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blackpixiedust wrote:This will be a simple ramble about my day evening, from my perspective.
So tonight I got the urge to ask my cousin what we were smoking (as in pot), and she said it's called "The Third Eye"
And I felt like freaking out for a moment, especially when she saw my expression and added "Yeah, you're going to grow one."
When it comes to weed, I'm a bit skeptical sometimes because it can open too many doors for me and I find myself taking in too much at once. With a title like that, and my being familiar with it, I had an "Oh no" moment. Existence is just really bus and overwhelming sometimes, and smoking definitely enhances my ability to connect to everything, especially while out in public. It can be intense for me. But we were going to run errands, and it's impossible (not literally) for me to not smoke while running a coupled of quick errands with her. She's a true pothead and will not endure a full day without smoking. And she's even more hilarious while I'm high. It's been some weeks since I last smoked too, so it was inevitable. xD
But anyway, I soon found it to be not much of a heavy experience, thankfully. The high wasn't heavy to the point where I couldn't enjoy myself, anyway. There is this one friend my cousin has that I connect with so easily. I had not seen her in so long and tonight we were on the same exact level of thought while we were speaking. It was great. One thing I remember explaining was about was how the moon seems to have about ten different outfits it wears. I've noticed only in recent years that the moon sometimes looks completely different week-to week or day to day. I don't just mean the shape, like how it resembled the Cheshire cat grin tonight. But sometimes it seems closer, sometimes it's clearer, and sometimes it just seems flat and bright. I'm always talking about the moon whenever I'm out at night. I wonder if anyone has noticed that about me.

The highlight that I mean to document here, is my eventually playing a rainstick this said friend owns. I want one. Yup. I know it would definitely come in handy the next time I need calming down. The moment I heard it, I wanted to know its history. I imagined myself in some place quiet wishing for rain. And I wondered about the different sorts of people to have used rainsticks, and what it meant to them.
Her room was amazing, by the way. It's so full of culture, and I was not surprised by it one bit. She's going to move so there was just shit every where, but there was all of this art on her walls, and random little things like a Buddhist shrine on her dresser, some instruments and these Aztec-looking masks she made hanging about. The room was LOUD; every little thing calling for my attention. It's funny how much a room can say about a person. And it's also funny that this thought crosses my mind because earlier today yesterday I was thinking both about rearranging my own room, and the idea that certain cultures in the world are just fading away as we move into a new era of existence. Then boom, two unrelated thoughts meshing into one as I think about this room. :]
I'm now thinking about how I'll get hold of my own rainstick.

Night world. <3

I guess no one has words to say about your post I do like the idea of the moon having different identities, I think it's true. The moon always has a different look each night. Multi-cultural room O.o idk about that, I'll stick to my one culture haha. I'm good with my eagle feathers hanging on my walls. Rainsticks are amazing I love listening to them when i'm trying to think to myself.

i hope he gets better.
sending love

My kitty was really sick too not long ago and I thought for sure he was going to have to be put to sleep. He ended up getting better but I felt the same way you do at the time. It's really hard to look at them even though I knew it would be for the better.
I hope you'll have him for a while longer and he's ok, but if he has to go you know you did the right thing. Even if it's hard to convince your heart.<3

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Aw...so sorry to hear that.