is this really happening

if im different and that makes me wrong then aren’t you wrong for being different from me. if my heart stops beating due to a fracture of the brain would you kiss me in my finall seconds. IF i was at your place would you hand me the remote and rub my stomach till i fell asleep. these are the questions that i wont ask. the people who walk around inside you are there to help you. you dont need to run from yourself unless there is a logicall reason to do so. do you really think that when you tell me how “good” she was that it doesnt hurt me inside. i have done plenty of things in my life in my past but do you really have the right to still judge me on it. i understand free speech but there is always going to be a limit. my mind would blank out at time i would go someplace dark and when i come too i have alreaddy. why would you hurt me like the way you did i wasnt trying to manipulate you in any way. i didnt care that you took everything from me but when you isolated yourself from me that was the real punishment. she thinks she is so cute and perfect but her one flaw is what makes her ugly. that one show is the only show i can relate to. you cant say you understand what i have gone through until you have seen the world through my eyes. im always going to be the loner in the group. they judge me because im not black enough. whats good for them will never be good enough for them. they are the most pretentiouse group of morning period jerk offs i have ever met. if i keep rambling on i will die of exhaustion. my hands tremble as i reached for the knife. never thought it would come to the gun. if i do this what would become of them. im not here any more. i feel myself slipping away. maybe. ha morning period is the last thing i think of before i drift into the black abysss of what left of my mind. 1.2.3.4.5.6.7.8.9.10. 9. 8. 7. 6. 5. 4. 3. 2. 1.








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