MoonChildLuis :P

10-22-10
I've decided to keep a blog :throws confetti: so for my first entry here is some basic info!

Twitter: twitter.com/Moonchildluis
Formspring: formspring.com/moonchildluis
-These 2 I check often for updates, but don't really post stuff too lazy :rubs belly:
I have a da account but haven't put up anything worth putting put seeing as I haven't drawn in forever, I have a personal myspace but don't check it as well seeing as everyone I knew left it for Facebook.

Words to describe me, hmmm.... indecisive, percise, independent, emotional, cold hearted, dark humor, split personality, creative, loyal, peaceful, vengeful, stubborn....very confusing

My name is Luis Castillo, I live in my own little forest, surrounded by corn, good ol Indiana. I live for two things art and dogs. Artwise I i specialize in graphite and pen and ink. True Art to me is something so beautiful, so amazing it overwhelms you and ravages your mind until you too create something that will inspire other.. My second love is my passion for dogs . To me nothing can replace the pure loyalty and love that comes from a dog, a dog that only ask for a warm bed, a full belly and maybe a scratch behind the ears.

Hmm idk what else to say, so until next time!

MoonChildLuis wrote:True Art to me is something so beautiful, so amazing it overwhelms you and ravages your mind until you too create something that will inspire other..

That's an awesome definition of true art. Out of curiosity, who inspires you, if you don't mind me asking?

And I'm guessing that must be your dog in your avatar, then?

Ah Dogs are such loyal creatures, they are the part of the family <3

awh
u really made me think of my dog in estonia.. i miss him so much.

Idk where I get inspiration from, it just happens when I hear any amazing song, see an amazing piece of art: film, photography, ect. Kerli is one inspiration she is so beautiful, very photogenic amazing singer/song writer out of all the songs she's done Army of Angles is my favorite. It is well written and beautifully sung. And that is not just my dog, that's my love.

MoonChildLuis wrote:And that is not just my dog, that's my love.

That's amazing

aww i love dogs too and you're right inspiration comes from beautiful things, little things that other people may not see but are there

11-1-10

Browsing Kerli's formspring found lots of interesting stuff...but this one thing nearly made me die from laughter 
Really Dirty so click on your own risk

11-29-10

It's been awhile but here's what happen since last time. I went black Friday shopping for the first time! It wasn't as bad as I thought it would be, I manage to get my T.V!!!! It's a 46" LED it cost me altogether $960!!!!! Then I hung out with some friends during thanksgiving break so in the end I spent over $1200 in 4 days; now I'm broke still waiting for Kerli's track, I'm kinda losing faith in her I'm sick of waiting it's like either release it or shut up.... I'm a little flustered enough is enough :/

12-07-10


I finally have a reliable source of Internet! So I gonna check in here more than I was. Let's see were to begin.....

To commerate this day I spent over 2 hrs just watching Kerli videos I saw some moonchildren corespondent videos really, some really nice ones out there. Mimi I like the posters, bookmarks, and card I want them all! I also really want some Kerli merch Also the Kerli videos look amazing it so nice seeing these behind the scene stuff, the symbolism of the gas mask and Teddy bear is so beautiful it reminded me that Kerli always has a deep meaning for everything she does. The new pic is stunning as well

Hmm what else, oh I started to draw again after 6 months of not drawing I looked back and realized how much I sucked. Gonna redo some stuff, finish my WIP's ( I may post things here as well) and finally I need to practice more. Which reminds me I need to practice the piano again I'm getting rusty... So much to do if only the day was longer :/

ive seen some of your drawings and dude, u shouldn't be so hard on urself, they're amazing.

Thanks Mimi

12-14-10

I've been doing alot of soul searching and trying to get my thoughts, values, ideas ect all together but it seems I can't. I can't organize myself, I guess it's because that would mean restricting my entire being. I can't contort myself, I am ment to constantly be growing, always learning, and forever changing.
ILU

thats beautiful. and a good way to look at life - change is good, even if it feels horrible, its an essential part of life.

ps im gonna see my dog in like 3 days!

mimi wrote:
ps im gonna see my dog in like 3 days!

I am amazed by the boundless loyalty and love these beings have. If you're gone for 1 hour, they over-joyed as soon as you return. It makes me wonder, if you haven't seen you dog in a long time, is he so overwhelm at the sight of you that he could die in your arms. Kinda like a child who longs to be held by its mother's arms, because within her grasp is heaven. To that child, mother is god...

nicely put
well he usually doesn't know whether to jump and lick me to death, bark, howl, run around or just sit and wag his tail. usually he does all of the above at the same time lol. oh and runs to get his 'baby' which is just an old basketball OR a pineapple.. lol not a real one but a soft toy pineapple what we call his baby because he takes it everywhere.

i am sooo looking forward to it! here's my Muhv:

Hahahah he has a baby pinapple that's funny! I really like your dog is he a black lab mix? I think those are the best breeds, they are so nice and incredibly intelligent. In fact both my dogs are black lab mix, they are super intelligent! They are Rocky and Pickle! They are my children actually science shows that dogs have the mind of a 5 year old

hahah!

yeah! he is. i think he's german shepard + black lab!

but we also think he's got a bit of a fox in him (his ears are so big) and kangaroo because of the way he jumps in the snow!

lmao kangaroos?

Your dog is cute Mimi ^___^

I need to find a picture of my children :3

Love ur dog!So cuite

1-03-11

Can't sleep, I feel overwhelmed with the need to draw... I having a block for an idea for Kerli's present and my perfectionist side takes over. Every attempt seems to be futile. Maybe if I ask my angels, they will give me a vision of what to send.

Other than that, I feel the need to change myself into something better, maybe it had to do with the new year. I want to grow but I feel my current area of living is holding me back. I want to move but fear holds me back. It seems fear of the unknown makes it hard to take risks because I fear failure most of all. I am a hardcore perfectionist I cannot let others see my flaws or my mistakes, why? I don't know... I have multiple personalities, and it seems this perfectionist side dominates over every one. Maybe one day I'll be free of this curse and find true happiness...

I understand what you mean! I am hardcore perfectionist too! It sometimes pushes me away from other people or makes me lose the chance and the worst one is, makes me hesitate about anything ("is it good enough?" The answer is usually "no". *Start over*) and lose ages of time. I need a cure so if you ever find one, please let me know. Seriously! ♥

MoonChildLuis wrote:1-03-11

Can't sleep, I feel overwhelmed with the need to draw... I having a block for an idea for Kerli's present and my perfectionist side takes over. Every attempt seems to be futile. Maybe if I ask my angels, they will give me a vision of what to send.
....It seems fear of the unknown makes it hard to take risks because I fear failure most of all. I am a hardcore perfectionist I cannot let others see my flaws or my mistakes, why? I don't know... I have multiple personalities, and it seems this perfectionist side dominates over every one. Maybe one day I'll be free of this curse and find true happiness...

Oh my God, I'm just like that as well.

I'm also having crazy trouble making my page for the birthday book because I want it to be PERFECT because it's for Kerli.. but it makes it so that it's hard for me to start anything and just trust my instincts because it seems like nothing is good enough. :/ So I've been doing a lot of procrastinating.
I'm not just like this regarding the book, either, but with any artistic project... and lots of other things as well. You're not alone!! I have to take tiny baby steps that I'm terrified of, then have time to realize that.. well, everything is fine and the world didn't end even if what I did wasn't great. Exposure to what makes you afraid is painful and terrible but afterwards it's like this massive weight of fear has been lifted. Because if you try something and it doesn't work out, it's usually never as horrible as you think it will be before you start, and it's satisfying to know that you faced your fear. And sometimes it does work out!

Also sometimes if I'm having a block what helps me is to do something that has nothing to do with whatever I want to come up with an idea for. Then suddenly inspiration will come. So talk to your angels, trust your angels to guide you, and then... go talk a walk. Read a book. Let your mind wander. Ideas will come when you least expect them. And then when an idea catches you, just let it go where it wants and don't think about how it will turn out.

Good luck Luis
Oh and Winter, you too!

MoonChildLuis you are awesome person, only you must believe in yourself, please

out of the hollow and Luis I believe in YOU!!! all time!!!!

1-12-11

Thanks everyone for your comments they were a well needed pick-me-up.

Ok yesterday was 1-11-11 so I was expecting something magical but nothing happen oh I finally did my thing for kerli I dont know if I should say what it is... I'm wondering if I want it to be something between me and her.

On a sad note, I lost my job so I'm angry happy and slightly depressed. But I believe everything happens for a reason and we are exactly where we have to be at this point in time.

ILU

awww Luis I hope that you will be have better job :*
You are the best person and you must be strenght

1-16-11

After watching the video of Kerli talking to us before everything I started thinking. When you see her and hear her voice it feels right, it feels like she is talking to you. But when you take a step back, you realize that she is giving these beautiful messages and rants in a quiet room to a piece of machinery. She kinda talking to herself, imagine someone walking in on you doin the same thing it would be embarrassing. Hahaha This message is going to random people and some people are gonna be like " WTF who is this chick" Like she said she does kinda sound like a lunatic with some of the things she says. But it feels so right, these messages and just hearing her talk get to me. She has become a part of my life, she is my inspiring muse. I never thought that I could be so in love with an artist that I would join a forum. I thought those were for obsessed fans that just want to talk about nonsense and gossip, spread leaks and stuff like that, but this place is far from that and I am not obsessed I think a better word is "in love". This place is like a shelter, a gathering place for everyone that has been touched by this beauty. Here we can all speak our minds without fear because this place is based on the highest power there is: love. But just because I believe love and peace doesn't mean I wont bring hell to fools who dare attack my queen. Hahaha

Thanks Mimi for ToL

4-14-11

Im gonna make this short and bitter

Life sucks

what happened that you wrote "Life sucks"????
Please, smile <3

It's just that everything in life seems to be going wrong and it's just bringing me down. I hope this phase will go away soon.

^ Ugh I know how you feel :/

What do you do to get through this?

Just keep telling yourself that the negative things in life don't matter in the end. All that matters is the good. All that matters is your happiness. Keep fighting for it. Believe it will be ok. <3

^ thank you love I.L.U

I'm gonna do a little blog on love so brace yourself.

So what is love? I believe there are many different levels of love. At the bottom there is false love; which is exactly as the name suggest. An example is someone who stays in a relationship for the simple fact of not wanting to be alone. Or someone who longs to be with person they believe to be "The One" until they finally wake up and that person true colors are shown and you say, "WTH, why did I think I loved you?" this, more often than not, is usually lust.

At the top is what I believe is the purest form of love. True love is unconditional love. There is no romance behind this; this love is best explained as the love a mother would feel towards her child. To me it means that regardless of behavioral flaws, appearance, orientation, acts, lifestyle, ect. ect. ect. NO MATTER WHAT in the end, love will remain and surpasses all.

You can steal my girlfriend/boyfriend, you can slap me across the face, insult me in front of my face or behind my back, do things that harm your body and break my heart such as drugs, repeatedly stab me in the back, use me, but in the end I will love you. It may take time for some wounds to heal but eventually my heart will see through all that, forgive you, and love you.

This to me is true love, and it can be hard and seem almost impossible to have this towards some people because we are human; but it's something I want to strive to have for everyone. I can count on one hand how many people I have true love for and I find that sad.

My goal is to love everyone unconditionally not because I want to one up everyone because that is from the ego and not the heart; not because it's "What Jesus would do" because (don't take this the wrong way) I don't care about that, I don't want to do this to gain his favor; I want to do this solely for the sake of myself and my soul (I don't want to place myself higher than God, so I hope it doesn't translate that way). I want to be in a place of pure love with no hatred or ill will. To love myself and everyone around me; see everything through rose-colored glasses. This is what I believe to be true love, I am my biggest work in progress and I hope I reach this level in my life.

For those who took the time to read this, if anything remember one thing I love you.

I•L•U•

Such beautiful idea, and true. I think people use the word love too much these days though, i don't think you can truly love person just because you have fucked them etc. Then again, the only kind of love i experience and share is the exact kind of universal love you talked about. It's all about the positive thoughts, caring and understanding. The true form of love like that has been my goal aswell

Thank you for reading and it nice knowing there are others want to love in the same way

I agree love has become an overused word but yet it isn't. Its a bit confusing.... People overuse the wrong form of love, they use the standard "I Love You" which can be romantic love, lustful love, or "I enjoy your company and kinda like you" love. True love is the form that people don't say often and it can never be overused.

MoonChildLuis wrote:At the top is what I believe is the purest form of love. True love is unconditional love. There is no romance behind this; this love is best explained as the love a mother would feel towards her child. To me it means that regardless of behavioral flaws, appearance, orientation, acts, lifestyle, ect. ect. ect. NO MATTER WHAT in the end, love will remain and surpasses all.

You can steal my girlfriend/boyfriend, you can slap me across the face, insult me in front of my face or behind my back, do things that harm your body and break my heart such as drugs, repeatedly stab me in the back, use me, but in the end I will love you. It may take time for some wounds to heal but eventually my heart will see through all that, forgive you, and love you.

This to me is true love, and it can be hard and seem almost impossible to have this towards some people because we are human; but it's something I want to strive to have for everyone. I can count on one hand how many people I have true love for and I find that sad.

My goal is to love everyone unconditionally not because I want to one up everyone because that is from the ego and not the heart; not because it's "What Jesus would do" because (don't take this the wrong way) I don't care about that, I don't want to do this to gain his favor; I want to do this solely for the sake of myself and my soul (I don't want to place myself higher than God, so I hope it doesn't translate that way). I want to be in a place of pure love with no hatred or ill will. To love myself and everyone around me; see everything through rose-colored glasses. This is what I believe to be true love, I am my biggest work in progress and I hope I reach this level in my life.

I agree completely. For me, it's what being a moonchild is about as well - knowing what true love is and striving for it.

THE BEST DAY EVER!


So I went to the live acoustic performance yesterday and it was AMAZING!!! The entire event was so surreal I'm doubting it even happen! This is the first performance I have ever gone to because I was purposely saving it for her! She is soooo tiny in person and her voice is freaking ETHEREAL! She sent chills doen my spine during AoL, it was so beautiful I wanted to cry. I'm sad she only sung 2 and 1/2 songs but it was well worth it and I'll tell you why. Oh and I did manage to record "Skyscraper" on my iPod and surprisingly it sounds amazing, I didn't know my iPod could record that well.

The best thing was the meet and greet! When we finally met the first thig she said to me was so simple but powerful, and the event that followed made my heart soar I have never been so happy! Here's how it went

K: "How are you?"
L : "Overwelmed, I feel so overwhelmed right now"
K: " I feel soooo much love from you"
L: "Thank you, I love you soooo much. I'm so overwhelmed I could cry right now"
She hold onto my shoulder and looks down and suddenly I started crying and when she looks up I saw that she was crying too.

It was very emotional, but a beautiful moment I want to relive over and over. We then talked about so many things like Saima, her 4th album theme, the movie Tapped, pure water activist, and my massage schooling. She want me to take Reiki classes and told me that she also plans and taking classes in Estonia because when se took it, she really liked it but her teacher didn't feel right.

We talked for so long other people where getting mad and the business managers told us "Could this wrap up soon, there is a long line of people wait outside and we're running short on time" and she tells him "hold on this is really special" I could have died on the spot! This was just really amazing. I told her how much she meant to me and how much she has helped me on my journey. Finally we said our goodbyes, we hug for a really long time, I felt like I was too long so I slightly let go a bit but she was still hold me tight so I held her even tighter. The final thing she said to me was "listen I you ever see me stray from the path, tell me and let me know"


This day was truly amazing and I left with plenty of goodies to remember it by
Kerli I freaking love you
I•L•U•

it sounds so awesome... you was in heaven... I'm so proud of you that you can met and talked with her
i thin that it will be one of the most wonderful memories in your memory

Words. Fail. This. Blog. Entry.


That is magic and fantastic and wow. To the 897th degree. Especially the crying part. Who'd have known y'all were spirit siblings! I mean on some level sure, but on such a deep level? Wow. I'm really, really happy for you boo. Those 2 songs & that moment will probably beat any other artist/music experience of your life.

Thanks for sharing the moment with us.

MEGA ->

I absolutely was in heaven! And yes that moment will forever surpass any moment to come. I use to think of crying as weakness because it was instilled to me as "unmanly", but now I don't give a f*ck because we connected that moment and thinking about it sends me on Cloud 9.

That's so great. I'm so glad you finally feel that way! So many guys think that it's weakness and it's like no, it's really not. It shows that you're in touch w your emotions which is a very attractive trait. And that's so awesome that she mentioned you by name in her blog. Shows she'll remember you definitely. That was such a sweet experience. Glad you're cherishing it as you should ^-^