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The Cats Meow
by J_Flowera Mon Mar 14, 2011 7:05 pm
Hello all 
, Sabarae's blog turned me on to something and i fell i should share. ( Takes Deep Breath) Life for me been full of obsticals like anyt good life, ive learn to turn those obstacles into strength. These obstacle were unitentionally cause by family and intentionally cause by enemies. But i forgave them both and tried to move on with my life.
But i got lost sometime along the way. I lost the fire in my life. My passion, my flaming passion that i held very dearly to me went out like a candle in the night. Since that day ive been stubling in the dark. My fire would flicker every know and then but it would be short lived because it would be something i call a plastic emotion.
Plastic Emotions are fabricated feelings thatare not your real or natural feeling. I would make these emotions because i wanted to make somebody else happy or imitate someone i like but just wasn't. If you do this dont feel bad because it is always natural to make mistake. You and me are nothing but imperfect beings.
Anyway, when i read Sabarae's blog it was like my fire just had five tubs of gasoline thrown into it. i was happy XD. I learn that because i stopped being myself i because incomplete and lost. But if you just be the person you are without limitations without bowing down to the bad guys hurtful or at least trying to be hurtful words then you can do know wrong.
Just make sure you are always in control of yourself and mindful of other peoples views. Thats what im gonna do.
J_FLowera
If i lost yall im sorry its that i lose my train of thought sometimes. lol. If you have any question feel free to ask. later days. XD
Anyway, Sabaraes story, when i read it reminded me that because people may not always
, Sabarae's blog turned me on to something and i fell i should share. ( Takes Deep Breath) Life for me been full of obsticals like anyt good life, ive learn to turn those obstacles into strength. These obstacle were unitentionally cause by family and intentionally cause by enemies. But i forgave them both and tried to move on with my life. But i got lost sometime along the way. I lost the fire in my life. My passion, my flaming passion that i held very dearly to me went out like a candle in the night. Since that day ive been stubling in the dark. My fire would flicker every know and then but it would be short lived because it would be something i call a plastic emotion.
Plastic Emotions are fabricated feelings thatare not your real or natural feeling. I would make these emotions because i wanted to make somebody else happy or imitate someone i like but just wasn't. If you do this dont feel bad because it is always natural to make mistake. You and me are nothing but imperfect beings.
Anyway, when i read Sabarae's blog it was like my fire just had five tubs of gasoline thrown into it. i was happy XD. I learn that because i stopped being myself i because incomplete and lost. But if you just be the person you are without limitations without bowing down to the bad guys hurtful or at least trying to be hurtful words then you can do know wrong.
Just make sure you are always in control of yourself and mindful of other peoples views. Thats what im gonna do.
J_FLowera
If i lost yall im sorry its that i lose my train of thought sometimes. lol. If you have any question feel free to ask. later days. XD
Anyway, Sabaraes story, when i read it reminded me that because people may not always
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Re: The Cats Meow
by Sabarae Mon Mar 14, 2011 8:55 pm
I glad I was able to spark the light in someone! It's been a long time since I last did so and it feels good knowing that I can still do it!
And I know exactly what you mean by one's flame blowing out. For me, it had completely caught me off guard when I realized it had happened. It was like I had been living my life with full emotion with other people only to wake up and realize had isolated myself from people and lost a lot of my excitement for life and energy in the process. I'm thinking puberty had something to do with it... I feel I have grown quite weak in comparison to my younger years and during this time I had slipped into an autopilot living -as in going through life the way most people do and not listening to the inner voice that was small but screaming at me. Apparently I'm hard-headed since I let that go on for years.
I suppose I'm now realizing that living the way I was before my thrill of life was sucked out wasn't bad for me. I had tons of fun and in the grand scheme of things, living that way didn't hurt me, feel unnatural, or scare me. It was when I began to doubt myself and my inner power and uniqueness that the real pain started.
Ah! Sorry to babble! ^^()
And I know exactly what you mean by one's flame blowing out. For me, it had completely caught me off guard when I realized it had happened. It was like I had been living my life with full emotion with other people only to wake up and realize had isolated myself from people and lost a lot of my excitement for life and energy in the process. I'm thinking puberty had something to do with it... I feel I have grown quite weak in comparison to my younger years and during this time I had slipped into an autopilot living -as in going through life the way most people do and not listening to the inner voice that was small but screaming at me. Apparently I'm hard-headed since I let that go on for years.
I suppose I'm now realizing that living the way I was before my thrill of life was sucked out wasn't bad for me. I had tons of fun and in the grand scheme of things, living that way didn't hurt me, feel unnatural, or scare me. It was when I began to doubt myself and my inner power and uniqueness that the real pain started.
Ah! Sorry to babble! ^^()
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Re: The Cats Meow
by Natt Tue Mar 22, 2011 10:38 am
Hi J_Flowera
I'm so sorry that this obstacles was made by your family and people around you. I understand you because this is in my life all time. But, you must be strong person. And you are so the best person that you forgave... it very good says about you.
Why you lost? This is so sadness that you lose your passion. You must fight all time, please so much..I know plastic emotions...and even when I have depressed it people think that I'm happy...this is better.
And rememmber that we are only humans..
Sabarae and J_Flowera I believe in you.... I hope that yours life will be the best
I'm so sorry that this obstacles was made by your family and people around you. I understand you because this is in my life all time. But, you must be strong person. And you are so the best person that you forgave... it very good says about you.
Why you lost? This is so sadness that you lose your passion. You must fight all time, please so much..I know plastic emotions...and even when I have depressed it people think that I'm happy...this is better.
And rememmber that we are only humans..
Sabarae and J_Flowera I believe in you.... I hope that yours life will be the best
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Re: The Cats Meow
by J_Flowera Tue Mar 22, 2011 7:17 pm
Thank you so much both of you. Sorry it took me so long to return. i felt that i needed to fight on my own for a while, AND I TRIUMPED!! 
I called my aunt who lives in north caroline, usa. and we talked about my emotions the good the bad, and she was very supportive of me being bi. Which really made me happy. It sparked something in me, i could feel my flame return so i fanned it. I faced everything i could face before like: "I am just trying to please someone else" and that " No body can fight alone so call in the troops". The most important to me is " Nobody is perfect." plain and simple.
I need to realize that my faults are not faults they are character. So i am happy and i encourage all who ready this to face the music in other words face your fears, because as i like to say what doesnt kill you makes you stronger.
Thanks for listening, i may not know you as in face to face but i love you. <3
I called my aunt who lives in north caroline, usa. and we talked about my emotions the good the bad, and she was very supportive of me being bi. Which really made me happy. It sparked something in me, i could feel my flame return so i fanned it. I faced everything i could face before like: "I am just trying to please someone else" and that " No body can fight alone so call in the troops". The most important to me is " Nobody is perfect." plain and simple. I need to realize that my faults are not faults they are character. So i am happy and i encourage all who ready this to face the music in other words face your fears, because as i like to say what doesnt kill you makes you stronger.
Thanks for listening, i may not know you as in face to face but i love you. <3
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Re: The Cats Meow
by J_Flowera Tue Mar 22, 2011 7:19 pm
KerliPoland wrote:Hi J_Flowera
I'm so sorry that this obstacles was made by your family and people around you. I understand you because this is in my life all time. But, you must be strong person. And you are so the best person that you forgave... it very good says about you.
Why you lost? This is so sadness that you lose your passion. You must fight all time, please so much..I know plastic emotions...and even when I have depressed it people think that I'm happy...this is better.
And rememmber that we are only humans..
Sabarae and J_Flowera I believe in you.... I hope that yours life will be the best
And i you thank you for beilieving in us.
you have no idea how much this means to me.
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Re: The Cats Meow
by J_Flowera Tue Mar 22, 2011 7:21 pm
Sabarae wrote:I glad I was able to spark the light in someone! It's been a long time since I last did so and it feels good knowing that I can still do it!
And I know exactly what you mean by one's flame blowing out. For me, it had completely caught me off guard when I realized it had happened. It was like I had been living my life with full emotion with other people only to wake up and realize had isolated myself from people and lost a lot of my excitement for life and energy in the process. I'm thinking puberty had something to do with it... I feel I have grown quite weak in comparison to my younger years and during this time I had slipped into an autopilot living -as in going through life the way most people do and not listening to the inner voice that was small but screaming at me. Apparently I'm hard-headed since I let that go on for years.
I suppose I'm now realizing that living the way I was before my thrill of life was sucked out wasn't bad for me. I had tons of fun and in the grand scheme of things, living that way didn't hurt me, feel unnatural, or scare me. It was when I began to doubt myself and my inner power and uniqueness that the real pain started.
i totally agree. you know when you look through somebody else eye you will always learn something, iand i see we can learn alot from each other. Thanks for being you, Sabarae-san. i love you.
Ah! Sorry to babble! ^^()
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Re: The Cats Meow
by Natt Thu Mar 24, 2011 12:29 pm
J_Flowera wrote:KerliPoland wrote:Hi J_Flowera
I'm so sorry that this obstacles was made by your family and people around you. I understand you because this is in my life all time. But, you must be strong person. And you are so the best person that you forgave... it very good says about you.
Why you lost? This is so sadness that you lose your passion. You must fight all time, please so much..I know plastic emotions...and even when I have depressed it people think that I'm happy...this is better.
And rememmber that we are only humans..
Sabarae and J_Flowera I believe in you.... I hope that yours life will be the best
And i you thank you for beilieving in us.
You're welcome
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Re: The Cats Meow
by Tara Mon May 02, 2011 7:14 pm
But i got lost sometime along the way. I lost the fire in my life. My passion, my flaming passion that i held very dearly to me went out like a candle in the night.
The same thing happened to me the past few years. I stopped talking to a lot of my friends and just quit school and by the time I realized what I had done to myself most of those friends were gone. But I'm slowly rebuilding. Be strong, you can too.
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