I'm glad that your mother is getting better. Just remember to step back and breathe and take care of yourself. It's hard when you have a loved one sick in the hospital but remember, the better you take care of yourself the better you can be there for your mom.

Lots of love and big hugs.

I'M so sorry,*hugs*.

I'm so sorry, Jayson. I hope your mother continues to get better. Don't forget to take care of yourself though! Like out of the hollow kinda said, you can take better care of your mom when you're feeling better yourself too.

im trying to take care of myself but its hard...it really is when the rest of your family doesnt take care of themselves you i have to for them....

a few things have happened like my mother now is out of the hospital ((been out since thanksgiving but im to lazy to update this all the time...if you want to know all the time just find me on facebook XD))
she has now been getting better to the point she has no need for a wheelchair unless its like a long trip ((shopping she needs one just so she doesnt get tired)) and well the only thing that could tell something was EVER wrong is a wound vac which is a machine that sucks onto a open wound so it doesnt grow anything bad.
i have now been on a total of 6 job interviews with no luck ((but job INTERVIEWS that means my life is going alittle on the right path to normal))
i have been in the hospital myself...i hurt my foot AGAIN and now we are talking with the foot dude ((thats what i call him because foot doctor just sounds weird to me)) about having pins put in my feet so that they are stronger ((i told him i want bionic legs so i can run a race XD he said if he did that he would find the ugliest legs ever....i like him)) and i have a few other things ((catscans on my ears to see wtf is wrong with them)) my tummy doc ((who now says that all my tummy troubles are because of stress XD well DUHHHHH))

so yeah thats about it