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This is true for some of them. I noticed through out the years that girls seem to be a LOT more backstabbing and "catty" then guys. Which is probably why I have had way more guy friends then girl friends. The few girls I do hang out with are very special people. Laid back and foolish and over all really nice. It took me a long time to find them. I think I'll keep em.

that's true.I think think girls can be more mean with the words....when guys are mean with there hands..

Yes that makes sense. Good way to put it. Guys are more physical and girls are more verbal.

being verbaly hurt,hurts far more

Yup, it really does. That's why I've programed my mind to think that what people say doesn't matter. & I don't just think it, it's true.

I take everything to heart.I'm too damn emotional.

I hate the feeling. I'm actually at school right now, but I am done with my work, so it is okay.

Bored though. I hate being good in math because I finish work before everyone else and it is so boring.... ugh.

Alright, haven't been on in a few days, my computer has a virus, so I can't open the Internet... Right now I'm on my dad's iPad.

Anyway, I have been crocheting a lot in the past few days... A couple days ago I crocheted a puppy from the show Invader Zim... It looks adorable.. If you don't know what they look like just look up 'invader zim puppies' on Google Images and you'll find it. I also crocheted Gir yesterday, and it looks a little weird, because the green is off, but oh well. I love him anyway.

I'm trying to decide what to crochet next. Suggestions?

Oh, and me and my friend are okay again. Kinda.

Ohhhhhhh and it is spring break for me, woohoo!

Glad your friend and you are ok. Hope it stays that way.
Hmmmm I don't know if I can think of anything to suggest. If I do I'll let you know. I'm sure something will come to me.

Yeah... ^

Went to church today, then Sunday school. Had fun.

Then I went to the aquarium, where I got an albino alligator plushie... It's adorable. :3

MUST DRAW PIC OF SEBBY FROM BLACK BUTLER.

Alrightsies.
Went to Bible Study, had a ton of fun... Gonna get a book called 'Do Hard Things', which is about being a teenager and doing things in Christ and God, so yeah.

Getting Finale Notepad when my dad gets home, it's a software that lets you write sheet music, and I am super excited.

Last exam tomorrow, but next week I have to take a test to get into 8th grade algebra. Ugh!

Anyway. Went to mall and got more Japanese candy!!(at Hot Topic) -high five- YEAH!


Have a great rest of your day!

Alrightykins.

I should have posted last week, cos I got the results then, but I got almost a perfect score on my Math exam, 49/50(480) and 476 on my Reading exam, which I'm not sure, but I only missed like 4 questions. Yay! June 6th is the Algebra prognosis, by the way.
I am looking up websites to use to learn how to speak German, and also Google Translate XD

Eating Pocky and drinking Diet Pepsi Wild Cherry. Love y'all, bye!

Awesome. Well done.

Thankies.

So, lately, I haven't been completely sure of who I am. Kerli's music and creativity have helped me through a phase of re-creation and love.

I used to know who I was, who I wanted to be, but now I just don't know. I used to think I was this big, bad tough girl who wouldn't let anyone stand in her way. I used to be the girl who was all talk, but when it came to action, I didn't want to get in trouble. I was the girl who had some deep thoughts in her brain that were never voiced, the girl who wanted more but didn't know how to get it. I'm tired of her.

Now I think I'm the girl who has control, and isn't afraid to stand up for who she is, what she believes in, and her friends. The girl who has a calm sense of justice and truth. The girl with a temper but the self control to hold back. The girl who people respect, and they aren't afraid of. The girl with the iron fist that doesn't get used often. The girl with the deep thoughts and insightful outlook on life. I like this girl. I think she's creative, artistic, and a girl who people would be proud to call a friend.

I've started getting more in touch with myself, and who I am. I'm going to start writing poetry, and get back into drawing. I'll attempt to write lyrics and stories. I just hope that throughout my journey, my fellow MoonChildren will stand tall with me. <3

your young you got a while to find it out/I think we all go threw different phase's that's normal.

Gah tho. I look back at myself 2 years ago, and I can't even think back to how I felt inside, but I just can't imagine being that person again.

Emotions are false. It's just a sham our brain creates.

I'm glad you're changing. So long as it's for the better. There's always room for self improvement. Like a never ending remodel project.

Emotions are indeed weird. Ultimately; enjoy them as long as they don't harm you. And don't be deceived by them. Even the bible says the heart is treacherous. That's why I hate when people tell others to follow their heart. It's like, no, acting on emotion instead of rational and logical thinking is perilous and reckless. Kind of like the whole "if it feels good, do it" school of thought. Relying on sensory gratification like that is a sure way to land one's self in misery and all sorts of ramifications. But some people hate analyzing situations in detail at all, so to each his/her own.

How did that music program work out? Been writing anything?

:O I love you so much right now. You know exactly what I mean. I'm the practical friend, the one you can depend on when you're sad, so I mean, my emotions need to be shoved down or not existent so I can be strong for my messed up friends(there are three choice friends who have to comfort me sometimes though lol) I'm not saying I bottle it up, I just... ignore. I mean, emotions are thought into, not definite.

I didn't get the program.... I've decided I'm only playing the violin to make the family happy(don't say this is wrong, I can't get out of playing violin, my parents had to rent a violin that next year I will officially own)


Okay, so I have a question:

Is it wrong to hate two people who love you?(not my parents, two guys WE'RE THIRTEEN I DON'T UNDERSTAND WHY THEY THINK THEY KNOW WHAT LOVE IS okay rant over ^^)


And also, just a thought: Feelings always complicate things.

I don't usually hate anyone.I dislike things about people.Some people are hard to like,

I guess at that age its more like puppy love.

Yeah. But like really. It's annoying and stupid.

I'm sure they will get over you.& move on to the next chick.Just don't give them any signs that you like them.

I don't like either of them. My friend tried to tell me all my hatred was actually love but I told her to shut up because that's impossible. o.o

how can love be hate?

EXACTLY.

There is possibly a hurricane headed for Florida and the Carolinas. WHERE I LIVE.

Hope the guys get the hint. And be sure to get out of dodge of the going w storms gets tough. Btw, very much enjoying your musings on emotion and feelings!

keep safe

@Krissy, thanks.

@wolfeh awwh thanks. Normally people just think I'm crazy lol. We just went out and bought a ton of canned food and unperishables, so we should be good on food. The only problem will be staying in a place with no windows, which is our pantry and our bathrooms, but one of the bathrooms is on the edge of the apartment. VERYY tricky.


I just forgot what I was gonna say.... Hmm. :/

OH YEAH

Last night, me and one of my friends got into a conversation about my conspiracy theories. It got pretty crazyyy.

Lol conspiracy theories? Like illuminati stuff? And woot for canned goods! Hope y'all will be okay and not have damages dear.

Conspiracy as in maybe we don't really exist and we're just dreaming in test tubes in some mad scientist's lab. O.O

xD

That's quite the theory!

So did the last couple hurricanes abuse y'all too bad?

Nope, we had one last year but it wasn't bad, it was actually around this time last year. O.O

We had a tropical storm last year that caused a bit of flooding, but nothing horrible.

Another of my theories is that we're all stoners. It's a possibility.

And my mother has been horrible today, yelling at other drivers, me, being angry at people at Wal Mart who are trying to get supplies too. She needs to chill, with all of her anger and yelling she's given me a headache. :/

maybe your mother is stressing over work or something and taking it out on you?

So.
Texting guy is out of my life. Told him to leave me alone, and he FINALLY DID. SUCCESS.

Other guy still not taking a hint. I swear next time he touches me when I tell him NOT to touch me(like a poke or whatever) Imma hurt him. If I don't want to be touched, I don't want to be touched.
Ugh.

least one is leaving you alone

Yeah, and the other I only have to see on the bus and in the hallways.

But yeah.

Cramps. > I feel fat as well. Urgh.

It'll pass...it always does Makes me feel pretty gross too

Mwah!! It did. I always feel so much better after.

I just totally forgot what I was gonna say. It'll come to me later probably, so I'll edit this and type what I was gonna say XD

*sigh*

I would say something, but I don't think anyone really cares. My best friend of 8 years knows more about an interne friend than me. I think I need to go just lie down or something. :'(

Every now and then, I start to feel like my friends aren't even really my friends. The funny thing is I really shouldn't feel that way. Some little thing will happen that will make me feel a little jealous or whatever...but then I realize I'm being silly. Overreacting.
Like, my best friend just broke up with her long time boyfriend and father of her child and she is now dating this new guy...and she's ALWAYS with him lately. It gets really irritating...but then I stop and think that she deserves a little change in scenery and some alone time with someone new. I'll leave her alone for a couple days and then she's hounding me calling my house, my cell, messaging me to try and get me to go out w/ her.

I dunno about your situation here, but I would think since most people are home more often than anywhere else, that if they make a friend on the internet it's probably just really easy to find out a lot about them just from chatting with them a while.
You know, people spend so much time on the computer these days talking to others.
Maybe she doesn't and maybe I'm wrong, but I think maybe you might just be getting a jealous unintentionally like I do at times. & I doubt someone she only knows on the internet could take the place of her best friend for 8 years.
My best friend forgets tons of stuff about me...and stuff I say...but that's just the type of person she is...one of the ones who can't seem to store to much information in their brain at the one time, lol.
Anyway, I'm rambling...I dunno if any of that made any sense or not. Just hang in there. It's probably nothing

It made perfect sense, and I am getting a little jealous, but she can list a ton of stuff off to her Internet friend, but when it comes to listing stuff about me she just sits there like o.o
Maybe because I'm closed off. I don't like getting very close to people because I'm afraid of being hurt. Idk why I'm like that but I am. :/

you know that's how i felt. still do sometimes.

It's normal to wanting to protect yourself and its good in a sense.. but then again, its bad in another way because if you close up, people close up to you as well and if that's the case you will never find that really special friend who you can share everything with.
thanks to my ex fucking me about i was really down for over 7 months and i wasn't myself at all. i was so suspicious about everybody and everything and i didn't want to trust anybody because he had really hurt me & he was the person i trusted with a lot of personal things. but now, thanks to moving to a new place, meeting new people, doing new things.. i feel SO happy and im not afraid to open up to people anymore it takes time and some getting used to but its worth it.. in my opinion at least.

^ Plus, you can always be open and still keep your guard up a little. That's what I do. I've been screwed over that many times by idiots with nothing better to do w/ their lives that for a while I closed myself off a lot, too.
But now I'm just like screw it...I'm going to be myself and be open, I'm just going to *secretly* keep a look out for people with bad intentions.
Treat everyone at first like you would a friend, then if you see big reasons to doubt them, don't talk to them

Aha, *secretly*.

Thanks for the advice, I'll take it to heart, I really need to be open because if I don't I'll end up an old lady with 47 cats XD

I'm already on my way there! LOL. I've got 2 cats, 2 bearded dragons, a leopard gecko and a corn snake...plus the bearded dragon I'm babysitting for a friend until he gets his own place. LOL...oh my.

Haha, I have an 18 year old cat(she's the classic black cat), and I used to have two dogs. One Brittany Spaniel and a Chesapeake Bay Retriever.

I want a pomeranian lol.

I want a small puppy, too. I don't like cats. something similar as chihuahua is cute.

I like cats.sometimes they can be annoying.