Natt sends you love<3

Hi MoonChildren,

I don’t remember when I wrote in my blog last time but I’m sorry for it. Really I had crazy time and I couldn’t . I planned wrote about something by last days. Hope that you will not angry at me.

At the first I take part in some contest. “Poland For All” organized by Minister Of Foreign Affairs Of The Republic Of Poland . A countrywide action initiated by the coalition “Together Against Anti-Semitism”. I’ll try do video animation which can to help say stop racism and xenophobia. I’m so excited. And I have some idea too but it doesn’t have any chance because only one person wants to help me- when I asked on Facebook. It made me so sad. But I’ll must try something another…

„Projekt wykonany w ramach Konkursu Ministra Spraw Zagranicznych „POLSKA DLA WSZYSTKICH” na wszelkich wykorzystywanych przez siebie materiałach dotyczących projektu, w szczególności w: notatkach dla prasy, władz samorządowych, społeczności szkolnej/akademickiej, materiałach audio-wizualnych, plakatach, transparentach, banerach, spotach reklamowych oraz materiałach publikowanych na portalach internetowych i przesyłanych pocztą elektroniczną etc.

Last time I work on farm more and this is really crazy. Today it was almost all day. I want to sleep right now so much but I want to watch some movie too… hahahha every decision is next step in your life.

My new life motto: “Every decision is next step in your life”. It inspired me right now to write something but don’t have strength to it. Maybe tomorrow or another day will create with these words something new for me. I must to believe in it.

And my passion. Maybe remember that some time ago I mentioned about it how much I love flowers. Today I want to talk about it.

Flowers are my passion. They giving me strength and bring me smile on face. Working with flowers o farm is so cool. I have there flowers also from May to early October because next is so cold autumn. Have flowers at home it isn’t the same like on the garden. On the garden you can feel every their smile, I don’t joke. But at home I have my fav flower and my heart is for her. She’s the white pelargonium. I love her smell. Often talk to her. People always have pelargonium during summer and later throw out because for their is cheap. I have my a few year and will not lose her never. She’s like my teddy bears. She understands me. I know that I sound so weird but I’m weird girl.

And on farm I have right now :

The gladiolus - I think that this is the queen of the flowers. You must take care so much. They are very fragile but always their flowers are wonderful. Although they don’t smell it look is so inspiring. They have bulbs. Form one big bulbs during all time of the being in the earth (I keep 4-4.5 months) is many a little. And always next year I plant a little and about 10-15% flowers in the same year, but when they have 2 years flowers every… but only 20-30% a little bulbs have to chance don’t die.

Random photos from Internet:




Zinnia I think that it was my first garden flower. In my life I have two types. I had two years Zinnia Mexicana but I lost the seeds because was awful summer and they didn’t have seeds.




And I have a normal zinnia. In this year I sowed the seeds my own and bought. My own zinnias are wonderful, really. I working for this look 14 years and you can’t buy the same. They are so colorful, they are orange, in the centre is purple-pink and they have spots. So cool. I bought in this year seeds because I needed some color to mix . You know they will receive new influence.

This is a photo from Internet:



Cosmos bipinnatus – this flower is so cool and can growing in every place. I found first the seeds so crazy. I didn’t bought. Always when I went from secondary school it in so empty place they was and when was a seeds I took some for myself. This is a normal in my country. No one was owner. It was near road. And this flower always make me so happy.



Lupinus- so simple and has so beautiful smell. Love it so much!!!



Papaver somniferum – this is so much fragile flower, one touch and it’s end of the flowers…



Limonium- one of my favorite flowers on this world. Unfortunately if you want to have it you must to buy the seeds because this flower is to drying and by it all time you can to have these in room. Really I can’t describe how much you must to take care about this flowers. How hard is that gained. But I love so much. And my family too.



Calendua Officinalis – they reminds me about hot summer and light. They giving so manay positive vibres.



Aster- can’t wait to moment when they will flowers… first is almost really… in this year so early because is so hot.. a normal flowers in September… I sow these for my mom always because she loves so much



Tagetes- so unique and like dream but I’m not too big fan of their but is still in my heart by look a little and smell which hypnotize me.





And do you have maybe some garden flowers or like??

Do you wanna that take a photos of their tomorrow??? Unfortunately I can’t do on farm but cut flowers and add photos here… If someone wants to see my “kids”?

Every day I love going to my flowers and see. It’s so lovely when you can to see and feel the smell. For me are so unique, and every more. I love so much.

I know I’m so simple girl. I don’t care about fashion, make-up, stylists, magazines, covers etc . But more of girl care about it. For me valid are only people and my passions. Flowers are more cool than clothes.
I think that next my post in this week will be about it what I feel on this world, you know gossip portals, magazines- and about true world which will not fragile for you like on the covers.

I love you so much and sending for everyone so many dreams and love,
Natt

BSTA #23 Christmas

Christmas, Christmas, Christmas….. true is that I don’t like the Christmas and New Year Time because I’m always more than alone in this time.

And about my Christmas:
In every year in my school a few day before Christmas we had a “Christmas Eve”. We brought food and ate together and sang but I didn’t like it.. and in high school I wasn’t on Christmas Eve.

But home:

I celebrated Christmas when I was a kid. It was like in traditional family.. I cared about Christmas tree. I loved it. And I remember how my mom did everything, you know this atmosphere.

And the Christmas Eve- I remember how we waited for the first star on the Christmas Tree and next we prayed and ate together. To the moment when I was about 11 always I take a little handmade gifts.. for their it was weird. The reason was that at my home wasn’t Christmas gifts… but always my sis received something because she has the name day in 24th December. I remember how much sad I was when my “friends” treated me weird because at my home wasn’t Christmas gifts.

For me the Christmas wasn’t about gifts just about family and atmosphere… but 2 years ago I met the true Santa Claus. He visited my city and his wife is Polish!!!

But one year ago and in this year I did some gift to someone. Hope that this person will be happy about it.

And now if I still don’t understand why people spending everything for the Christmas ….. if I could to met the Santa’s Claus I would to please him just about the love, hope, happiness and wax crayons or pastels..I know that I sound so pathetic….

But now we don’t celebrate… I’m atheist… ok but I miss to the family atmosphere… I’m sick of the quarrels and

And New Year- always this eve I’m alone with my laptop….

Really I don’t like the Christmas/New Year because this is a symbol of the pain and being alone…



Christmas Stockings....




HOW TO SAY STOP: SELF HARM

I know what you feel, when you think that whole world hates you…when you feel that no one understands you…when you say that your life doesn’t make any sense…when you don’t want to life… I know where are you now and we can through by it, together.

Often you run away to hurting yourself. I know that by one moment it helps but later you feel just worse. The wounds heal so slowly and pain with fear are biggest inside you. Shame, hate and thoughts of death. You think that you are alone but it’s not true. There is someone who can helps you. You must try.

I drew it special for you. I want to give you something to help you.
The drawing “Just breathe” symbolizes life. We sail on the ship and choose directions that follow. When we ship in the wrong direction it we met the rocks. We can overcome the obstacle.
When we shop in good direction it we met the island where is so safe. Life isn’t easy but always we can try to change something. Don’t be afraid, just breath and fight.



Fighting with self harm is hard but you can won it. Just please, stop hurting yourself.

What we can to do that stop suffer??

1.If you know someone from family, school or you have good friend(s), please talk to their about your problem. Don’t forget that your parents, teachers was young too and they know what you feel.

2.If you can’t talk with someone, try to contacts with some organization, foundation which can to help you, e.g. TWLOHA or hot line…

3.Try to write a diary, put there your feelings

4.Write poems, stories, blogs, drawing, take a photos- it will make your soul more free

5.Exercises a lot. The body loves endorphins.

6.Eat healthy food and drink mineral water.

7.Spending many time on park, forest- organism needs a pure air to breathe.

8.Watch funny animal movies- the smile on your face will not say goodbye!!

9.Take a relax during day. We are humans and we need it.

10.Love yourself

I hope that these advices will help you a little. Please don’t forget that I know where you are and what you feel. You can change everything always, just try. I’ll believe in you all time.

Love you….

WE LOVE VITAMINS

Everyone knows that eating vegetables, fruits and drinking water helping so much for being healthy.If you want to have the body in good condition don’t forget about practice sport, meditation and relaxing. We aren’t the robots, so we need to take care more about body.



I think that we are so lucky that shops give to us so many food. You go to the shop and you will not back hungry. But in this world are places where people don’t have a chance to eat something.



And like for me it’s too horrible that we waste food. The governments should to have a programs which will fight with the poverty.



But vegetables. I think that right now aren’t too cool for the people. We live so fast and the best answer for many of us are fast foods. I’m not fan of this places. For me it’s more than unhealthy.



We have just one heart. Consequences unhealthy eating habits will cut your life short.



When you eat natural food, without many fat it your organism is so happy. Handmade green salad with tomatoes is better than something from fast food. Even you don’t know how was treated food there.



And vegetables, fruits helping your family life too. Always you can to do something with your kids, boyfriend, girlfriend, wife, friends etc…time spent with family is really valuable. So don’t be afraid to try. Better is be happy and healthy.



Source of the vitamins and microelements or food pyramid. It’s about the life. I will not describe just I’ll put some photos which will the best explain it. I think that everyone heard about it. So:






Do you know the best places to buying the food??
Many people going to supermarkets. There stuffs are cheap but we don’t know quality. We don’t know what we eat. But we should to know. We can to buy also in local market.




I don’t know how it looks in USA or in your country but I think that food there is more healthy. Also choose is ecological food but isn’t too cheap.But if you have a chance I think that you should to try.



And GMO… what do you think?? I feel that GMO should be banned because is so dangerous for the world.




But where I buying the food???
The answer isn’t easy. For sure supermarkets because it’s right now it’s the only answer for me and I live in the farm so we have own food. I love my vegetables and fruits. These are almost ecologic.



Every year we sow. It’s so fabulous when you take care about the plants and the next you can to eat these. Yeah, I’m not too big fan of the food but really I like my own. Right now in my room growing up a little tomatoes. These are 2 weeks. And in half of the May will plant to the earth. But also in April I’ll sow at home the next plants. Can’t wait.

But Somewhere I Went Wrong

Hey!!! You know that often I feel like a shadow but now is weird. I had met with the doctor, ok psychiatrist... and I was sent to him that he diagnosed my "anorexia", but he didn't do it. He said to me that I qualify to treatment in hospital. I'll not think about it because I must begin treatment, another judgement will give me to hospital. No one hears me.....



I thought that I'm strong by one a little moment. But it was just dream. I want to feel these emotions, you know happiness and love. But in my soul lives darkness right now...



I feel so unwanted and unloved. I don't want to be a problem. I'm scared that you can be angry at me that I writing so sadness but I share with you everything from my heart...



I hope that new days will bring something better... Just 12 days to met with psychiatrist and I'm worried or more...



Love you so much...

10 Tips To Live A Happier and Healthier Life!!!




Did you see the first signs of Spring? Right now we have March and you know that in this month everything is possible. And I believe that every person likes this time during the year when two seasons "fights" about stay so long as is possible. It brought me some thoughts about life. I thought about changes and the best way to used this months with happiness. So, I have for you my own 10 tips to live a happier and healthier life in this year.



1. Spend time with family and friends. They are the only treasure. Don't forget about respect for them. Don't lose your time for unnecessary things. And take care about your relation with people. Every your step will remember by world. Be careful when you posting in Internet about your personally life and your family. These things will not removed from social network.



2. Practice sport! Exercises are necessary for healthy life. Every body to be in good condition need the right exercise, so use your free time for exercises. If you are pupil or student don't try to escape from physical activities. If you practice sport, you will live long time!!!




3. Eat healthy food. Your body to successfully work needs to balanced diet and vitamins. In today's world we eat junky food because we don't have the time??? I think that's not true. We can wake up earlier and make true meal to school or work. Fruits, vegetables, milk products and water will make you happy



4. Environmental communications. Always you can choose a better way of getting to work. A collective communication and bike are the best idea. Don't wait and stop to use car. We need to have pure air.



5. Garden. Do you like healthy food? You can have your own!!! Garden on the balcony is cool. You can have healthy and tasty herbs and vegetables. You can't buy better



6. Help the people. You know that we are lucky that we have food and safety place to living. Unfortunately the part of people in the world is in worse place, so we need to help them. Every support is important, you can change this world, just one a little support means a lot to the person who you helped. You can share your money, clothes, food, books...or even you can stay volunteer. Every way to help is the best.



7. Clothes don't say who we are. I believe that we shouldn't care so much about buy the next clothes and just give clothes which we don't to persons which really need them. Clothes it just a thing.



8. Don't trust the media. Ads are full of lies so don't watch, don't read them. TV Shows show broke and fake reallity, they wanna just use you. Don't belive in stupid and painful gossips aka news... they just wanna change your mind.



9. Don't buy too many things. To stay alive we don't need a milion things around us. When you are in shop buy just necessery products because we can't eat everything what we took earlier. Better is think two times and buy less than we wanted.



10. Don't Give UP!!! Don't forget about your dreams. The Spring is the best time to realize them. Make your own plan and use a method of a little step. I believe that your idea will great and you will come true as soon is possible.



Be Yourself!!!! Wish You The Best Spring!!!

xoxo
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