butterfly cry2010

Take all the time you need to heal. Sending love.

Thank you!

ouch, this year really isn't the best I guess for everyone. it's been very lame for me as well, but hei...we must stay strong and positive and keep on fighting, no matter what.
and if those who doesn't treat you right, just let them go. set them free. I know it's hard, but it's better for both of you. if you keep on fighting and hurting each other, it's no good at all.

Yeah,I'm trying to..I guess all you can do is be optimistic & try to look on that bright side. Yeah,I think this has not been a good year for a lot of people well good start.Mybe it will get better for everyone.

* My hearts not bulletproof,sometimes things just get to me*

Too bad you can't deleted stuff from your heart and forget easy. like on a pc!!

I know that would be awesome if you could.

hahah,yeah...

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I think i need to just put all the negative thoughts away & just deleted them from my mind. I can't go on being like sad and stuff..I have to some how let the feelings i'am feeling. go..Yeah,Won't be easy but yeah1..I should show & act the person that it's not bugging me. So i guess i shall replace it with positive thinking I just need to think happy things.Try to have hope & faith.

if your friends hurt you it they doen't deserve to be your friends, maybe try looking for new friends, better friends. And you aren't alone here. You have me and other ppl <3

yeah,I know and thanks..I will try 2 find a new msn buddy.....it's hard.

I know this is not nice but..I hope karma comes around and kicks my ex friend in the butt then she knows how it feels.

we are friends also on msn but never i didn't saw you
don't think about these persons

I can send you mine in pm....You don't think about who?

thanks
i thought that you don't think about your ex-friends

iam trying not too.

today i went for a walk..very pretty day. little chilly..don't let the sun fool you...But it was nice..i hope all the winter weather is behind us now...Iam sick of the cold.

I am too. But now it is blistering hot. Ugh I live at the beach.

Id take hot weather over cold weather.

Not 80-81 degrees. In MARCH. Just imagine how bad it will be in summer.

well not that how now..but just warm when u need no jacket.the weather has been so werid...beyond normal.

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sometimes you just have to stand back and realise who really matters and walk away from those who don't. It might hurt...but hurt is healed by good people.

i hope that at soon will be hot in your place

me too!!!.......It's suppose to be spring

ha, here is +1C and it was sunny. but the past days have been so awful and stormy. I want summer to come!

oh yikes...So cold....Today i was cold wearing a jean jacket.
Just some random thinking!!

I think iam too nice.Waaay to nice to people.That's one reason i get pushed around so easy.I need to learn to stand up for myself.I need to learn to NOT be scared to say how iam feeling. learn to SAY no sometimes ya know!I guess i always feel like i need to say yes.Even if i don't wanna say yes.cuz id feel like iam being rude,hahahah

Well i get up this morning check my bebo page..& i get a PM from friend A saying Friend B deleted us..We DID nothing.See They make like awesome skins...And one of there friends said some "rude" about some ones skin & Friend A said with her comments that's not nice..Friend be gets mad..She sends me a comment saying iam sure ur gonna take friends a side.*rolls eyes* Well i told her no and that its nothing to do with me and they gotta work it out on there own. drama drama drama.It's amazing how childish people are.I mean adults act like children.They would really lose a friendship over something do dumb. From working with kids i learn that whenever a kid has a fight.They usually hate on eacher for a day or whatever they are friends again.


EDIT:everything is worked out now!..My friends worked out the problem.Thank goodness They could forgive & forget.

Honey, please don't worry about people. You don't deserve for pain.

PS. I'm sorry for my msn. I have a problem with send to you invite.
If you want it you can send me, My msn this is kerlipoland@hotmail.com

sure.added you..

I've been having very creepy dreams. Like really werid ones.Then i just can't sleep afther.So my dreams are about people "dying"...I don't know what this is suppose to mean.

..can't do this........ need a friend.............

I guess your thoughts/situation reflect the dreams you have... You feel left alone, so everyone dies in your dreams. Don't worry, I'm sure you won't be alone forever :) Do something fun just for yourself now! And maybe go somewhere where you could meet new people?

Maybe,I hope so.. I don't know. Some days things just really get too me. I think PMS just makes me more emotional then usually.I cry over any thing.

I cry over stupid things when I have period, too :) VERY stupid things, like if my fiancé doesn't give me a kiss right now, I'll think he hates me xD
I think that knowing that hormones are causing things like that makes it easier. That it's not really YOU. It's the hormones :)

That's what can get me into trouble at times. Cuz i will act on to them. (sometimes)I know whatever I'M thinking is NOT true.My mind just really bugs me and tells me it is true.Does that make sence?

I guess everybody feels like that during PMS.

I think i care too much about people. Whenever i think some one is mad at me. It really bugs me to death. Maybe i push people too much. I don't know i just like to fix whatever the problem maybe. Cuz i can't feel better I'till it's worked out. I guess i need to learn that some people need the space before they fix problems. Then sometimes it feels like people hold grudges over dumb things.

Should parents push Religion on there children?
And "make" then go to church? Doesn't that just push them away much more?

I don't think parents should.I think once they grow up and can think for themselves.They should decide on there own what religion is best for them.

I just hate when people shove down there religion in your face.That just really pushes u more far away. I mean i don't know if i would wanna be a "christien" i don't like the idea of following rules. i do belive in god tho.I think some people take religion to far in the way they live too...I'm confused about it..I like being a moonchild..like no rules.You make your and follow them..

I don't think my parents would like the whole moonchild thing.I know that they would judge it before knowing it..& think it's bad.

I feel like being a moon-child is my own religion .

No offence to anyone..I repect people who belive in this.

I really miss my friend. I'm having so much trouble getting over this. It's been like two moths now sense my friend talked to me. I think maybe i get too emotional attached to people online. I guess i should NOT depend on people online. Then when i lose a friendship it's so much harder to get over it.I just miss the old day's.Coming online is just not has fun has it once was. I miss some other friends i lots touch with. You really can't replace old friends.It's just not the same.I'am trying to make a new friend..I just need a new friend to make me happy. I'm trying my best to be happy & stuff. Someday's are just hard. This is just eating me up inside. Everything was going fine in'till my friend started talking to her old friend again.(the old one) It feels like i was pushed aside . This is eating me up inside.



Edit: I think the rain really makes my mood feel "sad"!

I think all religion should just cease to exist :D Or at least it shouldn't be taken so goddamn seriously as some people do. They follow their "god(s)" blindly and judge everyone who doesn't believe the same way. And then they have children and brainwash them to believe what they believe.
The worst kind of religious people are those who go door to door spreading their word :/

And yeah, I'm an atheist. So are my parents, even though they work/have worked for the church :D All of my friends are atheists as well. I think, at least they're not talking about it. Well, one of them believes in god passionately, but she doesn't push it to anyone.

If I ever have kids, I'll just tell them what the options are and let them decide for themselves. If they're smart at all like me, they'll be atheists, hehe :D

Being a Moonchild is not a religion, is just about being who you are. Being the best version of yourself. There's nothing wrong with that, and your parents should have nothing against it.

And about your friend... How long have you talked to them? Have you ever met face to face? If not, it's VERY easy to just stop talking online. Maybe they're too busy to even be online? I had a Messenger friend from Canada, and it's been over 5 years since I last spoke with him. Sometimes I wonder how he's doing. It's nothing personal, I just stopped using Messenger :/ We used to joke a lot and talk about anything and everything, and he was the big-brother I never had :D

I know it hurts when someone is not replying, but all you really can do is just to let it be. Maybe they'll come back one day. In the meantime, do something else and try to find new friends?

You'll always have us if it helps at all <3

I think that's a smart thing to do let your kids pick there own religion. yesterday at church i was talking to some one who is a little younger then me. & he told me his parents push the religion on him. & that his parents wish his friends shared the same religion. I could kind of understand the reason he was upset and why he felt the reason he does. I mean just cause a person is a certin religion doesn't mean they are better friends or a better person to me.

I hate when people come door to door about religion.I find them very annoying.grrr. If i do ever descide about it.It will be cuz of me.not cuz of other people.

I know that being a moon-child is not a religion .

I know what u are saying about the online thing..I just try and do other things and meet new people.

"Everything happens for a reason...there is a lesson to be learned with everything that happens."

I just want to thank each & one of you guy's for taking your time & listing to my problems. It really helped to let out all that was bugging me. I'm still feeling hurt from this. I Do think each day does get better.

I've been listing to kerli a lot.The music helps when I'm in that kind of moods. Well Thank you.

Always remember that you are absolutely unique. Just like everyone else

So i told off this person who treated me like shit.I did it in a nice way,I guess i wasn't to mean. But she had it coming. My friend was proud of me for what i did.Of course the person did not think they did no wrong. (I'm talking about another friend). I really feel like it sucks when you think some one is like nice.And you been nothing but nice to them.Then they turn on you.

What this person did was.She told me to deleted people of of my list.(Cause she had problems with them) If i did't then she would not talk to me anymore. She also pushed me inside her drama with her friends.(I don't stand for that) Then I was talking and made friends with this new girl(who's nice) I guess she did't like it. So she deleted me off of all her pages. Then i read on my friends comments list that she was gonna deleted all her pages.(she ends up keeping 3 of them) She kind of lied and i guess she just want to get rid of us.*rolls eyes*On the bright side of this all i did meet a new friend.

"Don't waste time with those who ignore you. Give your attention to those who care about you" A quote i find true!

well,Iam very happy today. I got my friend back.Yes,Iam the type of person who can forgive & forget.(ok maybe thats hard forgetting). She said she missed me and missed talking with me. I guess sometimes we need to be away from people to see how much they mean to you.I hope no more fights happen.

That's very good! And true, people tend to get sick of seeing each other if they're together too much. Just a little me-time and thinking sometimes fixes relationships :)

yeah,I guess so.She said she was sorry about what happend.I understand now.What made her deleted me.Cuz her friend(the mean one) i guess talked her into it...And she said she was stupid to do that.Now shes annoyed with the mean girl.I guess karma comes back around.

I believe in karma in a way... If you're nice, good things come your way. And if you're not nice, bad things will happen... Like, you'll be left alone because no one wants to be with an "evil" person :D I hope that your friend now realizes that she shouldn't let herself be manipulated into doing things... She can be friends with whoever she wants, and so can you :)

Yeah,Me too. I think soo too.It takes time for karma to come but it usually does. True if you are really good to people then they will treat ya the same.But yeah who wants to be friends with a mean person.

butterflycry2010 wrote:well,Iam very happy today. I got my friend back.Yes,Iam the type of person who can forgive & forget.(ok maybe thats hard forgetting). She said she missed me and missed talking with me. I guess sometimes we need to be away from people to see how much they mean to you.I hope no more fights happen.

Heyy that's really good! Usually when you lose something, you realise it's worth later..

That's true. & thanks

Here is some picks of my cat again.

haha, ur cat is so cuteee

thanks..yeah she is.

i agree with you in most of them...i don't believe in angels, not even god. I used to be a church girl, every sunday, etc, but after reading a lot of stuff, i would say, i'm agnostic. i don't know if there's anything above us. maybe we're just born and die, maybe there is god, maybe there are aliens..I'm gonna know when I die..hahaha

I'm not like reglious person. But i do believe some stuff. anyway's that's just me.

but i don't really agree with all the reglions. but i respect ppl on what they believe in.

I agree with you.. I'm a christian orthodox and they have some really really strict rules.I can;t believe god would want something like that. But i totally respect everybody's beliefs. To me, it only matters to be good, and nice person, love and help, not hurt anyone, just mind your own business and if you can help people who need you. to me, that's the way to go to heaven, eventually...