Re: Things In Marys Head

by MaryCourage Tue Sep 06, 2011 11:08 am

Natt wrote:aww your schoolprojects sounds wonderful. I understand that this is for you valid, and I think that you should listen to the voice of the heart.
Maybe try to analyze every topic (advantages and disadvantages) and choose the best. I believe in you

Oh thank you Natt Smile

Yeah, I've been thiniking hard about this for the last few days, and I think that I might be taking water over my head if I choose the "composing" one.

mimi wrote:My advice would be always try to find links with something you know or have studied before. So if you're studying theatre definitely base this project on theatre as well. It will be much easier for you plus you can go into depth more and bring out some interesting points that people who have never participated wouldn't know.

Yeah I know D: the best thing really is to do something based on theater, but what is there really to do? Direct or write a play? that's too much work xD

So I think I have gotten my idea now. I'll be learning how to play the Key-harp.
It's a wonderful instrument, and I've been meaning to learn if for 2 years now. Perfect opportunity Very Happy

I've taken a few music classes throughout the years xD so I think I'll work out, if only my teachers approve this. *hopes*

by Natt Tue Sep 06, 2011 2:03 pm

good luck in project

by Natt Thu Sep 22, 2011 2:33 pm

happy b-day , i hope that your dreams will come true

by MaryCourage Sat Sep 24, 2011 6:36 pm

thank you sweet Natt Very Happy

<3

i feel like I should write something here. I've been absent for awhile cause I'm so busy in school D:
we've just started working on our projects, and it's hard and stressful. D:: hopefully it'll get better soon.

And for my individual project I'll be playing Key-Harp. that's going to be a lot of fun Very Happy

:D:D:D

by MaryCourage Wed Sep 28, 2011 1:29 pm

naah hey.

:D:
don't know if anyone actually cares, but I did 2 more covers Very Happy

not Kerli songs though. I do have some ideas for some of her songs. Very Happy

:D sooo

but here they are
What You Want Evanescence

and Bloody Mary Lady Gaga

any thoughts? Very Happy

by MaryCourage Fri Sep 30, 2011 10:04 am

Awh frick no.
I'm sick AGAIN.
this is now officially my 7th cold this year. sucksss. hopefully I wont' be sick for weeks as I usually am. cannot miss school it's too much going on.

Gonna stay in bed all weekend drink honeywater and eat candy. Watch movies. hope for the best.

Got to rehearse my lines for Monday. don't have so many, finally we're rehearsing for real!!! feels good to get going.

I've got 4 parts in this one.
An actor
A Jewish 20 year old girl
a maid.. apparently she's over 50 years old. Totally not getting the feeling that she's that old. I think she's more like 40. xD
aaand last but not least, an old, cranky woman. 80 years old. NIIIICEE ;D

by Krissy Fri Sep 30, 2011 12:20 pm

hope ya feel better.

by bupple Fri Sep 30, 2011 1:14 pm

u have a nice voice Smile

by MaryCourage Fri Sep 30, 2011 2:15 pm

butterflycry2010 wrote:hope ya feel better.

Thank you

bupple wrote:u have a nice voice

aawh thank you Very Happy

:D

by MaryCourage Sat Oct 08, 2011 2:25 pm

warning a really whiny blogupdate!

Feeling horrible again, like worse than I've felt in months.
I can't stop comparing myself to other people, and when I do all I see is how much of a failure I am.
I'm not as good at stuff like my friends are.
They're all awesome people, funny, nice, good looking. and then theres me... boring, bland, nothing special.

What is my purpose on this planet? like really. Everyone I know has got all the qualities to become something.
I'm such a waste of space really.

Just once in my life I'd like to feel like I belonged somewhere, or feel like I actually achieved something, like somebody actually cared for what I do.

I don't know I guess this is one of those Ihatemyself updates. Just wish I'd be somebody

by Krissy Sat Oct 08, 2011 4:40 pm

*sends u love and hugs*

I feel the same has u do. but all u can do is keep trying/

by MaryCourage Sun Oct 09, 2011 1:44 pm

Thank you hun<3

Yeah dunno, thought I'd feel better after a long nights sleep. but nope.

I'm so afraid that I'll develop some sort of eating-disorder. I find myself going over thoughts of not eating or throwing up what I just ate. and its terrifies me.

but really is that worse than what I do now. Eat, hate myself for days because of it, and then workout until my body gets really really tired.

by mile86 Sun Oct 09, 2011 1:46 pm

oh you really shouldn't do that...i know talking outside of the problem is easy, but that's not good for you!

by MaryCourage Sun Oct 09, 2011 2:27 pm

sorry Im being such a bore, and so self-absorbed.
but I'm so afraid I might hurt myself. I've already bit and scratched myself several times today.

worst thing is I really cannot tell anyone about this. My sister sefharm, and I've seen how horrible it is, and I can't inflict that pain on my family if they'd find out. Suffering alone is far better than my whole family being dragged into my selfpity. It's pathetic, it's what it is.

by Krissy Sun Oct 09, 2011 2:56 pm

I know what you mean. Afther that chat with kerli i would never ever harm myself. Like no way. I didn't before try and cutt myself.but boy that was stupid.

My parents found out about my "depressed times" not in a nice way. (don't wanna say on here) but i felt no support with it. just made me feel bad about it.

by mile86 Sun Oct 09, 2011 3:02 pm

i can't understand all these things about selfharm. i'm not making fun of it, of course it's serious and a great problem, since more and more people try it. but in my head, that seems so STUPID..you're just proving to all the haters that you are stupid.. don't. noone deserves that. you should get up. put on a great smile, dress up, make up, put a fun happy song. live for you, and stop hurting your beautiful body. your body is the one that hosts your wonderful soul. don't harm it <3

by Krissy Sun Oct 09, 2011 3:08 pm

I've found other way's to fight my moods. instead of cutting id find some one to talk to. maybe right in a journal or something.

by MaryCourage Mon Oct 10, 2011 12:44 am

@mile86 yeah I know it' hard for people who haven't been through stuff like this to understand... It's when you get anxiety-attacks, and you feel like you're going to die, so the only thing that can relieve the pain it by inflicting pain on yourself. It works for a while. It's not good, I promise you that. I've seen y sister go through some horrible stuff throughout the years. not pretty.

And I think I can't tel anyone cause I have to be the perfect daughter. My siblings were so hard dealing with, and my mom keeps saying "I cannot deal with more problems" which I get. My sis was a real pain. So I have to step up and be perfect.

by mile86 Mon Oct 10, 2011 12:50 am

No...never ever EVER try to be perfect for others. that will kill you inside and eventually physicaly. Try to be the best version of who you are, for YOU. don't try to satisfy other people's needs. try to do what you want. of course you love your family, i guess, but you should be perfect for you. to be happy with who you are. don't do tht to yourself. it's the worst thing in the world! please!

by MaryCourage Tue Oct 11, 2011 2:35 pm

thank you ^ :3 *hugs*

yeah, those days were kinda horrible. Feel lots better right now. Got to school met my friends, and that was exactly what I needed.

So in a happier note, Got the new Evanescence cd today. EPICNESS.. so, so happy. Cannot believe I've waited for o many years and now it's finally here. I'm holding it in my hand. so beautiful. *my creeeys*
Couldn't concentrate for the whole day. had loads of homework to do. buuut noo blasting new cd on the highest volume. Very Happy

:D

by Krissy Tue Oct 11, 2011 4:50 pm

Oh wow. I'm so sorry you been threw all that, must of been hard.

Sends you double love and hugs.

by MaryCourage Sat Oct 22, 2011 2:06 am

butterflycry2010 wrote:Oh wow. I'm so sorry you been threw all that, must of been hard.

Sends you double love and hugs.

thank you dear <3<3

by Krissy Sat Oct 22, 2011 7:55 am

yOUR WELCOME

by MaryCourage Fri Oct 28, 2011 2:46 pm

I feel like I keep taking long breaks from this place. Sorry D::
So much schoolwork, I'm drowning in them!
Today our November break started, aaaand the first thing i had to do when I got home was to do a hand in analysis of two poems. >_> + I have to study for a test, study lines, write a review of a and write character-descriptions of all of my four characters. blaaah

no but I'm going to a Halloween party tomorrow. epicnessssss Going as Little Red Riding Hood post wolf attack, Very Happy

:D I like
also we had an halloween competition in school today, me and my friend dressed up as a cow (me), a hen and a farmer. We were soooo cool Very Happy

:D

we didn't win though. BUT we totally deserved to win, the ones who did, weren't as good as us xd haha. naaah kidding. Razz

I'll deff post a pic later!! ;D

by Krissy Fri Dec 02, 2011 6:47 am

Hope you had fun on your halloween party

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