I need someone to talk to

I am abnormal girl that seems to be hated by most people and I don't understand why
I have little group of friends
I always cry myself to sleep
My mother barely listens to me
I just want to find a place where I belong
I bottle it up inside(and there is about 12 years of bottle up feels)
I am prisoner of myself
I just want the old me back
I know I sound pretty pathetic...Trust me plenty of people have told me I am
I am not looking for pity or anything
Just want someone to talk and help me out through the rest my life
Yes I do have good parts of my life but major is bad
and I hate putting on a smile for everyone
I just want to be happy
so what should I do?
anybody is up to answer this
Please be bluntly honest because I can take it

im sorry to say this but
welcome to the real world
nothing is like the shows people watch or the books they read its dark and mostly a morbid place with little light

BUT

people think that it has to be so... but you must make your own happiness and light in the world or else the world will be a very bad place. they say have a positive mindset works but it just makes things worse when something goes wrong...so just think like this
"im going to make today the best i can and whatever happens...well it happens."
it works for me.

The worlds not a perfuct place. and either are ppl.

so just live life step by step. just be the best person u can be.

The world is not perfect, you don't have to be perfect either. Just try to be the best of who you are. And Nobody is always happy. You have to find happiness in you life. It takes time and courage, but you can do it, step by step. and remember that we are here for you and that you are not alone. xoxo
I.L.U

I know how you feel but theres nothing I can say that hasn't already been said.
you can always talk to your moonsiblings though, sometimes it helps to just have an ear(or some) to listen to you.

CottonCandyFairy15 wrote:I am abnormal girl that seems to be hated by most people and I don't understand why
I have little group of friends
I always cry myself to sleep
My mother barely listens to me
I just want to find a place where I belong
I bottle it up inside(and there is about 12 years of bottle up feels)
I am prisoner of myself
I just want the old me back
I know I sound pretty pathetic...Trust me plenty of people have told me I am
I am not looking for pity or anything
Just want someone to talk and help me out through the rest my life
Yes I do have good parts of my life but major is bad
and I hate putting on a smile for everyone
I just want to be happy
so what should I do?
anybody is up to answer this
Please be bluntly honest because I can take it

Aw, sweetie, you sound depressed. I don't think you're pathetic at all.
I know it doesn't seem like it right now, but it will get better.

Everything you said is true and I do try my hardest everyday...I am just not that strong enough...I never was... I just don't know how to held things...and I am such crybaby its not funny... I do have mindset sometimes when I do make mistake to brush it off and just keep trying but sometimes it goes away cause I start to think very negative... I always think about what the worse could happen and I wish I didn't because I wouldn't be the person I am now... I completely changed....I mean huge change...after my favorite person died....I started to think life is just cruel and unusual world and bad things always happen.....at first I was and outcast than I made friends but they were the wrong kinda friends....they called me names and stuff and I'm so gullible, I started to think I was...but than hit high school and became that outcast again...made couple friends and I was happy with that...met great guy who I am still with...I just don't want to lose him...he doesn't like me like this...cause I am always depressed even when I don't mean to be... I just put myself down cause I know I can do better that...but through out the years people been putting down so that's how I started to put myself down....
and I am not trying to pity cause I like just really need someone to talk to...recent its hard to trust a lot people..

CottonCandyFairy15 wrote:Everything you said is true and I do try my hardest everyday...I am just not that strong enough...I never was... I just don't know how to held things...and I am such crybaby its not funny... I do have mindset sometimes when I do make mistake to brush it off and just keep trying but sometimes it goes away cause I start to think very negative... I always think about what the worse could happen and I wish I didn't because I wouldn't be the person I am now... I completely changed....I mean huge change...after my favorite person died....I started to think life is just cruel and unusual world and bad things always happen.....at first I was and outcast than I made friends but they were the wrong kinda friends....they called me names and stuff and I'm so gullible, I started to think I was...but than hit high school and became that outcast again...made couple friends and I was happy with that...met great guy who I am still with...I just don't want to lose him...he doesn't like me like this...cause I am always depressed even when I don't mean to be... I just put myself down cause I know I can do better that...but through out the years people been putting down so that's how I started to put myself down....
and I am not trying to pity cause I like just really need someone to talk to...recent its hard to trust a lot people..

wow i think you might be my female counterpart
just dont become such a outcast that you are cast out of school completely XD i was homeschooled because i became such a outcast by the people i held close to me that when i went in a room i would actually be spit at ^_^ gotta love teens

Wow that's sad but u must be strong. While u thinking the negatives try 2 think the positive. I'm also an outcast in my school I only have few friends and I'm really happy with it because life is hard and we must struggle 2 survive the hardship. If people called u names just say "so what? I'm like that and ur point is?" or something like that. Be strong if u keep putting urself down all the time it won't help u at all seriously. I will give u a hug*hugs*

I was always such an outcast aswell in high/midschool(again, dont know wich one its supposed to be, you go there at age 13 or so) but the little friends I had helped me get through that hell of a school.
you gotta do with what you have in this period and how little it may seem it can actually be alot.

honey, you are wonderful girl.. you should doing the best things for you... what makes you smile
Don't forget we believe in YOU!!!

CottonCandyFairy15 wrote:Everything you said is true and I do try my hardest everyday...I am just not that strong enough...I never was... I just don't know how to held things...and I am such crybaby its not funny... I do have mindset sometimes when I do make mistake to brush it off and just keep trying but sometimes it goes away cause I start to think very negative... I always think about what the worse could happen and I wish I didn't because I wouldn't be the person I am now... I completely changed....I mean huge change...after my favorite person died....I started to think life is just cruel and unusual world and bad things always happen.....at first I was and outcast than I made friends but they were the wrong kinda friends....they called me names and stuff and I'm so gullible, I started to think I was...but than hit high school and became that outcast again...made couple friends and I was happy with that...met great guy who I am still with...I just don't want to lose him...he doesn't like me like this...cause I am always depressed even when I don't mean to be... I just put myself down cause I know I can do better that...but through out the years people been putting down so that's how I started to put myself down....
and I am not trying to pity cause I like just really need someone to talk to...recent its hard to trust a lot people..

I think you'll find a lot of understanding on here. ♥
I'm sorry you're feeling this way. It's OK to cry when you need to cry. It's OK to be sensitive. I don't think it makes you a crybaby. I think school, especially middle and high school (or whatever they're called near you) are the hardest times..because everyone is trying to fit in and there is so much putting people down and things like that.. after that you have more of a choice of who you see every day. Like, you can add and drop classes in college/university and you aren't necessarily around the same people all the time or if you're working, you can change jobs and you can move and whatever else.. so it might suck for a while, but you just have to get through that. And when you feel this way, by all means talk about it.

bupple wrote:The world is not perfect, you don't have to be perfect either. Just try to be the best of who you are. And Nobody is always happy. You have to find happiness in you life. It takes time and courage, but you can do it, step by step. and remember that we are here for you and that you are not alone. xoxo
I.L.U

exactly! 100% agreed... and dear bupple, i'm so happy that these words come out of YOUR mouth:)

Thanks everybody...you really are helping me a lot