Life of a LunaChild

Aww, sounds very magical ^^ Seems everything is just perfect. And since my sense of humor is sarcastic and dark and I'm generally skeptical, there has to be something wrong with the boy xD Heh, don't mind me, I truly am very happy for you and I wish everything will go well with you two :)
But as for advice in love... I'm not sure I'm the best person to give advice, but I can say this... Just be together and have fun, and don't do anything you're not comfortable with. If everything goes well, love will grow more and more with time, and it will change.

I say I'm not the best person to give advice, because I got my first boyfriend a couple of months before I turned 20 :D We're still together (for 5 years now), engaged even. So, sometimes first boyfriends work out surprisingly well! But usually, from what I hear and read, people go through many relationships before they find "the one". But that shouldn't be on your mind now, it's too early :)

How love changes is different for all people, but this is how mine changed. First was the infatuation and admiration; pretty much all I thought about was him, and wanted to be with him all the time. Admiration, because he was so handsome and looked cool and stuff xD Then, the initial infatuation went away, but I still wanted to be with him all the time. I started to feel jealous of him; I got panic attacks almost every time he went somewhere without me. I tried not to be like that around him, because by then (we were pretty much living together) I had noticed he doesn't handle crying people very well :/ Feeling jealous was funny, I wasn't like that before. And now, this "stage" of love I have now; I still want to be with him all the time, he's still very handsome (I told him that again last night. He still doesn't believe me :/) and I'm still a bit jealous... But I no longer have panic attacks when we're apart. Right now, I'm in the living room and he's in the bedroom sleeping, and I want to go cuddle :3
Then, add a bit of disappointments and anger, and you have our relationship ^^
We have had a couple of fights, of course, but they all happened while he was drunk and taking things too seriously... We were always fine the next day, when he was sober xD We fight about music, so it's nothing serious, really. In case you were wondering.

So yeah, all you can do is see what happens and how things develop and all that :)

sends you lots of love.

hope everything gets better for youo

Okay, so I was supposed to go over to Tim's house today, right. He had been having a hard week and I asked him again and again if he wanted to cancel so that he could take a day to himself, even though it was his idea that we get together. Anyway, he kept saying "No, I still want you over." Well this morning he decides that he does need a day to himself. I know I shouldn't be pissed, but the fact that I had ASKED him billions of times if he still wanted me over, and now he decides that he doesn't... I mean really... its just... suckish. It doesn't help that his wrestling makes it a bitch to get a moment alone with him when he isn't tired from kicking ass or having his ass kicked. Now when it was his idea and I was looking forward to one day... POOF! its gone.

Integrity Love Unity
~~ LunaChild (upset and alone)

I'M sorry to here that!.

Sounds like some good goals. Have you heard of National Novel Writing Month? They do summer ones in June and August, and then the official one is in November. Even if you don't finish in a month, there's a lot of support groups on their forums and stuff that would probably be really helpful

As for not being connected, maybe you could reach out to your friends more or let them know how you feel as they might not even realize that they're making you feel stupid. Or there's always meeting new people. That can be fun sometimes. You could talk to your ex too... see what he thinks or at least how he's doing.

I hope everything works out for you.

@ Stargirlstrike ~ Thank you. I hope everything works out as well. I've talked to my friend Haley, not about that but about other stuff. It seems she is getting me more and more because she talks to me and all I hear is the same thing I wanted to scream at her just a few short weeks ago.

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I haven't written in a while, not since Thibault showed up. He is a French ex-change student and is staying with me and my family for a few weeks. He's already been here for a whole week and so far has cooked awesome French food for us on the 14th. Might I add he is kind of a cutie pie.

Anyway, it is hard to get any writing in because I'm trying to be a good hostess. My novel is going no where, but I must continue. No one ever said it would be easy. Easy is simply a blind state of mind in which we put ourselves to trick us into thinking we can breeze right through life with no obstacles. Easy is simply a myth. So I've gotten tired of saying easy. Everything has difficulties, ups and downs.

I'm kind of tired of... well... everything. Mostly myself, but we've all been there right? Where we are just tired of ourselves. How we are afraid to be ourselves and I'm still there. It is hard, mostly because of how I've been raised and feel like I must be someone. I don't know how to be someone though. You're not special until you've done something to make you special. I haven't done that quite yet, therefore I'm not quite special. Where I live at least, kids are raised to think that the sun rises and sets because of them. But when they get out into the real world, no one but their parents are going to think that way. And they're gonna be like



and every one else is going to be like



and it will just be a huge disaster. Then its all up to everyone else's own opinion on that subject matter.

Anyway I'm sort of tired so... can't type anymore... at least for this... I don't know...

Integrity Love Unity
~~LunaChild

Welcome back again! Drama club sounds like a lot of fun. And maybe you should wait it out a bit with that guy so you can see more of if he likes you or not. As far as the age difference goes, I don't think a couple years is a big deal

i'd rather have a real book too.....Don't blame ya. glad ur doing good

I'm so glad I'm not the only one that feels that way about books, Krissy. Many people I know have nooks/kindles and they don't even really read on them! They mostly sit there and play with other apps they have. That kind of thing just addicts more people to stupid apps, no offense to any of my MoonChildren brothers and sisters that do play apps. I just don't see the point in them. Sure, I don't go out that much because I'm up in my room writing all the time. At least I'm doing something for my future that is a part of me. Apps, no matter how attached you become to them, are just some brain damaging addiction. My older sister gets excited every time she hatches a new dragon for crying out loud! It's a fucking game! When I get mad or happy about a game, that's exactly what she tells me, but then turns around and acts the same way I do... except with less swearing I think

Okay, that will be my only rant on that... maybe. I'm not going to garuntee anything. Anyway, I'm at school so I can't make this post all pretty with colors and stuff. I can't really figure it out unless... wait... let me try something...

I typed in some codes around this text and presto! I did learn something when I was memorizing how this stuff worked. I don't really know the one for putting a line through text or quoting it, but mostly everything else is good. Font size isn't my specialty but I could figure it out in no time. This is not the stuff they teach you in computer app, I'll tell you that.

That's actually where I am right now, computer app. We have shortened class periods today, so she didn't assign us anything. She being my teacher. No names please In my opinion, computer app is kind of boring. We do all the same things every day. Mostly involving Mircosoft Word... sorry I know how to use it. Probably not all the fancy stuff, but Mircosoft Word is something that most people learn when they first start needing to write essays. Now that we have computers, it is widely used, unless you use some other program. I don't know, I just use Microsoft. Easy-peasy lemon squeezy! I think that what she should teach us would be MLA format, but hey. I'm not the teacher here. If I were, I would probably just make the kids show me what they can do with Word then teach them what they don't know how to do... wait, that might take way to long. I'm sure everyone knows how to re-font something though. You'd have to be dim in the head not know how to do that simple task.

Man, how many insults can I spit out in one post? I'm going through one of those pedulum mood swings again. Can't help it if I am. Irritable today, open and hugging tomorrow, that's me!

I kind of want to eat, but I've noticed my hips getting bigger. I don't know... It's like, I love carbs and stuff, but I don't need to get big. Already not that attracitve, I don't need another reason not to be. Just... people...

Anyway, bye!

Integrity Love Unity
~~ LunaChild

Nice blog I'll check it out every once in a while. Good luck with it!

I'm not sure of the specifics of your situation, but it happens. Sometimes life gets in the way or sometimes it's just hard to start a new habit and it doesn't end up catching. Part of loving yourself is forgiving yourself <3

Since I started college, I'd gained about 40 pounds >_< I've only lost about 10 so far, but the reason I've lost that is because I've had to make a few lifestyle changes that were a pain at first but have helped so much. There's a website called eatmovesleep.org based on the book by the same title that gives a lot of little tips that can be incorporated every day. In the past, I'd tried just going on an insanely low-calorie diet and jumping into hardcore exercises every day... which didn't work. What's working for me now though is just the little changes that build up over time. Like, instead of always eating chips I now eat pistachios instead. Or instead of buying junk food at school, I pack fruits & veggies for snacks.

So glad to hear about your friends though! As awesome as it is to have friends to talk to online, sometimes that face-to-face really helps.

stargirlstrike wrote:Since I started college, I'd gained about 40 pounds >_< I've only lost about 10 so far, but the reason I've lost that is because I've had to make a few lifestyle changes that were a pain at first but have helped so much. There's a website called eatmovesleep.org based on the book by the same title that gives a lot of little tips that can be incorporated every day. In the past, I'd tried just going on an insanely low-calorie diet and jumping into hardcore exercises every day... which didn't work. What's working for me now though is just the little changes that build up over time. Like, instead of always eating chips I now eat pistachios instead. Or instead of buying junk food at school, I pack fruits & veggies for snacks.

So glad to hear about your friends though! As awesome as it is to have friends to talk to online, sometimes that face-to-face really helps.

That doesn't sound too bad actually. I'll definitely check out the site. I totally get the jumping into it thing... hasn't seemed to work
And yeah, friends are nice. I don't feel as lonely because I can't always talk to online friends... time zones >.<

So the reader is back! I read Divergent in two days... and man does it feel so so good! I forgot the feeling, the rush of reading a book like that. I feel so alive.

I can't wait for summer so I can start reading again. I love being so excited while reading a book that I can't stop reading it, that feeling of being right there with the characters. How did you like Divergent? I haven't gotten to read it yet.

stargirlstrike wrote:I can't wait for summer so I can start reading again. I love being so excited while reading a book that I can't stop reading it, that feeling of being right there with the characters. How did you like Divergent? I haven't gotten to read it yet.

I liked the first two books in the series, but the third angered me. And yeah, summer=reading

So... I broke up with my boyfriend. We were almost a year through the relationship but it was long distance. I know, I know, summer was coming soon but next school year might have just been the same. Also, we need time to find ourselves without each other. We can't always be worrying about what the other is doing or worry whether or not the other will approve of what we do. We just need to be free for a little while. And maybe we will end up together, maybe we wont. We wont know if we don't stay in touch somewhat. I hope he wants to be friends with me.

It sounds like you really thought it through and did it for the best of both of you. It can be a tough time still though. I hope everything works out well!

This kid and I are ridiculous...
Oh well... when the school year starts everything will be different.
I just have three months.