Heart's heart

I'll accept that one!

Yay!!!! I know a faerie!!!!!!!!! Sort of!!!!!!!!!!

lunachild wrote:Yay!!!! I know a faerie!!!!!!!!! Sort of!!!!!!!!!!

lol, yeaaah!

Heart wrote:

lunachild wrote:Yay!!!! I know a faerie!!!!!!!!! Sort of!!!!!!!!!!

lol, yeaaah!

I wonder how long our discussion will go on? How have you been?

I wonder how long our discussion will go on? How have you been?[/quote]

lol. I've been okay, major migraines due to the heat and I've been on the verge of getting heatsick a lot so...mostly it's a normal summer I guess! How have you been?

I've been okay. And right with you on the heat! I had to work out in my mom's garden all day pulling up grass... not weeds... not prickers... GRASS!!!!!

lunachild wrote:I've been okay. And right with you on the heat! I had to work out in my mom's garden all day pulling up grass... not weeds... not prickers... GRASS!!!!!

grass? What kind of garden does your mother have that she doesn't allow grass?

Umm... more or less the grass was taking away sun from the tomato plants. It was over growing around them. In a vegetable garden, grass is bad.

ah, still though, that really sucks you had to pull it out by hand. How long did it take?

One row took about an hour, mainly because my cousin and I would, as soon as the sun went behind clouds, work as fast as possible so that we wouldn't get tired out too quickly like when the sun was out. We only managed one full row...
How about you? Anything exciting?

dang, that sounds harsh!

Hmm, anything exciting? Nope, not today. Today I basically melted when I went outside, so I avoided that as much as possible

I've been melting since a few days ago. I can't stand this much heat! It is legit killing me!!!!!!!

Here, here!

Now what shall we do with this heat? It is making storms!

I don't know, but thankfully a little thing that my family call's 'Birthday Season' is nearing it's end, so that will make it a little more tolerable

Hmm, so I guess I haven't updated much on what I'm doing, so I'll just update now!

Yesterday completely wore me out with celebrating my mother and my sister's birthday, I'm not one for parties so that's one of the reasons. The other being that it was hot as usuall and I got a headache>_<

My thought's have been in circle's about what I should go into for a career choice-why anyone would ask a child to decide their life at such a young age is beyond me- but I honestly, although this may sound strange, don't care. All I want to do is discover the world, not be confined to one place and stay there forever. I want to live and have fun, which doesn't require anyone by my side. I'm not fond of being around people, don't know why, just the way it is.

I want to focus on what I want to do right now, but that's such a hard thing to focus on because I have no idea what I want to do.

I'm not one for parties either. My sister has tons, and I just stay in my room.

As for what you want to do in life: Go for it! No matter what it is, live up to what you feel is right for you. If you're socially awkward, try to stay away from jobs that involve social. Or maybe you can do something where you travel a lot. Anyway, whatever you want to do, make sure that you are happy.

Me, I would rather have a job where the pay sucks and I'm happy, than a job where the pay is amazing and I'm miserable.

lol, yeah, room's would be good when the party is at your house:)

It's not that I'm socially akward or anything, just that I don't like the company of people. I want to do what I want, just that I don't know what that is :/ I think traveling would be great, I was interested, but there isn't many interesting jobs that travel.


lol, we're a little different there. I would rather suck it up and smile for a great paying job, than be in bliss with a low paying job.

Hey guys! Long time no write~!

I've been pretty busy lately what with all the birthday's in my family, plus my sister has been dragging me around everywhere she goes!

Anyway, I've still been trying to survive the heat-easier said than done-and I've cut my bangs, and trimmed off all dead ends on my hair so I'm happy! Plus I didn't pay a cent, wanna know my secret?...the secret is I don't trust anyone but me to cut my hair!

Well, nothing to really say besides that, although I know that wasn't much...whatever! See ya guys next time!
I.L.U.

Alright moonchildren, I seriously need some helpful advice-no offence but please ONLY reply with helpful adive- about a point in my life that's seriously like a split road.
I can only take one road, but right now I can't see ten feet infront of me on either.
The road behind me is the road I've followed so far, I know it all forward and backwards. I know each pothole and each bump.
Now, one of the paths infront of me follows that path almost precisly I think. It follows me with where I've been, I can see a couple of potholes that I know, but nothing more than that.
And then there's this newly paved road that branches off of the all-so-familiar road. It leads me to Austin Texas where a design school is there for me, I know I'll have to live with one of my sisters and her husband and baby, probably will get a job, but I can't see it clearly because I'm surrounded by fog.
The problem is, if I take that road I'll be leaving everything. I'll be leaving my brother whom I treasure more than anything and anyone. I'll be leaving my home in the country, the only place that I've ever felt comfortable calling home, and I'll be leaving my band and friends here.
I know that if I go to the Fashion Design school it will only be for a year or two, but I feel that if I leave everything now, I can't ever fully get it back, and if I do it won't feel like it truly belongs in my world anymore.
I need help on deciding which road to choose.

You have to follow your heart. If you desire to stay home, so be it. Maybe you can find a cool school at your homeplace so you don't need to move?!
But if your school lasts only 1-2 year there, why not to try it? It's perfect for your future, you can learn something you love to do and....if those people are so dear to you, I'm sure you mean the same for them. And they'll wait for you back home.

Life is for living! You can't achieve anything if you're not ready to go out there and do it! Go to that desing school! Think it as fun diversion. Couple years isn't THAT long time. I think you will adapt to it, ya know. And your family and friends will be there when you get back. Just my thoughts.

Hey Moon Children! It's been a while huh?

Well in short, a bunch has happened(though I still have 0 clue as to what to go in career-wise) I'm in a hotel right now going to go on a cruise tomorrow!

It'll be a week long and I'm going to be celebrating Halloween on the cruise! How exciting is that?!

I'm going to be updating this over the cruise and sharing the fun with you guys!

See ya!
I.L.U.

LittleHeartie wrote:Life is for living! You can't achieve anything if you're not ready to go out there and do it! Go to that desing school! Think it as fun diversion. Couple years isn't THAT long time. I think you will adapt to it, ya know. And your family and friends will be there when you get back. Just my thoughts.

agree

It's not that I disagree, it's just not in range right now for me. My mother is a little........well in short she's overprotective because I'm the last of 7 and she still thinks that when I grow up she'll be all alone so she won't even allow me to get a job, liscense, or car.

So without anyone of those I'm pretty much stuck in Oklahoma with no way of getting out to go to the Designing school. Poo

When you become 18.Your mom can't stop you from doing whatever you want.But your mom just wants to spend time with you i think before you leave the neast.

Gah! 2 years pass me by to slowly. I understand that she wants to spend time with me and protect me, but trust me, she was never like this with the other 6 children.

For instince, I'm the only one not allowed by her to get a liscense until 18...that's a new rule only applied to me. I'm also not allowed to get a job, or go to the school I want.

Honestly I know ways of getting around the liscnese thing(really easy with the right person and a whole lot of foot rubs) but she still wont listen to anything I say no matter how calmy, or other wise, i say it!

That doesn't sound fair.

I know, it's not>.<

just have faith things get better

Thanks, I guess that's all I can have really. Oh well, the year I turn 18 is the year I set off for Design school!

So, I guess it's been about half a year since I've last posted anything on here.

Thanks to my lovely sister Angela I have gone to drivers school and gotten a permit.
I have also dyed my hair EXTREMELY light red, kinda pinkish red...? And last night I went with my sister, brother, and brothers girlfriend to go see Fun.! It was pretty much awesome sauce sprinkled with Fun.!
At the current momment though, I feel incredibly empty.
I think I just get this way after thinking too much, but I haven't even made one little improvement since the last time I wrote about my problem with choosing what I should go to school for.
In fact I've basically taken a step or two back! I can't figure out the things that I want to do, and I can't understand why?
I know that I love designing clothes, but I als love to write, act, and learn. WTF am I suppose to do? I'm terribly confused.

Okay. I've made a decision!
I know what you're thinking, 'Holycrap! She's capable of doing that?!'...well I guess so!
I think that, I can always make my clothes once I learn how, I don't need to be known for it though. I can't stand giving up any picture that I draw so that eliminates that.
I do plan to publish my book, but I'm still in the 4-year proccess of writing it!
So, I've reached a conclusion based on the fact that I always have pictured myself doing it.
I am going to become an actress!
I don't care how long it takes, but I will become one of the best! Just wait and see!

Talk to you later Moon Children!
I.L.U.

Well good luck.

Follow your heart!
But I have to tell you, I'm in the theatre business and becoming an actress is a HARD job. I'm not saying that you wouldn't be good - you're probably amazing.. but my advice is.. if there is ANYTHING else you could do.. do it. But if acting is the one and only thing you see yourself doing then go for it. but be prepared to get burn.

Thanks, I know a good portion of the job is pure luck, but I have faith that I'll make it!

So lately I've been having a lot of strange nightmares. One invloved a man with glowing red eyes staring at me, another involved me getting thrown 100 feet in the air by a truck hitting me and cracking my head on the pavement, but not dying. Later in that nightmare I seemed to refuse to go back to my family because I felt I had to seperate myself for some reason, like pretending to forget them, but not really.
Don't know why, just thought I'd update this blog.
I.L.U.

Please don't care about nightmares.... they aren't good for us.... but I think that they are did by us fear about something... hugs for you <3

Wish I could, but I believe that dreams do mean something besides fear. Plus when it's more rare to have a dream rather than a nightmare it's kind of hard not to.
But thank you for the hugs! Hugs for you too