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Life of a LunaChild

Post by lunachild on Wed May 04, 2011 4:19 pm

I love places where I can vent. They just make me feel like someone out there is listening who has an open mind and doesn't judge... but I could be wrong. I usually am.

Anyway, I have a different MOO (mode of operation) than most of the people I know. I'm sure everyone has a different MOO though so I have no real right to brag on mine. But since I hate braggers I shall not brag, for that would make me a hypocrite. I guess you can say that I try hard not to be something I don't like in the first place.

But I think I'll still explain some of my MOO. That was something that I wanted to start this blog out with so... yeah...

My MOO has many twists and turns. For example: when I have an idea, I usually go for it without thinking. Sort of like what I'm doing now. Just jumping right in without giving anything a second thought. What I write, I write. Also, along with just jumping in, the second twist to look out for is my humor. It can be over bearing sometimes. I guess I get that from my dad... he's a smart-Alec too and he is proud of it! Oh! and I love to do make-up in all styles. My favorite style is doing bubble goth. When I first heard of it, I tried it and loved it. But I do more stuff too... just for fun! Hmm... what else should I say about my MOO?? Any idea's on what I left out feel free to tell me and I'll tell you more if you want.

In speaking of MOO, I have a cat named Moo because she has a cow spot pattern on her fur and she was a chubby baby! Her twin, no identical, is Midget (or Midge). Midget was the runt of her litter, thus the name. I love them both so much. ♥️

I think, since I mentioned him, I should tell you about my daddy!

Well, I actually just call him dad, but whatever I call him he is still the male parent. The best thing about him, as a mentioned, is his humor. It is easy to joke with him because it is a father/daughter thing that we share, along with our artistic ability. My dad's best way of showing his art is on people's skin! Yes, that's right. My dad is a tattoo artist! When I want to get a tattoo when I'm sixteen or done growing, he'll give it to me. I'm going to wait for a birthday so that it is a present. And ever since Kerli, I've had the best idea. Integrity on my left wrist, Love on the back of my neck, and Unity on my right wrist. I'm sure he'll suggest me getting them one at a time, so I've got three birthday presents for three years picked out! Another thing about my dad, he isn't big (in any form of the word!) but is actually quite skinny. No toned muscle or muffin top. Just skin, some healthy fats, muscle (not toned!) and bones. Any tissue in-between included. I love that he admits this sort of thing so it isn't really offensive. I guess you could say that my dad is a scrawny clown!
clown

Okay, now I think I should drop the bomb... my real name! I don't know how many people would really care to know it but I think you all have the right to know. We're all unity and love here right? Here it is:

Faith

I sort of like it. I was going to get that tattooed on myself somewhere, someday, but after my three MoonChild tattoos. Or, as you could say, LunaChild tattoos! I already have their artistic design planned out in my head. Now I just need to put those idea's on paper and then get them sketched on my skin for a few months to see if I like it that way. If not, wash it off and try another style till I get what I'm looking for. Then get it inked in permanently!

I think that is okay to start a blog off with don't you think? I'll up-date more either tomorrow or the day after or the day after that... depends on my MOO for that day!

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Post by Forace on Thu May 05, 2011 5:11 am

Hey, we share some similarities :D I've been amazed about how similar many Moonchildren are. A lot of artistic abilities, shyness, music taste, games, and just thoughts. So you're not wrong about this place; here you really can spill the beans and there's always someone who listens. Or rather, reads :)

Sometimes I do that, too. I mean, having an idea and going for it right away. Usually it's about a picture in my head, that I simply must paint or draw. Sometimes it's a piece of jewelry, that I start making. But... most of the time I just do nothing, no matter how many ideas I may have or how much work I have :/ That's my procrastinator habit. Completely useless and stupid habit, I realize that. But I can't stop it ;_;
I'll try, though.

We have one cat, Roope. He's a black little (chubby) devil! Always hunting. Though right now he's sleeping behind me on the couch ^^

My mom is a tattoo artist :D I have two tattoos inked by her. I have a dragon head on my right shoulder. I got it when I turned 18. It's a bit pale now, mom was afraid of poking me with a needle xD We'll ink it again some day. I've been thinking of designing it a bit further, I just don't know how. Yet!
My second tattoo is on my left ankle. I designed it myself in a couple of hours! It's a tribal-y flower thing. Oh, now I lied, it's not really on my ankle, because it goes half-way up my leg, really :D

My name is Silja. Nice to meet you, Faith ^^
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Post by lunachild on Thu May 05, 2011 1:30 pm

Pleased to meet you too Silja. It is nice that we have so much in common with each other. I never thought I'd meet someone (anywhere, even on line) that has a parent that is a tattoo artist.

Now for the first order of business... my Trombone.

The Trombone is the instrument that I play in the high school band. I'm usually so insecure about playing in front of people because, for one they are watching me. For another, I'm a girl playing a trombone! It may not seem weird to most people but it is weird to me. Also, I'm not that good like... at all. I can't play that fast unless it is a constant pattern and rhythm. If it changes, screw it... I'm not playing!

OH! I wrote a song in Science... Its called Love Song. I'll type it up here for you all to read. It sounds better in my head then when read so bear with me on this.

Love Song

I la la la la la la la la-love you (repeat 3x)
Hope you love me too!

(Verse 1)
See you standing there
My heart thuds
Unprepared
Looking at you
Look over here
All it all comes down to
You being near

(Chorus sung 3x each time)
Cause I
la la la la la la la la-love you
I la la la la la la la
la-love you
I la la la la la la la
la-love you
And I hope you love me too!

(Verse 2)
Come over here
Ohmigod
Say, "Just call me, dear"
Let me show you
That I really know how
How to love you
Love you right now!
(go back to chorus)

(Chant 2x)
Let me show you
That I really know how
How to love you
Love you right now! (echo on now)
(go back to chorus)


So what do you all think? I sort of threw it together I guess, but still I think it is pretty good for 5 minutes of Science class. I don't know why that even came to my head. One day I was thinking it would be funny to put together all of those sappy love songs into a funny love song but now I have this... whats wrong with me I don't know. If I find out, I'll let you know.

Okay so I have a really cool idea for my hair but my sister thinks that I should do it because it would totally fry it. You see... my hair is just plain dark brown and I want to get white streaks in it. Then I want to take one of those ConAir streak thingies and make my hair different colors of streaks everyday. I don't get it though... she's done all sorts of weird things to her hair! She doesn't understand me that well even though we are alike in so many ways. Only difference is I don't have anxiety and food problems... food problems being she'll only eat healthy things so every time I have something super unhealthy she bashes me about it. I just want to tell her how I feel but I don't want to make her anxiety worse... :'(

Back to the bright side! I'm going to try to get my camera on my laptop working so that I can take a picture of myself and use it as my profile picture. I'll get all LunaChild-up and down and then take it. Can't wait!

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Post by Claudia on Fri May 06, 2011 4:54 am

Love the song!

I can understand why your sister doesn't want you to dye your hair. My younger sister does that to me, when I am dying streaks in my sister would complain about it and mum would eventually dye some in. It really kills the individuality. Streaks should be just fine, as long as you don't bleach your whole hair.
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Post by lunachild on Fri May 06, 2011 2:20 pm

Thank you, Claudia, for the advice not to bleach my whole hair. Trust me, I wouldn't and couldn't pull of fully bleached hair. Maybe just streaks but not a whole head of it.

Update time!

I'll talk about today's Project Love meeting. It was more of a seminar for the 8th grade, which I am just finishing up this year. A few of the Seniors from the class of 2011 volunteered to come and have group discussions with us and join in during discussions with everyone involved. And just my luck the guy that I that I think is totally hot is the Senior who was my group leader. It sucks because we are such different ages and me even liking him is totally wrong... but I can't help it! The whole time I was trying not to just scream as well as trying to get my heart to slow down. I already have him in band class... I really didn't need this! Oh! did I mention he has the cutest smile? God! I just melt in it...

Okay, enough of the love sick chick stuff... down to another topic that doesn't make my heart pump.

All in all, Project Love was good. I did things that I hate doing like volunteering to read in front of people or voice my opinion. I got a few compliments on a job well done from Stan -- name of the guy I like. That never helped me either with keeping my sanity.

Okay, now to tell you something about myself... where I live. Ready?? Here it is:

Ohio, U.S.A!

I'm not giving away city, zip code, address, or anything of the sort, so please don't ask. I know it never really crosses anyone's mind but still... Just don't. You can ask me what it is like though. Right now I can tell you it is very rainy. If you were thinking of coming to Ohio on vacation, or anywhere in northern U.S... DON'T! It is so friggen wet here right about now! It makes me sick...
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So I learned more about Love today, thus the Project Love. I just feel like Love really is a big part of people's lives and that if we could all just get along, the world would be a better place. Like not just in communities, but between countries as well. Stop wars, stop terrorism, stop bashing religions that aren't like yours, and pretty much any kind of meanness in the world. It would be amazing and shed a little light on the planet we like to call Earth! sunny

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Post by Claudia on Sat May 07, 2011 4:48 am

Heh don't worry last year I crushed on a guy who was 2 years above me. He even live in my street (I barely know anyone in my st after 8 years of being there) but this year he quit school and never saw him since. Crushes are crushes I guess.

This Love project sounds interesting Smile
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Post by Gretta on Sat May 07, 2011 10:47 am

I just LOVE reading your blogs, they're so awesome!

My MOO has many twists and turns. For example: when I have an idea, I usually go for it without thinking. Sort of like what I'm doing now. Just jumping right in without giving anything a second thought. What I write, I write.

Same with me, haha! Well, at least with writing ><
with all the other stuff it's kinda different because I fail pretty often (90% of the time) so I try hard not to fail at... basically, everything. So I re-think everything and while I'm thinking I get this this-isn't-such-a-great-idea feeling. BUT if I do it, it rocks. Or sucks. Badly. Usually sucks. Badly. Yeah. That's pretty much my whole life story lol!
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Post by lunachild on Sat May 07, 2011 5:46 pm

Claudia: Thank you for the advice on my whole crush issue. It really sucks when you like someone you can't really be with... makes me sad...

Gretta: Thank you for liking my blogs and it is awesome that we have somewhat the same MOO!

Update time!!!!

Its odd because of how much I update this. I think it is more like an online journal for me in this way, but who knows? I sure don't. More or less I just love letting people know what is going on in my life because some people just wont listen. Here I can just write it down. Of course I save the big time stuff for the "secret" diary/journal. I say "secret" because there is always someone who decides to find it and read it. Haven't had that yet, but Its coming! I know it!

Anyway, today my friends, Maria and Haley, and I went to the mall. They both just wanted to try on dresses and not buy anything. I for one just decided to buy some eye liner, an eye liner sharpener, some earrings for my mom, and some food to eat. That's it. Nothing else. Sure my friends got stuff for their moms' but nothing for themselves... unless you count Haley's pretzel with cheese.

I think I'll talk about books I read. Suggestions I have for all of you as well. You might know the books even and read them. If not, I highly recommend you check them out!

First... House Of Night series, written by P.C. and Kristen Cast. This series is about Vampyres spelled with a "y" and not an "i" if you are wondering why. Vampyres have always lived and even humans know about them. These Vampyres are Marked with a sapphire crescent moon in the center of their forehead. When you are a fledgling it is just a crescent outline. When you are an adult Vampyre, your crescent is filled in with the sapphire and you get little designs surrounding your eyes and cheek bones. If you don't make it through the Change, you die. The main character is Zoey Redbird, a very special Vampyre that gets her Mark filled in early, but no extra tattoos. She controls all of the elements: air, fire, water, earth, and spirit. She is very special to Nyx, the goddess, and will go on a long journey to find her destiny. The first book is called "Marked".

Next up is the Sweep series written by Cate Tiernan. In this series, a girl named Morgan Rowlands is just your everyday girl. Goes to school, has friends, goes to church. But behind all of that there is something more. Something magickal. When a new kid, Cal Blair, has a party where he casts a Wiccan circle, Morgan banishes limitations. When she does this, something opens inside of her. Morgan is a blood witch, one who comes from a long lines of witches. Now she must choose. Will she become who she is? Or stay something she is not? The first book in the series is "Book Of Shadows".

Those are the only two I can really think of right now. Ones that I have yet to finish too. If you want anymore book suggestions just ask. I'll give one to you if you need something new to read that you haven't read before.

Hmm... I don't know what else... hmm.... Yeah I'm drawing a blank. A big fat blank! I hate it when that happens but you know... it does and I can't stop it. Maybe someday I can.

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Post by Gretta on Sun May 08, 2011 3:16 am

House of Night series are amazing! I read them... well, those that were released in Lithuania (5th book is now in teh bookshops yey! ^^) but my friend is collecting them and though I want them BADLY my mother wouldn't let me buy them since my friend has them and it would be "just a waste of money if your friend can let you read it anytime you want"

I've never heard of Sweep though (Lithuania. A place where 90% of cool books will never be released) but if I'll ever see them, I'll read them >:3

oh, and more more more suggestions! ^^ I'm obsessed with books, now reading Prophecy of The Sisters by Michelle Zink and after that will start reading Beautiful Creatures by Kami Garcia and Margaret Stohl ^^
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Post by lunachild on Mon May 09, 2011 3:52 pm

Alright then Gretta. I'll give another book that you could check out before I do my full out update. You know what? I'll be nice and give you two. Each time you ask, you'll get two.

First I'll go with The Hunger Games by Suzanne Collins. In this book, a girl named Katniss, lives in the future North America. It is run by the Capital which is in the center of 12 districts. There used to be 13 but the Capital bombed it down. Now the annual Hunger Games are held by the Capital where two victors (one boy and one girl ) from each district will enter an arena and compete in a blood bath game. The last one standing wins. Katniss is sucked into the games when she volunteers to take her little sisters place. Will she survive? Go ahead and find out in the first book titled "The Hunger Games" which have two other books in the series.

Second: Morganville Vampires. In this book, a girl named Clair is going to college. To bad she is only 16. Being super smart, she was able to go early. She moves to a weird town that has a back story she isn't quite sure of. When bullied to a point of passing out and beginning to fear for her life, Clair is forced to find a new home. She finds refuge at a home that is owned by a Micheal Glass. He allows her to stay if she promises to cook and pay a small rent. Shawn and Eve are two other people staying in the house. All three are 18. Now here is the twist to this little town... it is run by Vampires. You can find out more, and if her parents catch her living off campus, in the first book "Glass House" and of course there are tons more where that came from!

Now... full out update time!

Sorry I didn't update yesterday. I just didn't seem to have my heart in it. I just sort of felt sad yesterday for no reason. But I'm better now... I hope. I'm like a clock. You know... one of those ones that have the big thing that swings back and forth going tick... tick... tick? A pendulum! That is what it is. I am a pendulum. A very slow moving one at that. My mood swings slowly back and forth... back and forth... back and forth.

Tick... tick... tick...

So needless to say, I'm sort of on the upper mid section right now of the pendulum as it swings toward the light side on the left. Yeah, I said left. Most think light is on the right, which I highly doubt that. Not in my mind anyway. In my mind it has, is, and always will be, on the left.

Tick... tick... tick...

So I guess I'll post the rest of my song as promised here. Yeah I have a new one... here it is I guess:


Nickname
(Verse 1)
My name is me
Nothing else will do
Or else don't talk to me

My name is me
I don't want to be called anything else
As you can so plainly see

(Chorus)
Don't give me a nickname
Don't call me that word
I like who I am
Or haven't you heard
That I don't want be
Anyone but me
So don't give me a nickname
Don't give me my shame

(Verse 2)
What you call me is what you get
So call me my name
Don't allow me to fret

It is just one syllable
Or haven't you heard?
Anything else
is totally absurd
(Go back to chorus)

(Verse 3)(Whisper chant)
Just say my name
Don't play that game
Just say my name
Don't give me pain
Just say my name
Let me breathe
Just say my name
Or you can leave
(Go back to chorus)


Sort of lame I know, but it is because only certain people can give me a nickname. Like my friend Abi, I'm so used to calling my Faithy because I'm her "baby" as she likes to say. But that word coming from anyone else seems just so wrong! It creeps me out. And online, if I have a user-name, that is what people can call me or they can call me by my real name which is posted in the first blogging of this whole thing.

Tick... tick... tick...

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Post by Vanilla on Mon May 09, 2011 5:44 pm

You should talk about our group of friends and profile each of us. I really want to know. You can mention how I feel about a certain seventh grader as well, go ahead, i don't mind.
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Post by Claudia on Mon May 09, 2011 11:05 pm

I'm like that, I'm a bit stingy about nicknames. I however do not mind when people shorten it to Claud or Claudi because it's a 3 syllable word. It's just when people give me new nicknames it's weird, I get called Combat boot girl at school because I wear boots. I find it awkward that people call me that Laughing
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Post by lunachild on Fri May 13, 2011 6:38 pm

Okay so I have yet to post in a few days, mainly because I've been uber busy. You know how that gets! So now I'm back and ready for more action. I don't know what I'll talk about, there fore I shall just wing it!

Guess I could start with the camp I went to on Thursday, and half of today which is Friday. I won't tell you what it is called because that really gives a lot away. But I will tell you this... it is drinking and drug prevention. We talk about making decisions on not to do that stuff. But now I have a question for all of the people involved in this type of thing that tells us not to do it:

Have you ever done it? If so... does that make you a hypocrite now?

I mean really. They really shouldn't be talking if they have a glass of wine or more every Friday night! Like really... you are going to come here and lie to our faces. Great! Just what I need.

So I guess I can tell you about what KayKay/Vanilla wanted me to say. Our lunch table. I'll start with last years because that was when everyone sort of liked each other.

First, it was KayKay, Maria, Keirsha, Kelsie, Haley, and Me. Then we added I think it was Natasha. She was really mean and doesn't go to our school anymore. But before she did. Oh and KayKay, I'm just talking about our friends here! Alright, so then Natasha left but before that Haley stopped sitting there. The table behind us, or at least me, was a bunch of annoying boys. NOT saying all boys are annoying but these ones were horrible! They threw food at our table. Of course Maria threw stuff back and then Keirsha and Kelsie followed but whatever right?

This year there is no Keirsha, sometimes Maria, and a few new people. Mary is new, and Kelly was for a little while before she was sent to juvi. Then she left of course. There are two younger girls. One is Angela who is awesome, and then Savannah who thinks she knows everything and is a total Bleiber! For all who don't know, a Bleiber is someone who is very obsessed with Justin Beiber. I for one am not. But That doesn't mean I want to be a basher of the kid. Yeah, he isn't my fave but give him a break!

Okay... I think that is it for that. Now what? I've got nothing... maybe...

Oh! So our TV room flooded today. Thank you North East Ohio for getting so much rain! Not really but thanks anyway. My mom is vacuuming some of it up with a vacuum hose. My dad is on online college so he can't really do much. My older sister, Amber, is very sad because her bedroom flooded pretty bad. This is the second time this whole year but this time it is way worse. I wonder how her fish are doing? Probably annoyed by the noise but whatever... I guess they'll live right?

Amber is trying to sleep on the couch. I don't think any of this is helping her depression at all. I think it is just making it worse for her. All of this stress... So sad...

Okay so I guess I'll suggest something. I haven't done anything new. I'll suggest like... I don't know... a singer I don't think anyone really listens to because it is found very boring to listen to calm and peaceful classical music all the time because it doesn't have a really catchy beat.

Yiruma! He is an amazing pianist. One of my favorite songs by him is "Moonlight." It is so calm and peaceful and it really makes me feel like I could take a walk in the full moonlight. Another one is "The River Flows In You." If you haven't heard that one then you have obviously not seen the Twilight movies. Yes... that song that Yiruma plays is "Bella's Lullaby" as well as "The River Flows In You" by Yiruma. I think all of his songs are so beautiful and they just make me smile and feel at peace with everything around me. Sadly I only get his songs on YouTube, but maybe someday I'll get his CD.

So... that is it for now. I am all out of stuff to talk about. Goodnight!

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Post by lunachild on Sat May 28, 2011 11:56 am

Okay so I haven't been on in a while, nor have I posted here in a while. Please don't hate me! Its been ruff with the end of the school year rearing its ugly head upon me.

Anyway, if you haven't noticed, I've changed my profile picture to an actual picture of me. The little marks on my neck appear as bite marks. This is one of my vampire looks that I thought was really cool. I just did it today, so its fresh out of my creative mind! Sadly I have yet to upload a bubble goth look onto my computer pictures, so that is why that isn't my profile picture.

Here is the look zoomed in more for you:


If you like it, feel free to request a look and I'll show it to you. Sorry I can't do step by step videos. I'm not that talented yet. But what you do is, you take a rusty red eye color and apply it on the lid. Then you take a black and blend it on the outer corner. Take the same rusty red and mix it with a purple. Apply under the eye to make dark circles. Next, highlight your brow bone and inner corner with white. Take a black eyeliner and apply all around the eye, smudging the bottom. Use a red lip color of your choice for the lips.

Now for the bite marks you'll want a brown liquid eyeliner, the rusty red, the same purple, black eyeliner, and clear lip gloss. Draw two dots with the brown liquid. Then pat on some of the red and purple to make them appear bruised. Put a small dot in the center of each using the black to give it some depth. Then apply gloss all over the eyeshadow part to smear it and look bloody. If you want, use fake blood.

As an added bonus, pale out your face if possible. It will really help the effect. Oh and I almost for got to tell you you may use mascara or fake lashes. You may also define your brows if you like.

And that is how you create this look. Again, I am truly sorry it isn't a pro-video like Michelle Phan, or Lauren Luke. I guess I need practice with that. It will be a while though till I can do it just right...

Anyway, my friend Dan and I are back on common grounds. He even forgot why he hated me. If I didn't tell you before, one day he just all up and hated me and he thought I should know why. I didn't and I tried to tell him that but he was stubborn. Lucky for me, I have another really good friend named Haley and she got it out of him that he couldn't remember why. So he apologized and we're cool... sort of. Things are a little awkward because of how long he hated me and I tried to act the same.

That's it I think. Till next time!

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Post by lunachild on Sun May 29, 2011 12:37 pm

Yay! The weather is clearing up! And I have another make up that I want to show you!

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This one was inspired by the music video for the song "Secret" by the Pierces. If you watch Pretty Little Liars, you'll know at least the chorus of this song. Sorry, the picture was too big to actually have in the post, but there is the link!

The first thing I did was take a white eyeliner, and make the shape around my eyes. Then I went over it in black. Take a pale-pickle green and fill in the space. Then line your eyes with a darker green and apply some of that darker green in the center of the design. You can use whatever lip color you want. I just applied some tinted gloss. Finally, add some blush to your cheeks.

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Post by lunachild on Mon Jun 06, 2011 6:33 pm

"Its odd when you don't do something you are so used to doing. After a while, you feel empty inside, like a part of you is missing."

That is one of my many, self made, quotes... I'm sure somewhere, someone else has said it but now I shall document it as my own. Anyone who wishes to use it may say that the author is the following: Faith; LunaChild; Unknown; S. F. ; Still Faith.

So when I grow up, I wish to be a writer. Crazy, right? Not really if you think about it. Anyone can write, right? But not everyone can make a story, novel, book... anything involving the art of the word... stand out in the crowd and be known as something great. Me? I wish to be great. Notice I said wish. "Wish" is a key word that we use in everyday life, though we may or may not realize it. People use "wish" for just about anything whether it be wishing for that boy to kiss you, or wishing that you didn't have to get up in the morning (rather that you wake in the afternoon).

Okay, so I'm not so quite sure how many people actually read this. I don't really care who reads it, or how many... now that is a flat out lie. Sort of. I do care that people read it, just not the amount. Who knows? Maybe my young wisdom with shine through somehow and you'll get something from it.

All these useless words
Swimming in my brain
You can never compare
To the sweetness of the rain
Whether it be in a book
A poem or a song
I hope I can count on you someday
To last long.


That is just something that popped into my head. But yet it rings true. Or at least some of it may to other people. Words might not be as sweet as the rain. Rain isn't good it isn't bad. It just is. It is sweet and makes our plants grow and sometimes cleanses us all of a hot day. Words can be harsh and hurtful. As can rain if you look at it that way. Yet rain is something that just is. Words are what you choose. People remember you for your actions and, most yet, the the words you speak or write. When they are good, don't you wish for them to last long?

There I am using "wish" again. Will I ever stop wishing?

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Post by lunachild on Tue Jun 07, 2011 4:59 pm

Did I forget to mention that the senior class of my school graduated last Sunday? I also forgot to add that the guy I liked was in that senior class. Yeah, big bummer. The fact that I'm too young for him in the first place just rubs it in.

Sweet Serenity Now!

I hope I spelled that right. Again, anyone who reads this, feel free to correct my spelling. It is never any good at all. I don't know why. I just suck at spelling I guess...

Anyway, I'll look on the brighter side for a little bit. My last day of school is tomorrow! Yay!!!!! No more school for two months! What a pleasure right? Wrong! For one I don't see my friends like at all during the summer unless I plan the heck out of it because I live in a whole other county. Also, its hot and humid and I hate getting tan, but I tan anyway thanks to my genes! No amount of sunscreen will stop a slight hue of tan color from entering my skin so that it is darker than most pasty people, who wish they could have my bronze color that they pay to get at cancer causing tanning booths!

Remember how I said I'd look at the bright side? I lied.

So... I have no idea what has been wrong with my brain lately. Its just so weird how messed up it seems. I feel like I can't control the teeth clenching or the stress, or the wave of "Ohmigodthisissocute!" Nor can I control the laughing/giggling, the whining, the near to tears crying, the anger... anything! I'm also so tired! I can't seem to shake this tired feeling... Help????????????!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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Post by lunachild on Wed Jun 22, 2011 12:14 pm

Okay, so I am seriously not knowing how many people are actually reading this. I'm getting nervous that I'm getting boring. If I am, just tell me instead of letting me go on like a complete idiot! I mean... really? Is that showing Integrity? Any Love in that? Unity? Heck no!

Sorry... just so tired. Its summer vacation, I have to clean my room, I need to get this and that done, I still don't have my summer reading book! Plus, next year my mom is going to be my English teacher so if I don't get my work done it will be right under her nose...

I just got back from vacation at North Carolina. We ate tons of sandwiches there because my parents didn't want to waste too much money on other food. I swear, the next time we go on vacation I'm bringing a semi truck full of books. Maybe in that semi there will be "Left Hand of Darkness" which is the book I must read for the summer. Then I will make a power point presentation on the book... I have no idea how to do a power point though! Why can't she just have us make a poster and write an essay on what happened in the book so that it is easier! That's my mom for you, never lets with the easy way..

How the hell do you even make a power point presentation anyway? They should teach us this crap in elementary school...

So if anyone reading this knows how to make one please post some form of direction below. That would be greatly appreciated. I mean really... I would love you forever if you did! Even if I have no idea who the heck you are I will love you! I mean that would make my day!

To further prove my insanity, I will tell you about my terrible writers block. It is haunting me in my worst time of need for ideas to strike. You see, I'm writing a Vampire novel. I know vampires are cheesy now a day, but come on!... I like them... So here is the main stuff going on:

This girl named Mara is captured by a vampire boy (no name yet...) and he takes her away and locks her up in a room. He turns her half vampire, and awaits her decision to become a full vampire. He gives her everything she wants except for freedom. Other than that, she gets anything she pleases. Mara hates being what she is, even if it is just half! She still craves blood, but needs regular food to survive. Still, she feels certain strong feelings for the vampire (no name!) and that is when things go down hill. The Vampire Council gets involved. Now she must decide between life and death. Love and freedom... and all that other crap a teenage girl must worry about! Just wait, there is more! Other creatures only known to man kind through stories will pop in and out through out the story.

If you have any comments, questions, or suggestions (name for the boy, ways to get out of writers block) the post them below. My writers block is more of the kind that just wont let me write what I want to say down on paper. So... yeah...

Do you like to role play? Like... the online stuff? Well here is a great place to join made by me and my friend KayKay! It is called Lumos Falls! Here is the main big time plot:

Have you ever felt different? Even a little bit? Did bad things happen that couldn't be explained? Did some weirdo at your school just not show up one day and you haven't seen him/her since? There are vast more questions that could be asked... but lets keep things simple, shall we?

In colonial times, a school was created for those who were believed to be mentally ill... or that's what most people thought. The attendants of this school were children of all ages between 12 and 19. Whoever attended was never seen till their last year. But by then, they usually just up and left. Some never made it out.

Excuses were made that whoever never made it out of the school had died early from sickness. Again, that is what they want you to think. It was true that they had died early, but because they had to be put down. Why? They were dangerous... but not from mental illness.

Lumos Falls was the name of this school. It has lasted throughout the years, and now, all those who are gifted attend. You do as well. Gifted, not mental, you are... gifted with powers beyond your wildest dreams. Powers to shape shift, make things float, bring back the dead, so much more! Here you will learn to harness your powers so that you may live a normal life.

Still, like all schools, there are loyalties. Where do your loyalties lie?

Do they lie with the Elites? A group of people who think the school is the best thing that's happened. They have all the best grades, the most money, connections to the outside world. the Elites aren't exactly snobby, they just think of themselves superior to the human race because of their powers.The secret leader is Vespertine.

Do they lie with the Rebels? A hidden group, who hates the school and wish to be free all the time, not just on visiting days where you test your abilities to the outside world once a week. They want to get out and leave the prison, learn their powers on their own without being stabilized by the wardens of the school. The secret leader is Defnexx.

Or are you just another student? One that is trying to get out of here as fast as possible and just wants to see his/her family again someday. Or have their own life without being watched almost every second... waiting.

Where ever you lie in this madness, you all have one thing in common. You're not getting out till THEY say so.

Good luck!


And that is it people! The best place for supernaturals... yeah I know it is weird but hey! We need more guys, more Elites, and more Regular students. Once we get more of those we can open back up the Rouges. My character is Lolita Lethia Thorn. Here is the link: lumana.webs.com ...... I really hope you can join!

Okay, what else should I talk about... I don't really know... If there is anything you want me to bring up, talk about, yada, yada, yada, just post it below and I will try my best to oblige.

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Post by lunachild on Fri Jun 24, 2011 9:09 pm

Hello everyone. I don't think I mentioned my 4.0 GPA last time so, read it and weep!

I sure did weep a lot today, because I just felt so alone. I'll explain tomorrow when I don't feel tired out of my mind. So... yeah... I promise more tomorrow... I just need to sleep some if that is okay?
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Post by MaryCourage on Sat Jun 25, 2011 2:38 am

lunachild wrote:
So when I grow up, I wish to be a writer. Crazy, right? Not really if you think about it. Anyone can write, right? But not everyone can make a story, novel, book... anything involving the art of the word... stand out in the crowd and be known as something great. Me? I wish to be great. Notice I said wish. "Wish" is a key word that we use in everyday life, though we may or may not realize it. People use "wish" for just about anything whether it be wishing for that boy to kiss you, or wishing that you didn't have to get up in the morning (rather that you wake in the afternoon).

I feel like this most of the time. I really want to make it as an actress or musician, but I always have this feeling that I'm not good enough, and there's lots of people out there that are better than me, so who's gonna want me?
You're poems and novels are really great, so don't you worry!! They're clever, and you seem to be quite wise for a 14-year old :p


lunachild wrote:Okay, so I am seriously not knowing how many people are actually reading this. I'm getting nervous that I'm getting boring. If I am, just tell me instead of letting me go on like a complete idiot! I mean... really? Is that showing Integrity? Any Love in that? Unity? Heck no!

You should write for yourself and not for somebody else. :p
That's what I do. :p

lunachild wrote:How the hell do you even make a power point presentation anyway? They should teach us this crap in elementary school...

I suck at explaining, but try searching for Tutorials, on youtube. That might help :p
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Post by lunachild on Sat Jun 25, 2011 8:20 am

MaryCourage: Thanks... I wouldn't say that I'm wise, just that I have a lot of time to myself to think of ways to get around life. And you can do anything if you set your mind to it. People would be crazy not to give you a chance.. and if they are still being ignorant and using the same people for every little production and movie (I get sick and tired of Kristen Stewart being every brunette in every movie (she's good but not that good! (if one of my books are made into a movie, I will get all new people on set and give them a kick off jump start!))), try something around that field. Try doing something like teaching people how to act... like become a dramatics instructor at a school.

As for the second one, I was having a really bad day. More or less bad week. I just sort of felt ignored by the rest of the world. I might explain more of that "why" later on in this one.

And yeah. I'm going to try and find someone on youtube who can show me how to make a power point. I had just remembered that our elementary computer teacher, (I'll call her Miss Computer) tried to teach us. I failed at that so I guess that is why I totally forgot everything I thought I knew. Funny how that works, right?

Update in thoughts time!

Okay, I'll start with the 4.0 GPA. I wanted to say more but I didn't feel all up to it. I actually don't care what my GPA is. My parents say I should be happy to have straight A's but I honestly don't think it is relevant to right now. Yeah, it will help me get into a good college, but right now I just want to focus on who I am, not what they want me to be.

To the weeping my eyes out... I live in a place where I'm not in the district that my school is in. My mom teaches at the school, so we go, but we don't live in the township where all of my friends are. Of course I have my neighbor, but she has all of her friends around. Another thing... I suck at planning things during summer break. When its during school I have a limited amount of time to see friends and get stuff done.

The problem... I haven't seen a single one of my friends from school, since the last day. And of course I'm very close to my cousin Kirsten, so I thought I could call her and explain all of my woes, and hopefully invite her over for a while. Too bad she was over at her oldest sister's house to help watch her nieces and nephews... yeah she's 15 and has a 13 or 14 year old nephew.

So that just got me crying even more. Then I wrote down in my journal about how I was feeling and called my friend Haley. She is really good with making me feel better... but of course she wasn't there. So I left a voice message, hoping she didn't hear the waver in my voice.

I wrote more down and called my friend Maria (skipped KayKay because I didn't know if I could handle her loud voice ( you know what I mean KayKay! )) And low and behold she answered. As soon as I heard her voice, I burst into tears and she helped to calm me down some. Then we talked about who annoyed us most. I pretty much said everyone I knew except for her and Haley and Abby ( older friend Abby from drama class not the young one who was on the list ) and then a few choice others.

I felt much better after that. I almost cried again today, though, because when I went downstairs to get some coffee and try to be social, my oldest sister Amber told me to get out of the kitchen because she didn't, and I quote, "Want little kids in her way."

Okay, first off, she is 15 and a half. I'm 14. Also, I'm almost the same exact size as her. Tell me how, in any way shape or form, does that make me a little kid? She treats me like this all the time and her excuse is that she is depressed. That's her excuse to not eat all the time, or her excuse to be a bitch! Pardon my French (even though that is not exactly a French term (tell me why we Americans say it? )) but she needs to start respecting me more, and quit putting me down! And if any of you people reading this think that I'm being to hard, try living with it! She is getting help and is on a medication. She has support from every corner of the planet, and still it is her excuse. What is my excuse to be a bitch? Nothing. I have to deal with the bitchiness, but when I throw it back I'm the bad guy... and guess who gets hurt.

If you believe you have guessed correctly, keep reading. If not, ponder it and try to put yourself in my shoes......

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............................................................ are you thinking?..........................

Tick... tock... tick... tock..............................................

.......... are you in my shoes?...................... do you feel what I do?........

............ Can you see what I go through?...............

If not.............. I'm sorry to say that you need to start doing this type of thing more often. Walk two moons in a mans moccasins before you judge. That's something that I read once. I don't remember who said it, just that I like to follow it. I've tried to put myself in my sister's shoes... and I still can't find a reason for her to treat me the way she does...

Tick... tock... tick... tock...

That is my emotional pendulum. Have you read that poem I wrote? If not, I think you should look into it. Maybe then we can all find some common ground.

I'm beginning to think that is what I could start calling this blog... the Common Ground. Because when you find Common Ground with even your worst of enemies, you can make a form of peace. Maybe if people used Integrity, and put themselves in other peoples shoes; if people showed some Love and found that Common Ground... maybe then Unity can happen and bring us all together. That's what the people who first started America tried...

I'm sorry to say, I think they failed. We may be "free" but we aren't FREE! Again, if you know what I mean, keep reading. If not, ponder it for a while and then read on...............

.......... are you pondering?......................

... do you understand what I'm trying to say?................ do you understand?.......

Tick... tock... tick... tock.....................................

Understand............ believe............ find hope........... find faith.............

.............. who are you now?................

I think I know who I am now.......... I am S. F. If you don't know what I mean, then fill in the rest of the letters to make words. Have you guessed?

Okay, I'm getting ahead of myself. Where was I? I guess I got lost somewhere down the road... Oh yes! It was freedom, wasn't it? Yes, America claims to be free, but we are trapped by all we fear. People in big cities fear that they could get shot, or their kids might be harmed. In the country, farmers fear that their crops will not grow. We fear people, therefore we fear ourselves. We have fear, therefore we are. What causes this fear? Distrust... lies... cheating... murder... sadness... loss... abuse...

Those people who do bad things. They have something to fear. Those who are distrustful and they lie... they might fear being lied to. The might fear that if they don't lie, they'll loose everything... but it is their lies that trap them with fear.

Those who cheat, lie as wall. They cheat because they feel they have no choice. They do it once and it gives them a burst of energy, but then it soon dies. They keep cheating to get that full blast high of getting away with it... but in the end it crashes down... and who is hurt?...

People who murder. Why do they do so? Maybe they are mentally ill... were the abused? Do they feel that some people just aren't worthy of life? That they aren't worthy? Maybe, seeing someone else hurt, makes them feel better... then it is plowed into their brain that it is okay and they need help. Maybe, instead of just letting them rot in jail, we could get them some help. Maybe we can turn them around and make them see that they can start over and change and be good. But if someone is just that mentally ill, and there is no help?... maybe try to give them a better way... give them the choice of fate for themselves... I'm not saying they should die... they should probably be left in peace in a cell, given some social hours with inmates... I have to say this one is the toughest to explain. Any ideas? Quote/Comment below.

Sadness and loss go hand in hand. If you loose something, like someone important to you or that one thing that someone gave you. It is probably very special and if you loose it you feel saddened. Like if it was something from a relative you loved dearly. And I have sympathy more than pity or empathy. Pity is when you look down on someone and you "feel bad for them" but in a snobbish way. Empathy is when you have been in the exact situation, or close too. Sympathy is easier because you can put yourself in the persons shoes and comfort them. Then again, if it is three years past and they are still not over it, try being honest and tell them that its in the past, and that tomorrow is a new day. Enjoy it while you can. So I choose Sympathy over all. I can help people using Sympathy, because Empathy might just remind you how sad it can be then you are both crying. Pity is just rude! So vote for Sympathy!

Sadness and loss is fear because you always fear that something else could make you sad. You fear loss, because not everyone enjoys losing. People may say that they don't care whether they win or lose, but that isn't true. Everyone has to care once in a while.

Now I must ask... did you figure out who S. F. is yet? I'll give you a hint... its me. It is who I am and always will be. Today, tomorrow, 20 years from now... even yesterday I was her. Here is the answer...

I am and always will be... Still Faith. So if I am ever a famous writer, look for a last name with the initials S. F. before it. Then you will know it is and always will be me. I wish you all the luck. I'll post more either later today or tomorrow. Thank you to all who read, and, in the words of Tiny Tim... "God bless us, everyone!"

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Post by lunachild on Mon Jun 27, 2011 6:35 pm

I swear, I'm going to cry if something doesn't happen that is good. I swear! My whole summer is going to suck! And why? Because my so called "friends" have all of their plans and never once think to invite me along. You know... like if they have a party, or if they are just going to the mall...

It sucks because if you aren't cool enough, you don't go. I've noticed Danny (aka Chickadee) goes to all of this high school party stuff. And why does he go? Because he is cool enough to have friends. You know what? Its only because he is short and knows how to dance crazy. That's it!

Sorry if I may be being cruel but... gosh!

And all of my "friends" live in another area and can easily go next door and say "Hey! Lets make some plans!" And they probably don't once consider me. Sure, they consider my older sister... even Abby (drama mama Abby! ) probably does before me... and that stings...

Sure I can call up KayKay and try, but she has acting camp. My two other friends my age have cheerleading... I have nothing going on at all... I must really suck that much huh?

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Post by MaryCourage on Wed Jun 29, 2011 2:22 am

I know what you mean, I, very often may I add, feel like my friends don't care for me. Or at least not as much as they care for each-other you know? It's hard feeling that way, though it's probably just a thing that you've planted in your head, (just like me.)

About your older post, it's good to hear that you have someone to turn to when things are rough. : )
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Post by lunachild on Fri Jul 08, 2011 8:44 am

MaryCourage ~ Awesome to know I'm not alone in feelings. I should probably talk to one of the school psychologists but the only problem is... no school. *sigh* I'll just wait.

Update!!!!

Sorry I haven't posted in a few days. Very busy with self loathing... not really but come close too. My sister has more problems than I, but they are more or less having to do with my parents letting her grow up. My problems are nonexistent in that way. I don't have any friends that my parents don't know at least a little, unless you count all of the ones from RP sites and fan sites...

So, again, I don't have that many problems dealing with growing up in life... Totally a boring person to read about. If you guys want things like how my parents are so unfair, go read something else because this is not it. If you want to know about me, then continue.

................. waiting......................................................

Make your choice....................................................................

................................ are you in............. or out?............

Well I think that is enough, how about you? Good think I didn't make you wait that long this time. I think that is why readers are vacant. But hey? As long as I'm writing its all good.

Sometimes I like to stop and think of why we are here. Yes, God created us to be his children, but am I really here? Or is this just all a mask of nothing? Am I just some girl in a cocoon waiting for God to will me out? Or is this all for real? And if Heaven is super awesome, will it have coffee?

I highly doubt I'll care about the coffee when I get to Heaven, but hey? I'm human, I can wonder.

I wonder a lot about everything. Sometimes I question my religion... I hope questioning my religion doesn't damn me to hell. That would suck! I love my God, the Son, and Holy Ghost, but it is hard not to question sometimes. I'm only HUMAN!!! I can't help but think of what lies in the world of other religions, such as Judaism, Buddhism, even Wicca. Its just something I tend to wonder about as I get older. I know I'll always be a Lutheran at heart. I can't seem to ever turn my back on God... I was brought up with it so I guess its permanently ground into my brain somehow. By choice? Maybe.

I don't want to do anything totally satanic, but what would happen if I were to try out different religions and beliefs... my beliefs wouldn't just go away though. I'd just be experiencing what others do... It scares me the way I think sometimes. I'm scared of Hell and long for Heaven when I die... my soul wont die though, just my body.

I hope I'm not offending anyone with this post.

If you are older than I, you know sort of what I'm going through. We all go through it, that time of exploration. This is my time. I've been going through it ever since I could get my hands on Harry Potter books and other books where magick and vampires and other creatures of the night are involved. If any of you have advice for this, please help.

Another thing... Goth. I want so badly to join the dark subculture but I want to keep my religion. I know it is possible, but will my parents believe that, even though I dress like a Goth, that I will still be me? I know that they want me to be happy, but can the accept it? Maybe if I just slowly move into it without telling them, they wont mind. Maybe they'll think it is just a faze? I hope so... I might try it. Maybe I'll try moving into Bubble Goth full out slowly though. Its a little bit more sweet then the straight up Goth and it wont frighten them as much... I don't know.

Advice? Post it below and I'll take it to heart...

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Post by Forace on Fri Jul 08, 2011 2:47 pm

The whole human life is exploration time. It's your time, all the time. So there's no certain age for it :) I feel that you should be whatever you want to be, and that your parents should just accept it.

Also, dressing in a certain way doesn't necessarily mean you think in a certain way. Clothes and thoughts are separate! :D
I mean, I like to dress goth. But I still don't listen to goth bands, or I'm not into wicca (well, maybe a little), or I don't sit at home moping and writing poetry. Umm, see, I don't even know what real goths do!
I just love the color black, lace and bows. Pale skin. It looks pretty to me. I look pretty in that way xD (Really, nothing colorful suits me) Looking at your avatar, the goth style would suit you perfectly :)
I'm sure there are goths, who believe in god.

But I don't, I never have. Maybe because I wasn't raised with it. I do wonder, that if I had been raised to follow god, what would I be like? Would I follow it blindly (like most people seem to do), or would I question everything?
I feel that I'm a smart person, that I have a lot of common sense. Maybe I would've "discarded" my belief at some point.
But I can only speculate. Right now, believing in a fairytale seems... totally stupid, to be frank.

Now I hope I don't offend anyone with this post! :D

I don't have the need to explore other religions... Because atheists don't believe in anything xD I do read about religions, because they are interesting. And if I see some advice that makes sense, I take it to heart.

I feel that religion isn't that "big" here as it is in the states or somewhere. Sure, there are a few fanatics here in Finland, too (just look at the head of religious party), but I feel most of us don't really believe in god... Or some do, but don't show it. I don't know, none of my friends are religious O_o Nor my parents or grandparents...

At the risk of getting flamed for this... I'll say it anyway... I think that religion smothers humans. I mean, people are afraid of doing things because they fear god and hell and eternal pain and whatnot. Now, from my point of view -an atheists point of view- I can do whatever I want. Because I have no fear of hell, no fear of judgment, no fear of god. I have my own sense of morals. I don't need god to tell me that, for example, killing is wrong.

But I can still respect other people's beliefs. I think that it's fine, if a person gets some hope from believing in something. Just... don't come pushing it to me, you know? "I respect your choice to believe, why can't you respect my choice not to believe?" We can all be friends, but there's too much hostility in people :/

So, explore all you want! Like you said, you are only human, god created humans and humans are curious :) Be whatever makes you happy.

Sometimes I like to stop and think of why we are here. Yes, God created us to be his children, but am I really here? Or is this just all a mask of nothing? Am I just some girl in a cocoon waiting for God to will me out? Or is this all for real? And if Heaven is super awesome, will it have coffee?
You are here. You're talking to me, and I KNOW I'm here. Great logic, yes? xD

They'd better have coffee, or I'll get a headache and become really nasty!
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Post by lunachild on Sat Jul 09, 2011 8:14 am

Forace ~ Thanks for the advice! You're right about becoming Goth not changing me. I'll try to be who I want to be, and I'll update when I'm full charge who I am. And as for God... I don't think having that religion smothers me. I'm not like the crazy Christan that will tell you that you are going to hell. It just makes me feel good that when I'm alone, I can try talking to someone besides everyone out there and myself. And I'll tell you something... sometimes when I'm telling myself how bad I am, a small voice is telling me how good I am at the same time. How much I'm worth every breath... it makes me think that if there is a God... he loves me no matter what I do.

And hey, religion isn't for everyone, but atheists... I'm sorry, but everyone believes in something, even if it isn't an all mighty God. If you believe the big bang theory is correct, then you're believing in something.

Okay, full out update on my thoughts...

Coffee. If it had never been grown and invented into a drink, I wonder what I'd be doing right now. Probably still sleeping. I woke up and I said these words exactly out loud: "I need coffee."

Luckily there was a pot of coffee already made down stairs.

Oh! My friend KayKay is coming over to day. You might all know her as Vanilla. That's her user name on here, her real name is Kaitllyn (I'm one of the few people that can spell it right! (so happy)) but I call her KayKay. Yeah, so I don't like people giving me nicknames that have to do with my name.

Here is the list of nicknames that I have:
Bug (dad calls me that)
Baby Doll (mom calls me that)
Faithy (Abi is the only one who can pull it off (older Abi not my age Abby) and sometimes Bridget (again older Bridget!))
Fai (hate it)
S. F. (if you have read my entire blogs you'll know what it means!)
Baby! (Abi again!)

If you have noticed, I put where they come from next to who calls me it or whether or not I'm okay with it. Fai, is a big no no or else! Only certain people can pull off Faithy. S. F. is my author name. Baby! is because Abi is my "mama" in drama club. Bug is what my dad has been calling me ever since I can remember. Same with my real mom calling me Baby Doll. So as you can see I don't like nicknames. If it is my Username, that is the only time I like people calling me it is when I'm online.

Other than that call me Faith!

If you know what S. F. means, knock yourself out. Even if you don't know what it means, go ahead!... but only if you know what it is for... and who it is... again, an earlier post!

Now lets see... back to KayKay coming over.

Her birthday party got canceled, except for the family one, so she is coming over around 7:00 pm hopefully. If that plan changes then I'll scream, but I'll also post a short and sweet, to the point, update!

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Post by lunachild on Tue Jul 12, 2011 3:48 pm

Sorry I haven't posted. Things have been slipping lately. My sister is one of many things that I feel like is slipping. She is getting way better with people, but it seems to hurt me in the process. I really do want her to get better... abuse of words will go down... but... there are just things that I wish didn't have to change.

Yesterday I got four shots, two in each arm. My arms were so sore yesterday and are a little sore today, but I can type, so its not like it would kill me. I only cried for about two seconds but that was because the last one hurt sooooo bad! I was told not to move but after I was allowed to move after the last one I lost strength and cried.

I've been feeling an odd connection to the Moon lately. Is it all MoonChildren, in my case LunaChild, have a connection with the Moon? Or is it just a phase that will soon pass me by? I feel so much better during night hours when the Moon is out. When the Sun is out, the heat burns at me. I know sunlight is good for us, but when it gets too hot out I feel tired and depressed. Then again, I'm scared of the dark, but not as scared as I used to be. Now the Moon and Stars comfort me...

Maybe I'm a Night Faerie, or a Moon Faerie trapped in a human body? Are all MoonChildren some form of Fae? Many questions yet to be answered...

And is it wrong for me to believe there are Fae? I'm a Lutheran so... is it wrong? Will I have to beg for forgiveness for a small belief in something magickal... something beautiful? I fear to ask for what I might find being my answer.

A book that I am reading is called A Voice In The Wind, written by Francine Rivers. It is about a girl named Hadassah and she is one of the few Christians in ancient Rome. Jerusalem was destroyed and she has no family left. She made the trip to Rome and is now a slave for a Roman family. Her heart is filled with love for an aristocrat that she serves, but she tries to hold onto her Christian faith. There are side stories as well to pull it all together.

I highly recommend this book whether or not you are religious or have another religion. If you are interested on literature having to do with ancient Roman times you will probably like it.

Anyway...

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Post by Vanilla on Tue Jul 12, 2011 4:54 pm

So, Fai (sorry, had to...you know me) I just read the post wher you mentioned switching your clothing slowly into a gothic from what you have now. I realize that your parents won't accept that inn your mind, but I have a feeling they will since you already started moving in that direction in 6th grade when we got into that HUGE fight (remember, lol, stupid times) so its not going to e a big diference.
I'm into the gothic subculture as well, but I don't know what I am...Perky Goth, Bubble Goth, Candy Goth, Lolita Goth, J-Goth? its one of these perkier subsets of the subculture. I feel that you would do well with a J-Goth look or a Candy Goth look. Anyway, you are already transitioning.
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Post by Forace on Wed Jul 13, 2011 7:35 am

lunachild wrote:And as for God... I don't think having that religion smothers me. I'm not like the crazy Christan that will tell you that you are going to hell. It just makes me feel good that when I'm alone, I can try talking to someone besides everyone out there and myself. And I'll tell you something... sometimes when I'm telling myself how bad I am, a small voice is telling me how good I am at the same time. How much I'm worth every breath... it makes me think that if there is a God... he loves me no matter what I do.
That's very good and totally fine! Then God is to you what it should be to every believer. A source of hope, goodness and love. It just makes me so angry, these crazy Christians, who go around "preaching" about the word of God and how it all should be taken seriously. Like those Westboro Baptist Church people! They are going waaay too far. They are SO against gay people, that they forget to live themselves. They don't realize, that there are more important things to do. They could be doing so much good, but instead they focus on something that really... is... OK.
Closed-minded people.
To me, the Bible is more like a guideline, and it shouldn't be taken that seriously. People should study it to see that they should be good to each other. They are full of stories about goodness, forgiveness, love and such. Also, they are pretty colorfully written. It just seems funny to me, that people actually believe EVERY single word in there.

That's what I meant with smothering... For example, there are so many religious people, who are probably gay, but are forced to keep it a secret because of their/their parents religion. They could be living a life where they feel comfortable, a life where they could love whoever they want. Be who they are. But instead, their true self is smothered.

lunachild wrote:And hey, religion isn't for everyone, but atheists... I'm sorry, but everyone believes in something, even if it isn't an all mighty God. If you believe the big bang theory is correct, then you're believing in something.
The word atheism means "without god". "Atheism is, in a broad sense, the rejection of belief in the existence of deities." Just... nothing supernatural exists, in my opinion. Mainly because I have never seen anything that can't be explained with pure logic. I don't KNOW if the big bang actually happened, but it seems to be the most logical explanation at this moment (with the space growing all the time, there must have been a point where it was really small). The big bang isn't a deity, so even if I believed it, I don't believe in it like religious people believe in God.
Therefore, I don't believe in anything.
I just believe, that I am here, and that there are other people around me. I can choose how to live, and how to treat others. This is where being a Moonchild makes so much sense. I choose to try and be nice, so I can have a nice life myself :)
Religion shouldn't matter. Were all people. Every person is different. It's too bad that there are those people, who have the need to "compete" whose religion is correct. And are killing others because of it, because they can't accept different people. That is not what God wants.

I also know the meaning of life. I already said it!

lunachild wrote:I've been feeling an odd connection to the Moon lately. Is it all MoonChildren, in my case LunaChild, have a connection with the Moon? Or is it just a phase that will soon pass me by? I feel so much better during night hours when the Moon is out.
I guess it's all Moonchildren... I think that it's because the Moon is beautiful. It's also something that we can all see, and feel connected. Sounds a bit cheesy, but that's how I think :)
I'm a night person myself. Everything just is better at night. I draw better, and I always have the urge to clean and do all sorts of stuff. Too bad I can't vacuum at night, because the neighbors wouldn't like it...
Also, my (and my fiancé's!) normal cycle would seem to be that I go to sleep at sunrise, and wake up at sundown. It's extremely difficult to do it the other way! It's weird, because the time spent on sleeping wouldn't change O_o

lunachild wrote:And is it wrong for me to believe there are Fae? I'm a Lutheran so... is it wrong? Will I have to beg for forgiveness for a small belief in something magickal... something beautiful? I fear to ask for what I might find being my answer.
Again, there's nothing wrong in believing in something that gives you hope and makes you happy :) Don't be smothered by your fear of God's thoughts about believing in fae. God loves you no matter what, you said it yourself. If God gave you this life, then you must use it. Also, I'm sure God know everything about you, and everything about everything else. No secrets with Him :)
Did God create faeries as well? Or where did they come from?

It may seem funny (well, to me it does) that an atheist is talking about God and religion. Maybe even two-faced. But like I said, I can respect other people's beliefs. I try to speak so that everyone would understand. When I talk about God, I probably mean some... higher purpose, not just a deity. Does that make sense?

Damn this is a long post. Sorry :<
The book sounds interesting, I'll try to find it :)
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Post by lunachild on Wed Jul 13, 2011 3:22 pm

Forace wrote:
lunachild wrote:And as for God... I don't think having that religion smothers me. I'm not like the crazy Christan that will tell you that you are going to hell. It just makes me feel good that when I'm alone, I can try talking to someone besides everyone out there and myself. And I'll tell you something... sometimes when I'm telling myself how bad I am, a small voice is telling me how good I am at the same time. How much I'm worth every breath... it makes me think that if there is a God... he loves me no matter what I do.
That's very good and totally fine! Then God is to you what it should be to every believer. A source of hope, goodness and love. It just makes me so angry, these crazy Christians, who go around "preaching" about the word of God and how it all should be taken seriously. Like those Westboro Baptist Church people! They are going waaay too far. They are SO against gay people, that they forget to live themselves. They don't realize, that there are more important things to do. They could be doing so much good, but instead they focus on something that really... is... OK.
Closed-minded people.
To me, the Bible is more like a guideline, and it shouldn't be taken that seriously. People should study it to see that they should be good to each other. They are full of stories about goodness, forgiveness, love and such. Also, they are pretty colorfully written. It just seems funny to me, that people actually believe EVERY single word in there.

That's what I meant with smothering... For example, there are so many religious people, who are probably gay, but are forced to keep it a secret because of their/their parents religion. They could be living a life where they feel comfortable, a life where they could love whoever they want. Be who they are. But instead, their true self is smothered.

lunachild wrote:And hey, religion isn't for everyone, but atheists... I'm sorry, but everyone believes in something, even if it isn't an all mighty God. If you believe the big bang theory is correct, then you're believing in something.
The word atheism means "without god". "Atheism is, in a broad sense, the rejection of belief in the existence of deities." Just... nothing supernatural exists, in my opinion. Mainly because I have never seen anything that can't be explained with pure logic. I don't KNOW if the big bang actually happened, but it seems to be the most logical explanation at this moment (with the space growing all the time, there must have been a point where it was really small). The big bang isn't a deity, so even if I believed it, I don't believe in it like religious people believe in God.
Therefore, I don't believe in anything.
I just believe, that I am here, and that there are other people around me. I can choose how to live, and how to treat others. This is where being a Moonchild makes so much sense. I choose to try and be nice, so I can have a nice life myself Smile
Religion shouldn't matter. Were all people. Every person is different. It's too bad that there are those people, who have the need to "compete" whose religion is correct. And are killing others because of it, because they can't accept different people. That is not what God wants.

I also know the meaning of life. I already said it!

lunachild wrote:I've been feeling an odd connection to the Moon lately. Is it all MoonChildren, in my case LunaChild, have a connection with the Moon? Or is it just a phase that will soon pass me by? I feel so much better during night hours when the Moon is out.
I guess it's all Moonchildren... I think that it's because the Moon is beautiful. It's also something that we can all see, and feel connected. Sounds a bit cheesy, but that's how I think Smile
I'm a night person myself. Everything just is better at night. I draw better, and I always have the urge to clean and do all sorts of stuff. Too bad I can't vacuum at night, because the neighbors wouldn't like it...
Also, my (and my fiancé's!) normal cycle would seem to be that I go to sleep at sunrise, and wake up at sundown. It's extremely difficult to do it the other way! It's weird, because the time spent on sleeping wouldn't change O_o

lunachild wrote:And is it wrong for me to believe there are Fae? I'm a Lutheran so... is it wrong? Will I have to beg for forgiveness for a small belief in something magickal... something beautiful? I fear to ask for what I might find being my answer.
Again, there's nothing wrong in believing in something that gives you hope and makes you happy Smile Don't be smothered by your fear of God's thoughts about believing in fae. God loves you no matter what, you said it yourself. If God gave you this life, then you must use it. Also, I'm sure God know everything about you, and everything about everything else. No secrets with Him Smile
Did God create faeries as well? Or where did they come from?

It may seem funny (well, to me it does) that an atheist is talking about God and religion. Maybe even two-faced. But like I said, I can respect other people's beliefs. I try to speak so that everyone would understand. When I talk about God, I probably mean some... higher purpose, not just a deity. Does that make sense?

Damn this is a long post. Sorry :<
The book sounds interesting, I'll try to find it Smile

And now I'm quoting something long! Smile But you know... this is a really good topic to talk about. I mean, I question religion all the time, but I always go back. Its nice to have a fresh person to talk to about it instead of the same things thrown at me.

Lets start with the first time I was quoted by you Forace.

I'm not offended, nor am I pleased, to hear you call the Bible a book of stories. I'm glad you see it as a guideline as well. Yes, there are stories Jesus tells us in the Bible, and the first few books of the New Testament is written by a few of his Apostles. They aren't stories, though they may seem like it. God gave whoever wrote the first part of the Bible the words to put it into. If you read the Bible you will see that things are repeated, but from different perspectives. Same thing... different way of viewing it. And if they are stories, who would be that imaginative to make up something that some people live their lives by?

Here we come down to this. The whole homosexuality thing is this: if God created the world, he created man for woman and woman for man. That's the view point from the Bible. People who are obsessed with living word by word will think its wrong. Me personally... I don't care!! Love is beautiful, and I don't care who you share it with as long as you are happy. *Shrug* I question my likes all the time, but I still have eyes for the boy I talked about earlier in this blog... though he has no eyes for me. He probably never have and never will so I might just start to give up... there is no point in smothering myself with the pain...

Second quote: Okay! Now I get what it is! I never thought to look up the word, and I just get so confused because everyone seems to have their own definition. Thank you for bringing that up. But I must ask... what do you mean exactly by super-natural? Do you just mean anything that takes a godly form? Or everything that isn't scientifically proven?

And how, might I ask, could we have all come from a speck in space? I never understand that theory.

Third: Haha! I'm sorry you can vacuum at night. Otherwise I think you work really well. I, on the other had, can't live by that schedule because of school and stuff so I am accustomed to waking up during light hours, but then I'm up in my bed deep into the night unable to catch sleep easily.

Fourth: I don't know if God created Fae, but I know he created Angels. Maybe Fae are a type of earth bound Angels that watch over everything and help the earth keep balance...

And I'm glad you'll check out the book! I'm surprised I didn't cry in the end. If you read it, you'll know why. I feel so bad for Marcus! Rejected then watches love die before his eyes... how sad... even for him...

And to KayKay... did you really call me Fai? I swear I should have your hide! But I'm good... so whatever. Just please stop! I swear, I try to help you with your problems but then you go and do things like that which enrages me!

Okay, update on whatever just happened...

Tomorrow I am going to my cousins so that we may see the second part of the final Harry Potter movie. Yeah... I seriously wont let my religion take that away from me! I love those movies!!! And the books... the books are good too.

I went swimming, the pool water stunk, and now I need to scrub my whole body to get the stench off. Wish me luck on that.

Anyway...

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Post by Forace on Fri Jul 15, 2011 4:22 pm

lunachild wrote:But you know... this is a really good topic to talk about. I mean, I question religion all the time, but I always go back. Its nice to have a fresh person to talk to about it instead of the same things thrown at me.
It is a good topic, though usually it bursts into a huge fight. Again, because people can't respect other people's views on things... I'll gladly talk with you about this :) Or anything else that might come to your mind. My view of the world is rather bleak, so it can be difficult for some. Especially if you're religious. Especially if everyone around you are religious. Or something :D

lunachild wrote:I'm not offended, nor am I pleased, to hear you call the Bible a book of stories. I'm glad you see it as a guideline as well. Yes, there are stories Jesus tells us in the Bible, and the first few books of the New Testament is written by a few of his Apostles. They aren't stories, though they may seem like it. God gave whoever wrote the first part of the Bible the words to put it into. If you read the Bible you will see that things are repeated, but from different perspectives. Same thing... different way of viewing it. And if they are stories, who would be that imaginative to make up something that some people live their lives by?
I must admit that I've never read the Bible, just bits here and there during religion classes, and on confirmation camp. Also I read a bit from the beginning on my own, when I decided that I'd read it :D
I don't know who wrote the Bible, but I do agree that it was written by many people. They probably wrote about real people they met. I also think that Jesus might have been a real person. I read a news article, that said that if he were real, he wouldn't have been tall, handsome and with golden hair and beard. He would've been short, with bad teeth and such. Just like anyone else at that time. Maybe Jesus was the radical thinker of his time, trying to teach love and acceptance. A real hippie, to say it frankly :D So, people wrote about him.
Also, he might have been a crazy person, going around claiming he was the son of God. If someone said that now, what would happen? They would be locked up in a mental asylum, probably.
Something DID happen, to cause people to write a book. But I think the stories have changed too much from their original form. Like, the broken phone-game. Have you heard of it? You sit in a circle of many people (preferably like, 10 or more). Someone thinks of a sentence, and whispers it to person next to them, and that person whispers it to the next one and so on. The last person says the sentence out loud, and it usually has changed to something completely different! A fun game to play with classmates.

lunachild wrote:Here we come down to this. The whole homosexuality thing is this: if God created the world, he created man for woman and woman for man. That's the view point from the Bible. People who are obsessed with living word by word will think its wrong. Me personally... I don't care!! Love is beautiful, and I don't care who you share it with as long as you are happy. *Shrug* I question my likes all the time, but I still have eyes for the boy I talked about earlier in this blog... though he has no eyes for me. He probably never have and never will so I might just start to give up... there is no point in smothering myself with the pain...
I understand. Of (almost) every creature there is a male and a female version, and they are designed to procreate. Now, animals follows this without exceptions (well, except for penguins, I heard there's a gay penguin couple), because it's in their nature. Humans are much more developed, and little of original nature has survived (some of which surface when being threatened and such). Humans can fall in love with... pretty much anything! Animals, or even buildings! I saw a documentary of women, who loved some building, or a bridge. One woman was in love with the Eiffel tower O_o
Heh, so my point is, that humans are more developed, they have a consciousness no other creature has. We can make choices. So, why is falling in love with a human of same sex so horrible to some? I don't know :< I have no problem with it, as long as no one is hurting no one or nothing.
What angers me about this, are religious people, who try to push their beliefs and rules to people who don't believe. Like what they say should be a law or something. Though their arguments are hilarious! For example: "if you allow gay marriage, people will soon want to marry their dog or something!" :D Like that will ever happen. It's not the same thing at all.

And about that boy... I've said this to so many people already :D You are young, there's plenty of time for boys. If he doesn't like you, then it's not meant to be. I had plenty of crushes during school years, but they faded quickly. Crushes usually do.

lunachild wrote:Second quote: Okay! Now I get what it is! I never thought to look up the word, and I just get so confused because everyone seems to have their own definition. Thank you for bringing that up. But I must ask... what do you mean exactly by super-natural? Do you just mean anything that takes a godly form? Or everything that isn't scientifically proven?
To copy+paste some more: "The term atheism originated from the Greek ἄθεος (atheos), meaning "without god"".
There are some branches in atheism, though. Like pragmatic atheism; they live as though there is no god(s), but don't deny their existence, either O_o
You can read more from Wikipedia, if you want: http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Atheism

But I myself, am a complete atheist. I don't believe in any deities, and I deny their existence. I also don't believe in ghosts, spirits, werewolves, vampires, fairies, witches, demons, Satan etc. That's what I mean by supernatural. They are simply stories made up by simple people of the old days, when people didn't understand something, or was invented to scare children from going into the woods/water alone.

You could say I only believe things I can see and touch :O

That is what I believe religion to be; a bunch of stories made up to scare people. To control them. The early Christians did a LOT of bad things when they traveled and turned people to Christianity. Rape and murder.
In a sense, that's what they are doing even today. You'd think that humans would be smarter :/

lunachild wrote:And how, might I ask, could we have all come from a speck in space? I never understand that theory.
You're asking about the Big Bang theory? I'm sure someone can explain it better than me. But... I understand, that the universe was very dense and hot in the beginning, and for some reason exploded. It might not have been really a "speck", it could have been huuuge. It can't really be explained, because no one was there to witness it, so we can only speculate from the information we have now, and what we learn. The universe has been expanding for "about 13.7 billion years", and it's expanding all the time. It really is amazing how life was created right here. Or not CREATED, wrong choice of words. Life just HAPPENED.
Do they teach these things in your school?

Also, the universe springs yet another form of atheism: Pantheism. "Pantheism is the religious belief that God is not merely omnipresent, but that God is the universe." Albert Einstein was a pantheist.

lunachild wrote:Third: Haha! I'm sorry you can vacuum at night. Otherwise I think you work really well. I, on the other had, can't live by that schedule because of school and stuff so I am accustomed to waking up during light hours, but then I'm up in my bed deep into the night unable to catch sleep easily.
Oh yes, this cycle is just fine for me, since I no longer have school. Or a job, that I have to wake up to (I work at home). It's just difficult to have the time to go buy food before the shops close :D

lunachild wrote:Fourth: I don't know if God created Fae, but I know he created Angels. Maybe Fae are a type of earth bound Angels that watch over everything and help the earth keep balance...
Earth angels :D That's a beautiful idea!

Now my post is even longer :B
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Post by lunachild on Fri Jul 15, 2011 5:04 pm

Forace wrote:
lunachild wrote:But you know... this is a really good topic to talk about. I mean, I question religion all the time, but I always go back. Its nice to have a fresh person to talk to about it instead of the same things thrown at me.
It is a good topic, though usually it bursts into a huge fight. Again, because people can't respect other people's views on things... I'll gladly talk with you about this :) Or anything else that might come to your mind. My view of the world is rather bleak, so it can be difficult for some. Especially if you're religious. Especially if everyone around you are religious. Or something :D

lunachild wrote:I'm not offended, nor am I pleased, to hear you call the Bible a book of stories. I'm glad you see it as a guideline as well. Yes, there are stories Jesus tells us in the Bible, and the first few books of the New Testament is written by a few of his Apostles. They aren't stories, though they may seem like it. God gave whoever wrote the first part of the Bible the words to put it into. If you read the Bible you will see that things are repeated, but from different perspectives. Same thing... different way of viewing it. And if they are stories, who would be that imaginative to make up something that some people live their lives by?
I must admit that I've never read the Bible, just bits here and there during religion classes, and on confirmation camp. Also I read a bit from the beginning on my own, when I decided that I'd read it :D
I don't know who wrote the Bible, but I do agree that it was written by many people. They probably wrote about real people they met. I also think that Jesus might have been a real person. I read a news article, that said that if he were real, he wouldn't have been tall, handsome and with golden hair and beard. He would've been short, with bad teeth and such. Just like anyone else at that time. Maybe Jesus was the radical thinker of his time, trying to teach love and acceptance. A real hippie, to say it frankly :D So, people wrote about him.
Also, he might have been a crazy person, going around claiming he was the son of God. If someone said that now, what would happen? They would be locked up in a mental asylum, probably.
Something DID happen, to cause people to write a book. But I think the stories have changed too much from their original form. Like, the broken phone-game. Have you heard of it? You sit in a circle of many people (preferably like, 10 or more). Someone thinks of a sentence, and whispers it to person next to them, and that person whispers it to the next one and so on. The last person says the sentence out loud, and it usually has changed to something completely different! A fun game to play with classmates.

lunachild wrote:Here we come down to this. The whole homosexuality thing is this: if God created the world, he created man for woman and woman for man. That's the view point from the Bible. People who are obsessed with living word by word will think its wrong. Me personally... I don't care!! Love is beautiful, and I don't care who you share it with as long as you are happy. *Shrug* I question my likes all the time, but I still have eyes for the boy I talked about earlier in this blog... though he has no eyes for me. He probably never have and never will so I might just start to give up... there is no point in smothering myself with the pain...
I understand. Of (almost) every creature there is a male and a female version, and they are designed to procreate. Now, animals follows this without exceptions (well, except for penguins, I heard there's a gay penguin couple), because it's in their nature. Humans are much more developed, and little of original nature has survived (some of which surface when being threatened and such). Humans can fall in love with... pretty much anything! Animals, or even buildings! I saw a documentary of women, who loved some building, or a bridge. One woman was in love with the Eiffel tower O_o
Heh, so my point is, that humans are more developed, they have a consciousness no other creature has. We can make choices. So, why is falling in love with a human of same sex so horrible to some? I don't know :< I have no problem with it, as long as no one is hurting no one or nothing.
What angers me about this, are religious people, who try to push their beliefs and rules to people who don't believe. Like what they say should be a law or something. Though their arguments are hilarious! For example: "if you allow gay marriage, people will soon want to marry their dog or something!" :D Like that will ever happen. It's not the same thing at all.

And about that boy... I've said this to so many people already :D You are young, there's plenty of time for boys. If he doesn't like you, then it's not meant to be. I had plenty of crushes during school years, but they faded quickly. Crushes usually do.

lunachild wrote:Second quote: Okay! Now I get what it is! I never thought to look up the word, and I just get so confused because everyone seems to have their own definition. Thank you for bringing that up. But I must ask... what do you mean exactly by super-natural? Do you just mean anything that takes a godly form? Or everything that isn't scientifically proven?
To copy+paste some more: "The term atheism originated from the Greek ἄθεος (atheos), meaning "without god"".
There are some branches in atheism, though. Like pragmatic atheism; they live as though there is no god(s), but don't deny their existence, either O_o
You can read more from Wikipedia, if you want: http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Atheism

But I myself, am a complete atheist. I don't believe in any deities, and I deny their existence. I also don't believe in ghosts, spirits, werewolves, vampires, fairies, witches, demons, Satan etc. That's what I mean by supernatural. They are simply stories made up by simple people of the old days, when people didn't understand something, or was invented to scare children from going into the woods/water alone.

You could say I only believe things I can see and touch :O

That is what I believe religion to be; a bunch of stories made up to scare people. To control them. The early Christians did a LOT of bad things when they traveled and turned people to Christianity. Rape and murder.
In a sense, that's what they are doing even today. You'd think that humans would be smarter :/

lunachild wrote:And how, might I ask, could we have all come from a speck in space? I never understand that theory.
You're asking about the Big Bang theory? I'm sure someone can explain it better than me. But... I understand, that the universe was very dense and hot in the beginning, and for some reason exploded. It might not have been really a "speck", it could have been huuuge. It can't really be explained, because no one was there to witness it, so we can only speculate from the information we have now, and what we learn. The universe has been expanding for "about 13.7 billion years", and it's expanding all the time. It really is amazing how life was created right here. Or not CREATED, wrong choice of words. Life just HAPPENED.
Do they teach these things in your school?

Also, the universe springs yet another form of atheism: Pantheism. "Pantheism is the religious belief that God is not merely omnipresent, but that God is the universe." Albert Einstein was a pantheist.

lunachild wrote:Third: Haha! I'm sorry you can vacuum at night. Otherwise I think you work really well. I, on the other had, can't live by that schedule because of school and stuff so I am accustomed to waking up during light hours, but then I'm up in my bed deep into the night unable to catch sleep easily.
Oh yes, this cycle is just fine for me, since I no longer have school. Or a job, that I have to wake up to (I work at home). It's just difficult to have the time to go buy food before the shops close :D

lunachild wrote:Fourth: I don't know if God created Fae, but I know he created Angels. Maybe Fae are a type of earth bound Angels that watch over everything and help the earth keep balance...
Earth angels :D That's a beautiful idea!

Now my post is even longer :B

Okay so for the first quote... now my post is even longer by the way: Not everyone around me is religious but do have beliefs. And I too hate it when people are crazy religious. It makes me uncomfortable. In my own religion, it is pretty much welcomed to preach the word of God to all humans, no matter what they believe. I do that, but I don't press it to them. In the end, they decide what they believe. I just like telling about it because it makes me feel like I'm actually doing something good and right with my life... as if it is worth while.

Second: Remember, Jesus did bring back the dead quite a few times in the name of God. And the name Jesus means Messiah, and Mary never had sex to have Jesus. She just ended up pregnant. So that part, if people think it is a story made up, really need an explanation or at least for the rising of the dead. People did follow and write about this "hippy".

Third: Okay, you're right about animals pretty much being programed. I think, in general, animals are so pure in comparison to humans. Everything they do is just their nature. And I think that people that are uber religious don't like homosexuals, not just because of the Bible, but because they think that every woman should marry as should a man to that woman and they should have a family and et cetera.
My opinion... if you don't want to have kids then fine! Leave those people alone as well! If you love someone of the same sex... its love! Deal with it or leave them alone! Their choice not yours.
I do, however, understand the whole abortion thing. I mean... its a child... you can always put it up for adoption or into foster care. I just personally don't think it is right... if you're old enough to have sex then you are old enough to have a baby. Now if you are raped, then get one of those kits where they make sure you don't get pregnant. Yes, you'll have to tell someone, but at least you wont have a baby that way.

Fourth: I do not agree with your take on early Christians. Sure, in the future they went bat-shit crazy, but the earliest ones were under the rule of Rome. Jews were still be slaughtered, yes, but anyone who followed Jesus Christ, was sent to arenas to be fed to lions. They were crucified if found to be Christian. They were given chances to give it up, but the strong ones stayed true to their faith. They died knowing that they were true to what they believed. They were the ones murdered first... then they began to turn off the true path of God. Things changed and people made mistakes. Today, there are still many, yet still so few, Christians that would kill someone just because they don't believe. In that book I suggested, the girl died in the end because she refused to say that Caesar was god.
But still, it is a good book so don't let that part throw you!

Fifth: I know, and they did teach me this in science. But the belief that we evolved from monkeys is dumber than dumb! I was taught that there were monkeys and neanderthals. According to science, we evolved from the neanderthal, not the monkey. Of course, I don't believe it... I do believe God has a sense of humor though... if you are wondering what that is feel free to ask!

Sixth: Sorry about the shops!

Seventh and final!: Thank you! I believe that God wants us to have some fun things to believe in besides just the obvious things around us.

Okay so I went to see the second part, and final, Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows movie! I'm so sad... I cried so much during the end. But I have to say: Mrs. Molly Weasley kicked ass!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :D If you want to know more, I can make some spoilers but you know... don't want to completely spoil it for all you muggles! :P

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Post by Forace on Fri Jul 15, 2011 11:40 pm

I'll reply right away, while my thoughts are still coherent :D

lunachild wrote:Not everyone around me is religious but do have beliefs. And I too hate it when people are crazy religious. It makes me uncomfortable. In my own religion, it is pretty much welcomed to preach the word of God to all humans, no matter what they believe. I do that, but I don't press it to them. In the end, they decide what they believe. I just like telling about it because it makes me feel like I'm actually doing something good and right with my life... as if it is worth while.
That's great, you're one of those people who can respect other people's beliefs, and non-beliefs :) There should be more people like you. I just told about you to a friend of mine, who is also an atheist (surprise) and dislikes church things. I told him I often forget you're just 14; it's like talking to an adult. He was surprised to hear about a religious person, who is so wise :)
I guess it's the stereotype of religious people, that they are closed-minded and stupid. I know not ALL of them are like that, but it seems that so many are... I have a friend who is greatly religious, but she has never pushed it to or even spoken of it with me. I guess she knew me well enough not to do that :) Nowadays she works with young adults, who have difficulties with their lives. Religion can also be good :)
And don't get mad about stereotypes. I hear all Finns carry knives and drink a lot, which is not the case :D Only crazy people carry knives.

lunachild wrote:Second: Remember, Jesus did bring back the dead quite a few times in the name of God. And the name Jesus means Messiah, and Mary never had sex to have Jesus. She just ended up pregnant. So that part, if people think it is a story made up, really need an explanation or at least for the rising of the dead. People did follow and write about this "hippy".
I have a few theories about bringing back the dead. Maybe Jesus knew something about medicine. Maybe he just happened to be at a right place at a right time, and punched people in the chest to make their hearts beat again xD OK, stupid theory, even I don't believe that.
Or, maybe he never brought anyone back to life? Maybe people who wrote about him made these up to make Jesus seem more fantastical. Or they were just rumors, that Jesus had done something... People could have believed all sorts of things.
I also thought about Lazarus, since he had been dead for several days. It's just plain impossible to save anyone after that long a time, the brain cells get damaged after 5 minutes. He would be a vegetable after that. Though it is possible to slow down the process, if a person gets frozen. Then they might survive with little damage for a few hours. At least THAT story is colored to make Jesus seem amazing.
And another wild theory: if Jesus knew about medicine, he could have caused people to seem dead with some drug. They would seem dead to a peasant, but really their hearts would beat very quietly. Jesus would then just wait for the drug to wear off, or even give an antidote.

And what proof there is of Mary's virginity? She might have just had Jesus with Joseph, but the story has been colored. I heard this theory from somewhere: maybe Mary had an affair, and didn't want Joseph to know, so she made up a story that God had made her pregnant :D
As an atheist, I can only explain babies with biology, and SOMEONE had to have sex with Mary.
I don't know how smart people were back then, so I can't say how imaginative they were...

lunachild wrote:Third: Okay, you're right about animals pretty much being programed. I think, in general, animals are so pure in comparison to humans.
That's true :) Animals are pure. They don't kill out of hatred, but just because they need to feed. Then there are humans, who kill for whatever reason they believe justifies their actions :/

lunachild wrote:And I think that people that are uber religious don't like homosexuals, not just because of the Bible, but because they think that every woman should marry as should a man to that woman and they should have a family and et cetera.
Yeah, that is how it should normally go. But times (and people) are different... The modern human can love humans of same sex. Or, how old homosexuality is? I don't even know. At least, nowadays it's a bit more acceptable.
And hey, I just thought of this... It seems religious people may also have some prejudices about homosexuality. That it's somehow dirty and disgusting. For example, this one Ugandan pastor, who speaks against homosexuals. Apparently, he has found some gay poop-eating porn, and now thinks that ALL gay people do it O_o You can watch that video here: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=euXQbZDwV0w
Don't worry, nothing horrible is shown. Just the pastor, speaking and using his hands to demonstrate how gay people have sex... xD Even some people in the audience are laughing! He's just the kind of extremist, who don't really understand how things really work.

Do you think gay couples should be allowed to adopt? Some are against that as well. I think that many gay couples would be a LOT better parents, than some straight couples! I wouldn't worry about bullying, either. Well, just a little. That's because people don't explain these things to kids, so they bully the one who is different. They'll bully anyone. Kids are a lot smarter than adults think :)

lunachild wrote:I do, however, understand the whole abortion thing. I mean... its a child... you can always put it up for adoption or into foster care. I just personally don't think it is right... if you're old enough to have sex then you are old enough to have a baby. Now if you are raped, then get one of those kits where they make sure you don't get pregnant. Yes, you'll have to tell someone, but at least you wont have a baby that way.
I accept abortion, of course :D But not after a few months! When it can be called a "baby", it's too late. An embryo, that has no brain activity or any activity at all, is not a baby. I'd prefer to have the abortion as early as possible. It's just sick to scrap out fairly well developed babies. I've seen pictures of aborted babies, that had clearly visible limbs :<
And I strongly suggest that every rape victim should tell someone! Even if they don't get pregnant, or even if they're not that shaken up from it. I'd make sure no other girl has the same experience. I see rape as a serious violation. Maybe even worse than murder. Because you have to live with the rape experience for the rest of your life, and probably unable to trust anyone ever again. Whereas with a murder victim... Well, they don't know much about anything anymore :/
A bit extreme, but that's what I think...

lunachild wrote:Fourth: I do not agree with your take on early Christians. Sure, in the future they went bat-shit crazy, but the earliest ones were under the rule of Rome. Jews were still be slaughtered, yes, but anyone who followed Jesus Christ, was sent to arenas to be fed to lions. They were crucified if found to be Christian. They were given chances to give it up, but the strong ones stayed true to their faith. They died knowing that they were true to what they believed. They were the ones murdered first... then they began to turn off the true path of God. Things changed and people made mistakes. Today, there are still many, yet still so few, Christians that would kill someone just because they don't believe.
Oh crap, that's how I meant to say xD The early Christians were all Jewish. At some point, this "modern" type of Christianity was created, which was then spread with the crusades. It was these crusades that I meant that were bad. It was like a military operation, but "in the name of God". They fought against Muslims (to get the Holy Land back) and pretty much everyone else who happened to have different religion. I guess a lot of villages were destroyed, along with their own religions. Even Finnish mythology is no more, though I hear that maybe it will be recognized again as a religion :O It was on the news not that long ago.
Oh, btw, I still am a part of the church, so my religion is Evangelical Lutheran. It's the most popular here. I have been thinking of leaving it, just like my fiancé.
Some interesting info:
"The Evangelical Lutheran Church is Finland's largest religious body. --- With 4.2 million members, the Evangelical Lutheran Church of Finland is one of the largest Lutheran churches in the world."

"Especially in recent years, the number of church members leaving the Lutheran church of Finland has been increasing rapidly. A record 83,097 members left the church in 2010; the large number caused in part by a Finnish television discussion programme broadcast on 12 October 2010 concerning gay rights, in which church clergy and laymen were divided both for and against the proposed legal amendments."
^ That was one of the reasons my fiancé left the church.

lunachild wrote:In that book I suggested, the girl died in the end because she refused to say that Caesar was god.
But still, it is a good book so don't let that part throw you!
He couldn't handle people worshiping someone else other than him, so he killed the followers of God? Caesar had a huge ego!

lunachild wrote:Fifth: I know, and they did teach me this in science. But the belief that we evolved from monkeys is dumber than dumb! I was taught that there were monkeys and neanderthals. According to science, we evolved from the neanderthal, not the monkey. Of course, I don't believe it... I do believe God has a sense of humor though... if you are wondering what that is feel free to ask!
I wouldn't say humans evolved from monkeys, that is dumb O_o Rather like, from monkey-like creatures (or ape-like creatures?). Some of these creatures were smarter than the others, actions required more intelligence, so their brain grew. I guess it was homo erectus that was the first one to really walk with two feet. So, their bodies evolved into that direction; bone structure more suitable for walking, and more brain capacity. Whereas the monkey-like creatures, that didn't invent walking with two feet, continued to live in trees and evolve into the monkeys they are now.
Meaning, that at one point, humans and monkeys were of same species, but branched and developed differently.
"The hominoids are descendants of a common ancestor."

Kinda like the question: which came first, the chicken or the egg?
My answer is the egg. The egg came from two chicken-like birds, and the chick in the egg was most like the chicken we have now.


I'd like to see the rest of the HP films, I've probably seen... the first 3 :/ And I should re-read the books, I forget things easily :3
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Post by lunachild on Mon Jul 18, 2011 12:26 pm

Forace wrote:I'll reply right away, while my thoughts are still coherent Very Happy

lunachild wrote:Not everyone around me is religious but do have beliefs. And I too hate it when people are crazy religious. It makes me uncomfortable. In my own religion, it is pretty much welcomed to preach the word of God to all humans, no matter what they believe. I do that, but I don't press it to them. In the end, they decide what they believe. I just like telling about it because it makes me feel like I'm actually doing something good and right with my life... as if it is worth while.
That's great, you're one of those people who can respect other people's beliefs, and non-beliefs Smile There should be more people like you. I just told about you to a friend of mine, who is also an atheist (surprise) and dislikes church things. I told him I often forget you're just 14; it's like talking to an adult. He was surprised to hear about a religious person, who is so wise Smile
I guess it's the stereotype of religious people, that they are closed-minded and stupid. I know not ALL of them are like that, but it seems that so many are... I have a friend who is greatly religious, but she has never pushed it to or even spoken of it with me. I guess she knew me well enough not to do that Smile Nowadays she works with young adults, who have difficulties with their lives. Religion can also be good Smile
And don't get mad about stereotypes. I hear all Finns carry knives and drink a lot, which is not the case Very Happy Only crazy people carry knives.

lunachild wrote:Second: Remember, Jesus did bring back the dead quite a few times in the name of God. And the name Jesus means Messiah, and Mary never had sex to have Jesus. She just ended up pregnant. So that part, if people think it is a story made up, really need an explanation or at least for the rising of the dead. People did follow and write about this "hippy".
I have a few theories about bringing back the dead. Maybe Jesus knew something about medicine. Maybe he just happened to be at a right place at a right time, and punched people in the chest to make their hearts beat again xD OK, stupid theory, even I don't believe that.
Or, maybe he never brought anyone back to life? Maybe people who wrote about him made these up to make Jesus seem more fantastical. Or they were just rumors, that Jesus had done something... People could have believed all sorts of things.
I also thought about Lazarus, since he had been dead for several days. It's just plain impossible to save anyone after that long a time, the brain cells get damaged after 5 minutes. He would be a vegetable after that. Though it is possible to slow down the process, if a person gets frozen. Then they might survive with little damage for a few hours. At least THAT story is colored to make Jesus seem amazing.
And another wild theory: if Jesus knew about medicine, he could have caused people to seem dead with some drug. They would seem dead to a peasant, but really their hearts would beat very quietly. Jesus would then just wait for the drug to wear off, or even give an antidote.

And what proof there is of Mary's virginity? She might have just had Jesus with Joseph, but the story has been colored. I heard this theory from somewhere: maybe Mary had an affair, and didn't want Joseph to know, so she made up a story that God had made her pregnant Very Happy
As an atheist, I can only explain babies with biology, and SOMEONE had to have sex with Mary.
I don't know how smart people were back then, so I can't say how imaginative they were...

lunachild wrote:Third: Okay, you're right about animals pretty much being programed. I think, in general, animals are so pure in comparison to humans.
That's true Smile Animals are pure. They don't kill out of hatred, but just because they need to feed. Then there are humans, who kill for whatever reason they believe justifies their actions :/

lunachild wrote:And I think that people that are uber religious don't like homosexuals, not just because of the Bible, but because they think that every woman should marry as should a man to that woman and they should have a family and et cetera.
Yeah, that is how it should normally go. But times (and people) are different... The modern human can love humans of same sex. Or, how old homosexuality is? I don't even know. At least, nowadays it's a bit more acceptable.
And hey, I just thought of this... It seems religious people may also have some prejudices about homosexuality. That it's somehow dirty and disgusting. For example, this one Ugandan pastor, who speaks against homosexuals. Apparently, he has found some gay poop-eating porn, and now thinks that ALL gay people do it O_o You can watch that video here: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=euXQbZDwV0w
Don't worry, nothing horrible is shown. Just the pastor, speaking and using his hands to demonstrate how gay people have sex... xD Even some people in the audience are laughing! He's just the kind of extremist, who don't really understand how things really work.

Do you think gay couples should be allowed to adopt? Some are against that as well. I think that many gay couples would be a LOT better parents, than some straight couples! I wouldn't worry about bullying, either. Well, just a little. That's because people don't explain these things to kids, so they bully the one who is different. They'll bully anyone. Kids are a lot smarter than adults think Smile

lunachild wrote:I do, however, understand the whole abortion thing. I mean... its a child... you can always put it up for adoption or into foster care. I just personally don't think it is right... if you're old enough to have sex then you are old enough to have a baby. Now if you are raped, then get one of those kits where they make sure you don't get pregnant. Yes, you'll have to tell someone, but at least you wont have a baby that way.
I accept abortion, of course Very Happy But not after a few months! When it can be called a "baby", it's too late. An embryo, that has no brain activity or any activity at all, is not a baby. I'd prefer to have the abortion as early as possible. It's just sick to scrap out fairly well developed babies. I've seen pictures of aborted babies, that had clearly visible limbs :<
And I strongly suggest that every rape victim should tell someone! Even if they don't get pregnant, or even if they're not that shaken up from it. I'd make sure no other girl has the same experience. I see rape as a serious violation. Maybe even worse than murder. Because you have to live with the rape experience for the rest of your life, and probably unable to trust anyone ever again. Whereas with a murder victim... Well, they don't know much about anything anymore :/
A bit extreme, but that's what I think...

lunachild wrote:Fourth: I do not agree with your take on early Christians. Sure, in the future they went bat-shit crazy, but the earliest ones were under the rule of Rome. Jews were still be slaughtered, yes, but anyone who followed Jesus Christ, was sent to arenas to be fed to lions. They were crucified if found to be Christian. They were given chances to give it up, but the strong ones stayed true to their faith. They died knowing that they were true to what they believed. They were the ones murdered first... then they began to turn off the true path of God. Things changed and people made mistakes. Today, there are still many, yet still so few, Christians that would kill someone just because they don't believe.
Oh crap, that's how I meant to say xD The early Christians were all Jewish. At some point, this "modern" type of Christianity was created, which was then spread with the crusades. It was these crusades that I meant that were bad. It was like a military operation, but "in the name of God". They fought against Muslims (to get the Holy Land back) and pretty much everyone else who happened to have different religion. I guess a lot of villages were destroyed, along with their own religions. Even Finnish mythology is no more, though I hear that maybe it will be recognized again as a religion :O It was on the news not that long ago.
Oh, btw, I still am a part of the church, so my religion is Evangelical Lutheran. It's the most popular here. I have been thinking of leaving it, just like my fiancé.
Some interesting info:
"The Evangelical Lutheran Church is Finland's largest religious body. --- With 4.2 million members, the Evangelical Lutheran Church of Finland is one of the largest Lutheran churches in the world."

"Especially in recent years, the number of church members leaving the Lutheran church of Finland has been increasing rapidly. A record 83,097 members left the church in 2010; the large number caused in part by a Finnish television discussion programme broadcast on 12 October 2010 concerning gay rights, in which church clergy and laymen were divided both for and against the proposed legal amendments."
^ That was one of the reasons my fiancé left the church.

lunachild wrote:In that book I suggested, the girl died in the end because she refused to say that Caesar was god.
But still, it is a good book so don't let that part throw you!
He couldn't handle people worshiping someone else other than him, so he killed the followers of God? Caesar had a huge ego!

lunachild wrote:Fifth: I know, and they did teach me this in science. But the belief that we evolved from monkeys is dumber than dumb! I was taught that there were monkeys and neanderthals. According to science, we evolved from the neanderthal, not the monkey. Of course, I don't believe it... I do believe God has a sense of humor though... if you are wondering what that is feel free to ask!
I wouldn't say humans evolved from monkeys, that is dumb O_o Rather like, from monkey-like creatures (or ape-like creatures?). Some of these creatures were smarter than the others, actions required more intelligence, so their brain grew. I guess it was homo erectus that was the first one to really walk with two feet. So, their bodies evolved into that direction; bone structure more suitable for walking, and more brain capacity. Whereas the monkey-like creatures, that didn't invent walking with two feet, continued to live in trees and evolve into the monkeys they are now.
Meaning, that at one point, humans and monkeys were of same species, but branched and developed differently.
"The hominoids are descendants of a common ancestor."

Kinda like the question: which came first, the chicken or the egg?
My answer is the egg. The egg came from two chicken-like birds, and the chick in the egg was most like the chicken we have now.


I'd like to see the rest of the HP films, I've probably seen... the first 3 :/ And I should re-read the books, I forget things easily :3

Number 1: I'm glad you find me wise, but in reality I just have a lot of time to think things through. Unlike some people in my area, I use my brain to figure things out and to know how to explain things. I know how to have a civil conversation. Just in my area of life though... people thing they are boss if they use a cuss word in every sentence! I don't know what its like where you live, but here, people are insane!

And some Christians, though they are close minded, they aren't exactly stupid. Just their actions are stupid in the fact that they can change who people are. They just hate people who don't think they way they do, so automatically the put them down!

Number 2: Okay, I highly doubt anyone had the technology or medicine to do what you're trying to explain. At least not in that time. And Jesus was a follower of God, though he was his Son. He wouldn't want to trick or fool anyone that He is Lord. What more proof did they need? One of the first miracles was when he turned water to wine. How could that have been foolery when everyone well knew that there was no wine left?

And when he died on the cross... the third day, when Mary Magdalene went to go rub his dead body in oils. The body was gone and the spirit of Jesus visited her. With Roman Guards watching, how could anyone have removed the body?

And with getting Mary pregnant, the Bible says that the Holy Spirit is the one who gave her the baby. I don't know how, but with God all things are possible.

Number 3: I couldn't finish the video. What the man was talking about was horrific! I highly doubt all gays do that in intercourse! It just bothered me that he would say stuff like that! And the only thing that bothers me.. and this goes for straight people to!.. is when they publicly make out! I even hate it when a boy-girl couple do it, and then I have to put up with everyone doing it! Please... save the love for the bedroom or somewhere private. No one wants to see you and your partner (whoever it may be) sucking face.

And I don't know... I think if a gay couple of boys adopts, it would be hard for a girl as she gets older because then puberty hits. Only then would that be a big issue because even gay guys don't really know exactly what to do. Some girls need the full out mother... Other than that, I'm sure gay couples can do better in a few ways. It just depends on how you pair two people together.

And with abortion... I don't care if it has yet to have functioning brain waves yet! Sure, its the parents choice, but it just bothers me. I mean, if you want to have sex, then use a condom or have birth control... Or just wait till you're married!.............. Maybe I should drop this part. I am only 14 and really don't understand that kind of stuff... just that it bothers me...

Number 4: Okay, now I get where you're going at. One thing I can understand about today though, is the Jews getting Israel back. It is the promised land for them, so I guess they deserve it back. America even made allies with Egypt to help protect them.

And I can see why you would want to quit the church that you are in. I mean... why go if you don't believe? And also because of that political stuff going on. Its church! You're there to worship not start a political crisis! Jeeze! It would seem they all lost their heads. I'm glad you didn't let you're get lost in that.

And yeah. At one point though, they got a Christian Caesar then that is when all began to go down... but at least people stopped being murdered for a few years... until all hell broke loose.

Number five: I don't know about that stuff. I guess I'll just stick to God creating it all... a little less confusing and really it makes me feel lots better.

Oh and since I'm taking this into account: God made the chicken first in order to have the egg!

And the Harry Potter books are the best!!!!!!

Okay, so other than the giant hole in my being about the whole Harry Potter movies and books being over, things are slightly normal.

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Post by lunachild on Wed Jul 20, 2011 9:04 pm

Okay, today I'm not quoting because quoting myself would be ridiculous unless it was from one of my poems that actually has some meaning, but to most they might just seem like words written on a page for all to read and critique and try to get what the hell was going through the writers mind when the wrote that particular stanza... some even wonder what a "stanza" is. I myself have a Language Arts/English teacher for a mother. She doesn't teach the language of English though... I live in the U.S.A. No. She teaches proper grammar, the ways of poetry, basics about literature and so forth. I even know what Dramatic irony is! Imagine that...

Dramatic Irony ~~ When people in the audience know some information that the characters on the stage or in the movie don't know (Ex. The audience knows that Juliet isn't really dead, but Romeo doesn't know that so he drinks the poison just before she awakens.)

Sweet huh? Just wait... someday I'll be spitting out information that isn't really needed at the time like my dad does. At his job they all have nicknames. His involve the following with their explanations: Tippy because he walks with a bounce in his step, Beeping Harrison because he can piss people off but in the end they can't stay mad with him (please fill in the beep with any swear word), CP30 because he is like that robot from StarWars with useless information. There may be more, but I have yet to find that out.

What now? I have no clue... lets talk about my odd poems.

If you got to my poems thread, Poems of a LunaChild, I've been writing some random and odd stuff lately. The last one was about death, the two before that seemed like I was reading something from the Bible. I've been on an odd streak lately. Today, while re-leaving the garden of some grass -- yes, I was weeding out grass, not pricker weeds! -- my cousin was with me and we felt weary and tired. All of a sudden I was spitting out something my mom told me: "Don't do this for yourself, for my mom, or for my dad... try thinking of doing it for God and do it to your best." Yeah... not in those exact words but I think this stuff is sinking into my brain. Who knows? Maybe I'll dream I'm in church tonight...

I don't like mocking this sort of stuff either. I hate disrespecting what I believe in -- although I do it everyday with various cuss words -- but... does that paragraph above sound like I am? I don't know... I hope it doesn't.

What else is there to talk about? I really don't know...

Oh! My cousin has been over. Her name is Kirsten, you might know her as HighTide on here, although she is a tumbler addict so she hasn't been on as much. Anyway, I sometimes don't know what to do with her, but hey! She is my cousin and I love her dearly. She was the one I was weeding with today -- weeding out GRASS!!!!! I still can't believe we spent an hour trying to dig up some grass from a garden. Oh well... I hope those tomato plants are happy! They'd better be.

Oh and a shout out to Hex! Its a site I'm on here is the link: hexrpg.com .............. check it out...

...... are you checking?..................................

.................................................. its Harry Potter themed mostly but yeah.................

....... I love it!........................

......................................................... don't judge!...........................................

Okay so back to business. There are flies in my room! Gross and annoying. They buzz up against you and wont seem to shut up! I've killed quite a few. I know it is bad to harm creatures but it is hard because I just can't stand them. Once my room was infested with the things so they have bothered me since. It was so gross, you can't even imagine. Ugh!

To end on a lighter note... there is none so... As always!

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Post by lunachild on Sat Jul 23, 2011 6:43 pm

Where to begin? I don't know exactly. Maybe I'll just say some random stuff. Who cares what I have to say anyway? When I speak truths, people contradict them and say the exact opposite. Example?

My friend, who I will not mention the name of, thinks she is goth/emo/scene. I keep telling her that she really isn't. Most days, she looks like she had a fight with a rainbow and lost, or a rainbow puked on her, or she slid down a rainbow. Does that sound like any of the other three to you? NO! So why doesn't she listen? Its because she thinks that by being these things it makes her cool. It makes her different. Yes, it makes her different in a sense, but other people are like that too.

I question if she knows what people think of emo people. According to today's society, an emo person is someone who wears heavy eyeliner and cuts themselves. Now, don't get me wrong, but she does neither of those things. Her eyeliner is always neat and on the water line, sometimes smudged a bit. Also, I know for a fact she doesn't cut. If she does, well then, that doesn't make her emo per-say. It might just mean she needs help. Some people cut to get attention. I wouldn't accuse her of this unless she showed no other side affect of depression.

For one thing, I know that cutting isn't anything to joke about. No, I haven't done it myself, but my older sister has. She has stopped, but you have no idea how hard it was not to tell anyone. I know I should have mentioned it to my mom, but I was scared and felt pressured. I kept it all locked up inside... now who is messed up? I can't talk to anyone about anything that is in my head... only a few things I consider "safe" make it out of my mouth. The rest sits there to rot and creates bad energy.

Back to the thing at hand though...

Just because you dress a certain way, it doesn't make you one of them. Like goths, for instance. They have interests in black clothing, yes but there is so much more to them than meets the eye. Goths are normal people, just a little darker. Example: their sense of humor is dark and mysterious. Also, goths don't partial to sunlight, more or less the light of the moon. Some have interests in the dark culture, but a goth can have a religion where God is involved. It isn't in the rule book that you can't. So, please, if you are going to be goth, don't just do it for the clothes and the title, making people think "Oh! There goes the scary goth!" Because the real deal will know that you aren't really one of them... POSER!

Next on the subject. Scene. I think it is just a lighter emo style. You don't cut, you don't always dress dark, but you still don't do full out rainbow vomit. You're hair will usually have many layers and odd colors from day to day. Maybe you wear leather? This is my sister's area of expertise, not mine so I have no real idea. But again, people who are scene can tell the real deal from... POSERS!

Now, whose not to say I haven't been a POSER at all in my life. I admit I have been, but that was when I didn't know what they really were. Goths, scenes, and emos are people with interests that are apart from other groups such as preps, nerds, jocks... They are PEOPLE! And what they are shouldn't just be thrown around like an egg. Treat them with care. Yes, you may find that you truly fit in with goths. But I highly doubt goths watch Victorious (yes I know what it is called) and enjoy it. I could be wrong! I usually am.

Sorry if I insulted anyone. I was just pointing out my views on a subject. I never mean to insult, just make my point as clear as possible. I really, truly am usually wrong... but I do know things and I know that people will feel insulted if you try to copy them, but then just turn out to be someone looking for something to do on a Saturday. You can't just decide something like this: you're a happy, sunshine daisy. It is Friday, you're bored. You call up your sunshine friend and say "Lets be goth!"

Someone could get offended that way. But again, I usually am wrong, aren't I?

Shall I talk on my life around the house? Well lets start with my sister. Turns out she is a true Indigo Warrior. That means she is an Indigo Child in a sense. Now she is going crazy with things such as crystals, herbs, and incense. She got this all from a psychic lady. The woman knew she was obsessed with food when there was no food around even... I don't know.

The next meeting my sister goes to, I want to go to as well. I want to see if this woman can tell me anything about myself. My sister has had about 12 or 13 past lives... Amber (sister) thinks I have way more. The only reason she thinks this is because of these reasons: I get bored easily, I'm smart but really only do well in things I enjoy, people say I'm wise but I don't know if she thinks that herself. I don't know... it is easier for me to give advice to people who I don't know personally because then I don't have to worry about seeing the desperate look in their eyes. With my friends and family... I get shaky and scared that if I tell them the wrong advice, they'll hate me! I don't think I could handle that!

Okay.. I'll talk more tomorrow... getting tired. Goodnight and as always...

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Post by lunachild on Mon Jul 25, 2011 9:19 am

lunachild wrote:Friend 1: People think I'm different
Because of the way I dress
I am called stupid, not smart
Because I am random
I am called a poser
Because of what I do
Who I like
How I dress
But I am Perfect the way I am
And I beleive that.

Friend 2: You are different, but not because of your clothes. You call yourself stupid as well so you don't help there, you just encourage.

1: I'm not stupid I feel stupid. I am different because I am me. Because of the way I dreess. Because I am unexpected.

2: The way you dress isn't the only thing that makes you different. You can dress like an average person and still be different! It isn't in the clothes that makes us special... its in the heart.

This is one of the many sounds of a failing friendship. One friend thinks her problems are the worst. That she needs more time to herself, and that her friend is being unreasonable. The other knows how she feels, tries to be sympathetic, tries empathy. The other knows who her friend really is, and hates that she tries to make other people believe something that isn't true. She tries to help her friend, but has problems of her own that no one listens to. The other friend is me, and I'm Silent.

Remember, earlier in my blog how I said that I was S. F. meaning I was Still Faith? To tell you the truth now, I've been Silent Faith. Sad Faith. Sadism... Scared...

I can never seem able to say what is exactly on my mind. How I am really feeling. Not even with my mother, who last night tried to teach me about the Spirit that connects us. Me being her daughter, her being my mother. It started with her trying to pull the bad energy out of me using something my Grandma Judy did on her. I didn't feel anything, so I got upset. I didn't know what I was supposed to be feeling! I must be full of either unbalanced, or bad, energy. The whole experience made me want to scream, "What if I can't feel!?" My mom would ask if I could feel her love for me. I wanted to scream, "What if I can't feel!?" She continued to ask if I could feel anything... if I could feel God the Holy Spirit flow through me... I wanted to scream, "What if I can't feel!?"

So what if I can't? The only time I really feel God with me is when I'm alone, angry, scared. I feel him trying to lift me up with him, to make me feel important to the world.

My mom told me about when I was born. How she asked God that I would live. I was born not breathing, so she laid there, praying. My Grandma Imrie held my lifeless hand and prayed. My mom used all of her faith to bring me back. My Grandma used her faith. Then all at once I screamed. My mom told me everyone went silent as I screamed because they were all waiting to hear my voice. I still have a voice, she says. It is just something that needs to be heard.

When I was six, I went through that crazy stage. You know... when you are loud, you ask questions, and you are full of energy? Most go through that around eight, nine, or ten even. But six? No way! Right? Wrong! I would ask the craziest questions. Here is one that is sort of like what it would be: "If there is good... and there is bad. Can't someone just be both? And if that person isn't completely good, or completely bad, just in the middle... does God still love them?" Something that long and detailed and they could only answer with a, "Of course honey!" or just smile and nod. Other ones involved the Wizard of Oz. More involved things my mom couldn't answer, nor could my dad when I asked him. My mom told me that all she could think at the time was, "This girl is going to be smarter than me someday," and, "Why God? I wanted to be the writer, but you gave it to my daughter." She knew the imagination was for a purpose, just not what.

My mom wanted to be a writer, but her parents were never that supportive. What sucked is that her parents would brag about her best friends, but not her. Did you get that? Her own parents would brag about her best friends but not her! They would do it in front of her, and brag about how amazing her best friend Bee (nickname) was. But never her. So when she wanted to be a writer it never came through... even now though she is an amazing poet. She is also a Language Arts teacher.

Back to my life though. I need to get this out before it is gone.

For a school assignment this past year, we had to write narratives. It could either be a life experience, or it could be a made up story. I chose to make something up. What did I write? Well my sister was going through bad stage in depression at that time. She did bad things to herself! I never told anyone though... she asked me not to. And the year before that she lost almost all of her friends. I felt I was losing my sister. So what did I write?

I wrote a story about a girl named Alice and her younger sister Raven. It was told from Raven's point of view. In the story, Alice was bullied and there were family problems at home. Alice was depressed, but didn't show it. Bullying got worse, and Alice got beaten up in front of her sister, Raven. Raven was made to Pinkie Promise she wouldn't tell their parents... there was enough problems at home. They locked pinkies and it started. One night, Raven got a glimpse of her sister's diary. To her horror, that very night Alice planned to commit a suicide by driving off of a cliff. Raven went with her sister so that she would be there with her before she died. Before Alice did it, Raven got out of the car... she gave Raven her diary and told her to have her parents read the whole thing... there were notes at the end saying good bye as well... then Raven stopped her for just one moment... they made their last Pinkie Promise to never forget... the last words Raven ever heard her sister say... "I promise."

And that is what I wrote. I wrote all of my fears for my sister into a story. Of course we didn't have problems at home, but it was close. Amber wasn't beaten up but she was mentally. I was scared for her so I wrote. She read it... now she is getting better. Could it have something to do with my story? Possibly. The title was called "Pinkie Promise" because the promises I made to my sister were to not tell. We made Pinkie Promises... we still do... I feel that I am finally getting my sister back... soon I will have her back fully.

Now I need to work on my little sister. Becca feels that I don't really love her. That isn't true. She is my sister! She is going through my six year old stage without the crazy questions! Becca has always been the joy! That is her name... Rebecca Joy. Rebecca means "bound to" in Hebrew. At the time my mom was into Biblical names. So my little sister is full of Joy as I am full of Faith. Although I think my Faith isn't as strong as her Joy. Anyway, she is loud, energetic... sometimes it bothers me because I like quiet and peaceful. But then she comes all loud and proud and I get annoyed ever so easily. So I yell at her... and she feels like I don't love her... but I do... I truly do. I should write her a story just like I wrote one for Amber...

My mom says that my level of intellect is higher than most people my age. I admit I am socially awkward. When I'm around people my own age, they don't understand what I have to say. But when I go to talk to my 8th grade Language Arts teacher, we can have a nice smooth conversation about books and Literature. I'm way up there!... and my peers are way down there...

But I do have friends. With one I'm on the rocks with because of everything that is going on. She says that she has no "me" time... but then she goes and signs up for acting camps, casting calls, and consort ticket sweep-stakes! So to be crude and rude for a moment it is her own fault that she has none of what she calls "me" time. I'm sorry, but you can't go around blaming everyone else for something you chose to do! That just isn't right. Then she gets mad at me because I don't spend enough time with her! It is because she has no time to spend with me therefore I can't spend time with her... if that makes sense.

Okay, enough with bad mouthing my friend... I hate doing so but I need to vent sometimes, and I swear I'll try to be better!

Back to all the friends. My friends all have good qualities that make a good group. I'll name them: Maria is happy and, as I said once, spunky! Haley is calm and quiet and I have to admit very adorable! She is just so small and cute ^-^ Mary is sarcastic and very artistic... just don't give her anything sharp! KayKay is loud and proud! And me... I'm the way up their brain that tries to hold everyone together as best as possible with slight seemingly bi-polar issues! Go Team Go!!!!!

My friend at home... serious... tall... Hannah!!!

Right now I'm listening to Celtic Hymns. They are joyful, peaceful and beautiful.

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Post by lunachild on Fri Jul 29, 2011 1:53 pm

Hello MoonChildren! Today is a beautiful day, although it is gray. So why don't we start out with how it is where I am now, which is the shining horses ass of Northeast Ohio! That's right... Middlefield. Sorry to be offensive to other non-Amish here, even sorry to sound offensive to the Amish. But seriously! With all of the horses here it certainly does smell like horses ass if you aren't used to it. Even if you are used to the stench, smell of horse shit in the morning can still get to your nerve that tells you to dispose of every piece of junk you ate in your stomach, as well as the acid that breaks down the food.

Does my life sound glamorous or what? I'm gonna go with "or what." Smile

Anyway, other than the "or what" I call my life in Omelet Ville (aka Middlefield (omelet meaning Amish)) I would like to get on with business as usual in a very calm and polite manner that could only be the manner of a girl who has wisdom above her years of life experience as we know it. If you are guessing who it is, and the person you are guessing is of fiction, then you can just leave right now. If you guessed me (Faith) then you can continue to read on and I wont disrupt your train of thought any longer...

............. you guessed me right?.................................

.................................................. I know this is ridiculous but it is the way I write......

If you really support me....................................................

...................................................................................... you'll deal with it!

Okay so today started out like any other. I got up, brushed teeth, washed face, made bed, applied toner to face and moisturizer as well so as not to appear scaly, then I went downstairs. Unlike most days so far I actually was able to drink coffee this morning. Lately coffee hasn't been the best for me, but I tried making my own Iced-coffee and let me tell you it was yummy! Razz If you are wondering about the smiley right there it is me licking my lips. Anyway... So then for breakfast my little sister made me one egg over easy with a piece of burnt toast. I like my toast crisp so I wasn't pissed. Plus she had made it out of the kindness of her heart, which is okay with me. Hey! I got breakfast, didn't I? So after that, which was also yummy Razz I helped out a little bit with laundry and cleaning up the basement. Of course my little sister has more motivation for helping, so she helped more than I did :Sad The two colons and the frown is me rolling my eyes. So sometimes, as you can see, I feel inferior to my little sister. Same with the older sister. Not so much with the eight year old brother. My inferior feelings with him are rare but they pop up when not needed.

But hey! My room is clean (of course with her help) and I have candles and a big hunk of either some clear rock or a hunk of glass. It isn't crystal, so what is it? Oh, and I also have a crystal that my sister gets bad vibes from, but all Meredith (Amber's bff) and I feel is power and knowledge. I don't know... maybe when I go to see Candie Michelle (psychic) she can tell me if the crystal needs earthly cleansing, or if it is fine. I hope I can find some truths.

It isn't that I will give up my religion. I just might begin to have a new perspective on things. I do believe there is a God in heaven, and a devil in hell. That there is good and evil. All things to me have a balance. You know that yin and yang symbol? According to this book Amber is reading, it isn't only a symbol of balance, but a symbol of reincarnation. I don't know if I should believe that either. I do believe in the balance of it though. That is clear as day to my mind. Balance makes the world go round. If there was no balance life would be even more complex then it already is.

So tonight is another VBS night. VBS is a vacation bible school that goes for one week. Little kids go there to learn about God's love and to also learn His word. There are puppets, games, snacks, and songs. Does it sound fun to you? Maybe not, but it is fun for the kids and I guess that is what matters.

At VBS, my little sister's love life blossoms with this kid named Thomas. Becca (little sister) really likes him. He doesn't go to our church that often, but when he is here, Becca goes a little nutty. And guess who bugs both Thomas and Becca about it? Me! Yes I am the thorn in their side! Its so funny because all I have to say to Thomas is "you liiike her!" To Becca I just wag my eyebrows and make kissy faces. When they are together I do a little "you liiike him! you liiike her!" dance. It gets sort of on their nerves but you know what? I like to have fun with my little sister's cute relationship. Sometimes I even call Thomas, Becca's boyfriend. That makes her go into the whole denial that she likes him thing. Oh well... I guess I just can't win.

Other than VBS, my life has been put on hold. I try so hard to do my best, but that even is hard. I need to finish my summer reading soon but I just need motivation. Do I really get any? Not so much. The book that I'm reading is okay. I just need to get into it. After I'm done reading it, I'll tell you the name and what its all about. But for now, just sit tight. I'll update you on how I'm doing with the book, and how long it will take me to finish the Power Point I need to make. Then, while giving the Power Point I need to answer questions my mom/teacher will ask on the book. Examples: how it made me feel, did it change any views on life, what is the main point of the book, explain symbols in the book. The only "symbols" I've found in this book has been a ring the king wears to show power and fires that don't warm you at all, they just give the heart hope.

Fun book, no?

Anyway, when the time comes I'll have you all wish me luck. I'll need it because this also goes to my grade in how well I can speak in front of the class. And how well am I at that? Not well at all. I get so nervous, I might puke. Usually my nose starts to run when I give any presentation. It is so embarrassing! My nose randomly runs even when it isn't stuffy or I'm not sick. It just runs. Advice? Post below, please!!!!!

So about the psychic I was talking about earlier... I haven't actually met her. Amber has and so has Meredith. They went to a meeting. Oh! And Danielle and Dakota. Danielle is one of Amber's friends and Dakota is "just a friend." All I know is that I don't really like Dakota and I don't know why. Just the site of him twists my stomach all painfully. Not like what I get around Stan. Stan is a good pain in my stomach. Dakota's is just horrible, making me want to puke up blood. Stan is more like puking up bubbles and butterflies that float around in there because of how much I like him... again my crushing crush.

Anyway, Candie Michelle is a psychic. She was the one who told my sister Amber she is an Indigo Warrior, which is basically an Indigo Child with a lot of Warrior spirit in her. I don't even fully understand it. I want to meet her so I'm going to the next meeting that Meredith plans with her. Candie and Meredith are quite tight. Like peas in a pod! Like two humps on a camel; they always sway the same way! Very Happy Little do I really know of this Candie Michelle. I just hope she'll be able to help me find out the real me. My mom wants to meet her as well, so she is on the list for the meeting. I actually can't wait! I haven't been this excited about something for a while, which is sad because I should be excited for stuff more often, shouldn't I? But there has lately been nothing to be excited about.

So, I don't know if I told you this yet, so I'll just re-tell it just in case. At my old church, not the one I go to now, Pastor Gale (pastor) predicted that I would preach. I would preach and I would dance and spread word to all people. I don't know if that is true or not. Do I preach? Maybe to my friends... but I don't know if I ever could to others. I think she also said about predictions but that is more or less in my sister's area. All I do is have de-sha-vu. That's all. Oh well... I'll find myself out someday. For now...

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Post by lunachild on Thu Aug 04, 2011 9:22 am

I want to update, I really do... I just don't know what to talk about. I guess I'm loosing it slowly and swiftly at that. Maybe I do have something to talk about, via my brain pounding with words. I can't find out how to say the words I know I must. Its a little thing I hate to call a loss of words. Something I know I do need to do is write so... why not write nonsense? That might work if I were Alice.

You know... Alice in Wonderland? In the Disney version she said that her world would be nonsense. Full of it! Not a day would go by without complete nonsense. But you know. I'm not Alice, am I? No. I'm more of a not-so-normal person myself.

Okay so my to-do before school list consists of getting my book read and done, making the power point, finding out what my make-up will be like, finding what I want to wear, finding all of the friggen supplies and the money to buy in in this shit hole of an economy that has built up in the US over the past 100 years, and get ready to wake up early and make sure I have a good breakfast! Sound fun? Not really. I'll be juggling everything in my hands, not to mention I'll have drama club to start a few months in. I start school on the 24th of this month. NOT much time to get everything done... though I guess the book part is my fault because I should be reading it now instead of typing but I just can't help it.

Sigh... I guess I'll go eat lunch then read. I'll update further later.

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Post by Riley on Thu Aug 04, 2011 1:52 pm

Oh, I know how you feel. School starts the 25th for me... T.T I am not looking forward to it... I have to wear a uniform.

I have stuff to do as well, but good luck getting through preparation!! Smile
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Post by lunachild on Sat Aug 06, 2011 4:31 am

Luna wrote:Oh, I know how you feel. School starts the 25th for me... T.T I am not looking forward to it... I have to wear a uniform.

I have stuff to do as well, but good luck getting through preparation!! Smile

I get one less day of freedom than you! That is so not fair >Sad But at least I don't have to wear a uniform. We just can't wear hoodies because a few idiots ruined it for the rest of us. Now we have to either cut the hoods off of our hoodies to stay warm in the winter, or just freeze. And thanks! I'm so close to school coming and I'm starting to feel like I wont get anything done.

Update later!

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Post by Krissy on Sat Aug 06, 2011 6:00 am

You can buy ones with out hats on them.Ya not cool but least you won't freeze.

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Post by lunachild on Thu Aug 11, 2011 7:43 am

Blessed is he who cometh in the name of the Lord!

That is a line I say in church most often. Every-other week to be exact. It is said before communion. After communion, I feel God's hand upon me and give thanks for the comfort. Only He knows of what I feel. I feel second best to every single one of my siblings, and last of all in the three. I wrote these in my woe this morning:

Day to Day Woe
Shaky
Cold
Pain
Despair
Self-loathing
Restless
Cruddy
Tired beyond all means
This is how I feel
Will I ever be free?

Upon a Wednesday Evening
Sitting quietly
Keyboard at my finger tips
I can’t find the words that would suffice my story
A story of finding one’s self
Where might I get the inspiration?
Oh Lord God Almighty!
Please help lessen me of my woes
Bring me peace to my heart
Make it so I see your grace
Hear your words with my heart not mind
Listen so that I may be healed
Hear my prayer in your name
Yahweh…
In the name of the Father
The Son
And the Holy Spirit
Amen


I know today isn't Wednesday at all... but it just felt like it was right to be in the title, you know? I feel that what is right will be the will of God no matter the cost.

The book I read about the Christan girl, Hadassah... although it is a story of fiction, it still made me see myself in a new light. How my strength in the Lord is weakening! I know this is no place to say what I believe, but then again this is my small amount of space. And I know that on here no one will judge me too harshly. These are things I fear to say out loud. I fear to scream how useless I feel. I fear to break the hearts of those who love me.

I am lost, Lord... forgive me...

I think what I need is just some time to relax. But how can one relax when things are upon them? Helping out around the house, school is also on its way. What am I to do? I want to cry out, but I can't seem to do so. I want to be held in the hands of my mother, and have her tell me what I mean to her. But then again, I feel beneath my siblings. My oldest sister, though she may seem worse than me, she is better than I will ever be. Her faith is stronger, I'm sure of it. I think if you pit me against an atheist their faith in nothing would be stronger than mine... but who knows? Maybe this is just a time of doubt. I hope it passes.

Look at me! I doubt myself so often when there are people out there that try to raise me up. I'm horrible, aren't I? No matter how many times people tell me how good I am I push those words away. I destroy them. I destroy myself...

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I held her in my arms
Not a word escaped my mouth
Like a mother would hold her child
Me that motherly figure at the time
I didn't say a thing
Just let her eyes tear over
And allowed her to say
All she needed to say
Then moved on to sit in my seat
The funeral began


That, I just wrote. It is my experience when I hugged my Aunt Ashely today. She is my godmother, so I felt obligated to be there as more than just her niece. Her father just recently passed. I liked Bob (name of her father). He always sought the best in everything. He was happy to the end. The sad thing was that Ashely was the only daughter who WAS walked down the isle as a bride by her father. Ashely's other sisters were not and they gave Ashely a hard time over it. Now she is in my prayers.

As is Anita, Bob's wife. It was so sudden and they had been married for around 30 years. Bob was young at death. It was funny... in a weird way... a few weeks before he went to the doctor. Came back healthy. A few days ago he wined up dead from a stroke. Now he is with God in heaven, dancing on streets of gold. Eating the purest of fruits. I'm happy for him, yet I am grieved with the loss.

He looked at us all -- me, my siblings, cousin Jasmine -- as his own grandchildren. Jasmine isn't even Ashely's daughter, but someone else's. Yet he treated her like his own flesh and blood. He was over joyed by children and treated me and my siblings like we were his own. Bob would always have that twinkle in his eye that said he was happy. That is what we will all miss most... his smile and that twinkle in his eye. Bob is one of the few people that make it into my book of Santa-like figures. Meaning that he is happy and jolly... just brings out the best in everyone.

Tomorrow, I'll post the prayer that he and his wife tried to live by.

Oh, and I need to tell you what my godmother, Ashely, told me as I hugged her when we went to the funeral. She told me to cherish every moment I have with my dad, because there is nothing more special than some daddy-daughter time. That made me cry even more... I still am.

Aside from the sadness, things are okay. Not completely but I like to tell myself that. It makes me feel like everything will turn out okay. School is getting nearer and nearer. So is the county fair. I wonder what I'm going to do! I want to go to the fair and have fun but I don't think we have the money for it. Sigh! Oh well. I'll just let it go. Nothing much I can do about it now. Just wait I guess............

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Post by Forace on Sun Aug 14, 2011 8:51 pm

I'm glad you find me wise, but in reality I just have a lot of time to think things through. Unlike some people in my area, I use my brain to figure things out and to know how to explain things. I know how to have a civil conversation. Just in my area of life though... people thing they are boss if they use a cuss word in every sentence! I don't know what its like where you live, but here, people are insane!
You are wise, because you use your brain and think about things :) While others walk around cursing and acting all tough. And stupid. Oh yes, we have people like that here as well! The young ones, especially. I guess it's because they have some kind of need to be accepted by their own age group in school, so they act like the "cool" kids do... And look like morons :D I'm so glad I didn't even TRY to be accepted. By anyone, I mean. I got friends from people, who liked me for who I was.

Okay, I highly doubt anyone had the technology or medicine to do what you're trying to explain. At least not in that time. And Jesus was a follower of God, though he was his Son. He wouldn't want to trick or fool anyone that He is Lord. What more proof did they need? One of the first miracles was when he turned water to wine. How could that have been foolery when everyone well knew that there was no wine left?
I know xD My theories are just theories, because there is no real historical or scientific knowledge of Jesus' time. The Bible is not historical nor scientific, because of all the supernatural that happen in there. Therefore, all the things that simply cannot happen, did not happen. No one can turn water into wine, therefore, Jesus didn't do it. No one can get pregnant from thin air, therefore, a man made Mary pregnant. Now, don't get upset from my words. As an atheist, I exclude the possibility of God from all the things that happened in the Bible. Have you tried thinking that way, instead of just accepting "God made it happen"?

I couldn't finish the video. What the man was talking about was horrific! I highly doubt all gays do that in intercourse! It just bothered me that he would say stuff like that! And the only thing that bothers me.. and this goes for straight people to!.. is when they publicly make out! I even hate it when a boy-girl couple do it, and then I have to put up with everyone doing it! Please... save the love for the bedroom or somewhere private. No one wants to see you and your partner (whoever it may be) sucking face.
Yeah, the man is full of shit, so to speak :DD And I agree! I don't like it either when people kiss in a public place. I don't mind little kisses that you exchange quickly, but a kiss longer than... 5 seconds is awkward. Like, it's going too personal from there, and it should be done in the bedroom xD

And with abortion... I don't care if it has yet to have functioning brain waves yet! Sure, its the parents choice, but it just bothers me. I mean, if you want to have sex, then use a condom or have birth control... Or just wait till you're married!.............. Maybe I should drop this part. I am only 14 and really don't understand that kind of stuff... just that it bothers me...
No need for functional brain waves, but... If it even resembles a human baby, it's too late for abortion. ...Hum, that sounds rather stupid... I don't mean that a fetus few weeks old would be less valuable than a more developed one, it's just... Easier to abort, easier to let go? I don't know :/
But yeah, no need for you to think about this, because you're 14. So, don't let it bother too much, there's time for it later :)

I don't know about that stuff. I guess I'll just stick to God creating it all... a little less confusing and really it makes me feel lots better.
Less confusing? I guess it is so. Why else would people believe in it? "Science is too difficult, I'll just believe that a god made everything". I'm the opposite: I just CAN'T accept that a "magical sky-daddy" (as some mean atheist once said) made everything. I see no proof whatsoever of a god. God doesn't talk to us, God doesn't make miracles and I can't see God. I see what is concrete. And science and evolution make sense.
I do understand if you can't understand these things just yet, and that it's easier to just carry on like you've always done. Who am I to tell you it's wrong to believe in something that makes you feel happy? I love dragons, and I feel close to them, even though I know they don't exist and that they are not possible evolution-wise :D It makes me happy that you are doubting this familiar thing, and that you're willing to understand other perspectives. Most people don't do this :)

Whew, that's it for the conversation we had long ago. Now I'll comment the more recent posts.

This is one of the many sounds of a failing friendship. One friend thinks her problems are the worst. That she needs more time to herself, and that her friend is being unreasonable. The other knows how she feels, tries to be sympathetic, tries empathy. The other knows who her friend really is, and hates that she tries to make other people believe something that isn't true. She tries to help her friend, but has problems of her own that no one listens to. The other friend is me, and I'm Silent.
It seems to me that your friend doesn't know who she is and what she wants and believes in. Of course a person's own problems are the worst, to an outsider they may seem like nothing. Like now, you say your friendship could be failing because of this, but me, an outsider, thinks that you are just two kids, trying to keep up with everything around you. So much is happening at your age. Why argue about clothing or whatever? They don't really mean anything. Wear whatever makes you feel comfortable, and so that you're not naked :D That is the point of clothing, right? Not to be naked.
So, don't worry too much. And just be friends :) Do things together when it's appropriate for both.

I can never seem able to say what is exactly on my mind. How I am really feeling. Not even with my mother, who last night tried to teach me about the Spirit that connects us. Me being her daughter, her being my mother. It started with her trying to pull the bad energy out of me using something my Grandma Judy did on her. I didn't feel anything, so I got upset. I didn't know what I was supposed to be feeling! I must be full of either unbalanced, or bad, energy. The whole experience made me want to scream, "What if I can't feel!?" My mom would ask if I could feel her love for me. I wanted to scream, "What if I can't feel!?" She continued to ask if I could feel anything... if I could feel God the Holy Spirit flow through me... I wanted to scream, "What if I can't feel!?"
A connecting Spirit? That's new to me. I (again!) don't believe there's any... spirits between people O_o But there is a connection. Especially between a mother and a child. Between a father and a child. Between two people who love each other. I've noticed this connection as I've grown older. Now that I know what love feels like. I didn't feel it before, but I recognize it now, because I love my fiancé. I've noticed I have the same feeling for my mother. And for my cat! It's this... pulling and/or pressing sensation in your chest, when you think about someone you love. Breathing may become more difficult. I don't know if this makes sense, but this is just what I've noticed in myself. And to point out that don't feel bad if you can't feel it at command. You'll feel it when there's a distance between you and your mother.

Your story, "Pinkie promise", sounds wonderful! It has all the things that a teacher wants in an essay (they were called essays in here). It's nice and round, and coherent. Unlike me :D "How can a story be round?" Well, it has something in the beginning, that seems unimportant, but it ends ups closing the whole story. Round!

I'm happy if the story made your sister think about things. Sometimes things are best said in writing, because talking can be difficult. Write a story for Becca, too! It will make her feel special, that you'd do something like that for her. And even better, if you can tell your feelings about her in the story.

You know that yin and yang symbol? According to this book Amber is reading, it isn't only a symbol of balance, but a symbol of reincarnation. I don't know if I should believe that either. I do believe in the balance of it though. That is clear as day to my mind. Balance makes the world go round. If there was no balance life would be even more complex then it already is.
It is a symbol of balance. Balance of everything in life. Balance of life and death. If you believe in reincarnation like the people who use the symbol, it means that when someone dies, their spirit is reborn in someone else. Apparently, there is a certain number of these spirits. I may be wrong, but that's how I see this. Now of course I don't believe in reincarnation, but I believe in the cycle of life and death. You are born, therefore you must die some day. That is the cycle, and it keeps the balance. Everything goes around :)

At my old church, not the one I go to now, Pastor Gale (pastor) predicted that I would preach. I would preach and I would dance and spread word to all people. I don't know if that is true or not. Do I preach?
Depends on what you will preach :D Is it the word of God, which you doubt yourself? Or maybe you'll just preach about I.L.U :D

I want to be held in the hands of my mother, and have her tell me what I mean to her. But then again, I feel beneath my siblings. My oldest sister, though she may seem worse than me, she is better than I will ever be. Her faith is stronger, I'm sure of it. I think if you pit me against an atheist their faith in nothing would be stronger than mine... but who knows? Maybe this is just a time of doubt. I hope it passes.
Just go to your mother and surprise hug her :D She'll hug you back, I believe there are no words needed :) She loves you even though she doesn't say it all the time. Or, just ask her.
Do you feel beneath your siblings because their faith in God is stronger? Oh nonsense. I get this image in my head, where people have meters above them, which measures their faith. Some people have their meters full, and some are less full. Now, God only loves those with their faith-meters full? :D Of course, my meter is broken to bits. That must mean I'm a worthless person? You should notice how silly it is :) You talk of yourself as if you were a murderer.

Look at me! I doubt myself so often when there are people out there that try to raise me up. I'm horrible, aren't I? No matter how many times people tell me how good I am I push those words away. I destroy them. I destroy myself...
Would you rather have people saying what a shit of a person you are? Of course not. Because it's not even true. What is true, is what people are telling you. That you are a good person. That you are smart. Beautiful! Nice! Fun! <-- Now those are the words I'd use to describe you, and I've never even met you!
It's easier to make yourself feel bad. To criticize even when there is no need to. All the positive feedback is not taken seriously. That's what depressed people usually do :/ I know you are studying and working hard. Growing up and learning. And that is all you need to do right now, really. Don't burden yourself with bad words you come up of yourself ;)

Bob sounds like he had the same kind of spirit that Kerli has :) Loved children, and in a sense was still a child himself. I'm sure he had a wonderful life. I'm sorry for your loss, though.
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Post by lunachild on Mon Aug 15, 2011 7:44 am

Forace wrote:
I'm glad you find me wise, but in reality I just have a lot of time to think things through. Unlike some people in my area, I use my brain to figure things out and to know how to explain things. I know how to have a civil conversation. Just in my area of life though... people thing they are boss if they use a cuss word in every sentence! I don't know what its like where you live, but here, people are insane!
You are wise, because you use your brain and think about things :) While others walk around cursing and acting all tough. And stupid. Oh yes, we have people like that here as well! The young ones, especially. I guess it's because they have some kind of need to be accepted by their own age group in school, so they act like the "cool" kids do... And look like morons :D I'm so glad I didn't even TRY to be accepted. By anyone, I mean. I got friends from people, who liked me for who I was.

Okay, I highly doubt anyone had the technology or medicine to do what you're trying to explain. At least not in that time. And Jesus was a follower of God, though he was his Son. He wouldn't want to trick or fool anyone that He is Lord. What more proof did they need? One of the first miracles was when he turned water to wine. How could that have been foolery when everyone well knew that there was no wine left?
I know xD My theories are just theories, because there is no real historical or scientific knowledge of Jesus' time. The Bible is not historical nor scientific, because of all the supernatural that happen in there. Therefore, all the things that simply cannot happen, did not happen. No one can turn water into wine, therefore, Jesus didn't do it. No one can get pregnant from thin air, therefore, a man made Mary pregnant. Now, don't get upset from my words. As an atheist, I exclude the possibility of God from all the things that happened in the Bible. Have you tried thinking that way, instead of just accepting "God made it happen"?

I couldn't finish the video. What the man was talking about was horrific! I highly doubt all gays do that in intercourse! It just bothered me that he would say stuff like that! And the only thing that bothers me.. and this goes for straight people to!.. is when they publicly make out! I even hate it when a boy-girl couple do it, and then I have to put up with everyone doing it! Please... save the love for the bedroom or somewhere private. No one wants to see you and your partner (whoever it may be) sucking face.
Yeah, the man is full of shit, so to speak :DD And I agree! I don't like it either when people kiss in a public place. I don't mind little kisses that you exchange quickly, but a kiss longer than... 5 seconds is awkward. Like, it's going too personal from there, and it should be done in the bedroom xD

And with abortion... I don't care if it has yet to have functioning brain waves yet! Sure, its the parents choice, but it just bothers me. I mean, if you want to have sex, then use a condom or have birth control... Or just wait till you're married!.............. Maybe I should drop this part. I am only 14 and really don't understand that kind of stuff... just that it bothers me...
No need for functional brain waves, but... If it even resembles a human baby, it's too late for abortion. ...Hum, that sounds rather stupid... I don't mean that a fetus few weeks old would be less valuable than a more developed one, it's just... Easier to abort, easier to let go? I don't know :/
But yeah, no need for you to think about this, because you're 14. So, don't let it bother too much, there's time for it later :)

I don't know about that stuff. I guess I'll just stick to God creating it all... a little less confusing and really it makes me feel lots better.
Less confusing? I guess it is so. Why else would people believe in it? "Science is too difficult, I'll just believe that a god made everything". I'm the opposite: I just CAN'T accept that a "magical sky-daddy" (as some mean atheist once said) made everything. I see no proof whatsoever of a god. God doesn't talk to us, God doesn't make miracles and I can't see God. I see what is concrete. And science and evolution make sense.
I do understand if you can't understand these things just yet, and that it's easier to just carry on like you've always done. Who am I to tell you it's wrong to believe in something that makes you feel happy? I love dragons, and I feel close to them, even though I know they don't exist and that they are not possible evolution-wise :D It makes me happy that you are doubting this familiar thing, and that you're willing to understand other perspectives. Most people don't do this :)

Whew, that's it for the conversation we had long ago. Now I'll comment the more recent posts.

This is one of the many sounds of a failing friendship. One friend thinks her problems are the worst. That she needs more time to herself, and that her friend is being unreasonable. The other knows how she feels, tries to be sympathetic, tries empathy. The other knows who her friend really is, and hates that she tries to make other people believe something that isn't true. She tries to help her friend, but has problems of her own that no one listens to. The other friend is me, and I'm Silent.
It seems to me that your friend doesn't know who she is and what she wants and believes in. Of course a person's own problems are the worst, to an outsider they may seem like nothing. Like now, you say your friendship could be failing because of this, but me, an outsider, thinks that you are just two kids, trying to keep up with everything around you. So much is happening at your age. Why argue about clothing or whatever? They don't really mean anything. Wear whatever makes you feel comfortable, and so that you're not naked :D That is the point of clothing, right? Not to be naked.
So, don't worry too much. And just be friends :) Do things together when it's appropriate for both.

I can never seem able to say what is exactly on my mind. How I am really feeling. Not even with my mother, who last night tried to teach me about the Spirit that connects us. Me being her daughter, her being my mother. It started with her trying to pull the bad energy out of me using something my Grandma Judy did on her. I didn't feel anything, so I got upset. I didn't know what I was supposed to be feeling! I must be full of either unbalanced, or bad, energy. The whole experience made me want to scream, "What if I can't feel!?" My mom would ask if I could feel her love for me. I wanted to scream, "What if I can't feel!?" She continued to ask if I could feel anything... if I could feel God the Holy Spirit flow through me... I wanted to scream, "What if I can't feel!?"
A connecting Spirit? That's new to me. I (again!) don't believe there's any... spirits between people O_o But there is a connection. Especially between a mother and a child. Between a father and a child. Between two people who love each other. I've noticed this connection as I've grown older. Now that I know what love feels like. I didn't feel it before, but I recognize it now, because I love my fiancé. I've noticed I have the same feeling for my mother. And for my cat! It's this... pulling and/or pressing sensation in your chest, when you think about someone you love. Breathing may become more difficult. I don't know if this makes sense, but this is just what I've noticed in myself. And to point out that don't feel bad if you can't feel it at command. You'll feel it when there's a distance between you and your mother.

Your story, "Pinkie promise", sounds wonderful! It has all the things that a teacher wants in an essay (they were called essays in here). It's nice and round, and coherent. Unlike me :D "How can a story be round?" Well, it has something in the beginning, that seems unimportant, but it ends ups closing the whole story. Round!

I'm happy if the story made your sister think about things. Sometimes things are best said in writing, because talking can be difficult. Write a story for Becca, too! It will make her feel special, that you'd do something like that for her. And even better, if you can tell your feelings about her in the story.

You know that yin and yang symbol? According to this book Amber is reading, it isn't only a symbol of balance, but a symbol of reincarnation. I don't know if I should believe that either. I do believe in the balance of it though. That is clear as day to my mind. Balance makes the world go round. If there was no balance life would be even more complex then it already is.
It is a symbol of balance. Balance of everything in life. Balance of life and death. If you believe in reincarnation like the people who use the symbol, it means that when someone dies, their spirit is reborn in someone else. Apparently, there is a certain number of these spirits. I may be wrong, but that's how I see this. Now of course I don't believe in reincarnation, but I believe in the cycle of life and death. You are born, therefore you must die some day. That is the cycle, and it keeps the balance. Everything goes around :)

At my old church, not the one I go to now, Pastor Gale (pastor) predicted that I would preach. I would preach and I would dance and spread word to all people. I don't know if that is true or not. Do I preach?
Depends on what you will preach :D Is it the word of God, which you doubt yourself? Or maybe you'll just preach about I.L.U :D

I want to be held in the hands of my mother, and have her tell me what I mean to her. But then again, I feel beneath my siblings. My oldest sister, though she may seem worse than me, she is better than I will ever be. Her faith is stronger, I'm sure of it. I think if you pit me against an atheist their faith in nothing would be stronger than mine... but who knows? Maybe this is just a time of doubt. I hope it passes.
Just go to your mother and surprise hug her :D She'll hug you back, I believe there are no words needed :) She loves you even though she doesn't say it all the time. Or, just ask her.
Do you feel beneath your siblings because their faith in God is stronger? Oh nonsense. I get this image in my head, where people have meters above them, which measures their faith. Some people have their meters full, and some are less full. Now, God only loves those with their faith-meters full? :D Of course, my meter is broken to bits. That must mean I'm a worthless person? You should notice how silly it is :) You talk of yourself as if you were a murderer.

Look at me! I doubt myself so often when there are people out there that try to raise me up. I'm horrible, aren't I? No matter how many times people tell me how good I am I push those words away. I destroy them. I destroy myself...
Would you rather have people saying what a shit of a person you are? Of course not. Because it's not even true. What is true, is what people are telling you. That you are a good person. That you are smart. Beautiful! Nice! Fun! <-- Now those are the words I'd use to describe you, and I've never even met you!
It's easier to make yourself feel bad. To criticize even when there is no need to. All the positive feedback is not taken seriously. That's what depressed people usually do :/ I know you are studying and working hard. Growing up and learning. And that is all you need to do right now, really. Don't burden yourself with bad words you come up of yourself ;)

Bob sounds like he had the same kind of spirit that Kerli has :) Loved children, and in a sense was still a child himself. I'm sure he had a wonderful life. I'm sorry for your loss, though.

I'll just start at the very beginning so that I don't mess up my answers :)

1: My brain seems to just plain old function in a different way. I don't learn at all like the other people my age. It makes me socially awkward so I can't seem to try and tell them what I have to in a way that wont seem offensive to their minds that are rebellious as ever... if that makes any sense.

2: But that is where your dis-belief lies. A lot of people think there must be a scientific explanation for everything, weakening their faith so it becomes hard to believe. Seeing isn't believing, believing is seeing. You don't need to see something with your eyes to know it is there. You must see and feel with your heart. Not the organ heart, but the soul-like heart that makes you feel emotions such as love, and sadness.

And with God, all things are possible. He created the earth and the heavens. We were made in God's own image.
Genesis 1:26-27.... Then God said, "Let us make man in our image, in our likeness, and let them rule over the fish of the sea and the birds of the air, over the livestock, over all the earth, and over all the creatures that move along the ground."
So God created man in his own image,
in the image of God he created him;
male and female he created them.

And yeah, I grabbed my Bible and began to type all of that. It is in the very first book of the old testament that the words were written of the beginning. Before Satan fell and deceived Eve into eating the fruit of the Tree of Knowledge, there by deceiving her own husband, Adam, to eat of the fruit just as she did. Going against God's command they were cast out of the garden, and that is when evil entered the world.

Have you heard of the saying "Ashes to ashes, dust to dust"? Well God made Adam out of dust, and proclaimed on the day they betrayed His word that when Adam and Eve died, they would return to the dust from which they were made.

I have tried thinking in the way you have, but then I get this feeling in my heart that it is wrong. I then turn to God and ask forgiveness. Instantly I feel renewed. It isn't just the feeling of going against my parent's teachings, but the feeling of going against my Savior and Creator.

3: Exactly :) full of the most shit I've ever seen! And please... "Get a room!" :P

4: I know but, one more thing on this. There are so many woman out there that can't have children. Something in them isn't built right or whatever. What of them? You could have a very healthy baby and give it to someone who is ready. Now I can understand if the parent is a heroine addict or something terrible. Or if the baby wont live more than two seconds after birth because it is so disfigured. That I can fully understand, as can my mom who talked about it the other day oddly enough. Abortion has just become another form of birth control. People are beginning to think, "Oh! I can have sex and get an abortion if I get pregnant!" That isn't how it works!

5: God does talk to us. If you ever hear a small voice telling you not to do something you know is bad, that is the Holy Spirit working through you. It is He telling you that what you intend is wrong. Again, as I said earlier, seeing isn't believing, believing is seeing. See with your heart instead of your eyes. In that you can find your own truth. My truth lies with God.

But I am glad that I have the gift of understanding. I truly hate it when Christians say they preach the Word and then go and bash people for not believing. What they need to do is say what they need to say and reach out to people who are in need. Don't force it! Just hope and pray that you can make a difference. If they choose to believe then you've changed one life which does make a difference. You can't expect people to just up and believe after one sermon... which I enjoy by the way! My pastor has a nice way of preaching that even you'd enjoy just to hear. Him and his dry humor. Here is one of his jokes that I hope doesn't offend you personally:

A dyslexic atheist is having sleeping troubles
He lies awake in bed late at night and wonders if there is a Dog.

Get it?

6: I'll try. Lately I've been helping her get summer reading stuff through because she waited till now to ask for a list of books and the assignment. ::( I try to be patient but it gets hard. OH well... that's what friends are for. *Sigh* :?

7: I think almost everyone believes in connections between loved ones. Some people (like me) seem to have a harder time feeling it.

And thanks. Maybe if I can get it off of another computer onto my flash drive and upload it here, you can read it. It was ten pages of sadness. :D And I'm trying to write one for her but you know... Pinkie Promise was in the spur of the moment. Its going to take a while to come up with something for Becca.

8: Well I don't if I believe in reincarnation or not. Just that she might... I'm fine with it but I don't know if my mom is or not.

9: It isn't that a doubt God. I just have questions about Him that don't get answered. Plus God is about I.L.U and much more. God, Himself, is love.

10: I know she loves me, I just would like to hear her say it without me doing anything that would make her say it. And God loves everyone no matter their level of faith in Him. Even those who don't believe in Him are His children whom He loves.

11: I know but it is hard to believe those things after having a depressed sister that said horrible things about you. I know she is sorry for them but It is more or less a mental issue.

And Bob was one of the nicest guys you'd ever meet. Here is the Prayer he and his wife tried to live by:
Mary Stuart's Prayer

Keep us, O God, from all pettiness.

Let us be large in thought, in word, in deed.

May we put away all pretense and meet each
other face to face, without self pity and without
prejudice.

May we never be hasty in judgment, and
always be generous.

Let us always take time for all things, and make
us to grow calm, serene and gentle.

Teach us to put into action our better impulses,
to be straightforward and unafraid.

Grant taht we may realize that it is the little things
of life that created differences,
that in the big things of life, we are as one.

And, O Lord God, let us not forget to be kind!

Amen


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I'll write the whole thing in the story place later. Right now I'll just try not to panic...

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Post by lunachild on Sun Sep 18, 2011 4:15 pm

I haven't been doing this in a while... actually not since school started back in August. A lot has gone on, but I guess it wasn't important enough for me to remember to write it down. But you should know a lot of shit had gone down since a while ago. There are quite a few new students at my school and three of them are really bad news. They are bullies and I fear for this one girl who can't defend herself against these three girls who are about two times her size. Anyway, there is also this cute guy. I don't know if I like him or not, just that we get along well.

So, I want to make my own pattered T-shirts and I found a great way to do so. This one goth girl Adora BatBrat has an instructional video for it and I'll post it here for you... oh and I hope no one gets offended because Adora is one of those people that is just totally out there so... yeah...




I must also say it makes great background noise when it is late at night and I'm the only one up. I usually have tutorials going when I'm alone because it just makes it seem like there is actually someone in the room with me. I'm very personal about my room and hate having too many people in it, especially family. I know that sounds horrible but that is the way it is. I'm not going to sugar coat that aspect of my life. I love my family, I really do! I just like to have my space.

Try outs for the fall play at my school are a-foot. This Tuesday and Thursday. I can't wait! It will be so much fun! I guess though I'll have to wait just a little bit. As is homecoming coming up... No I don't have a date. I'm just going with friends or maybe not even going at all.

That aside, Halloween is coming up, or as others call it All Hallows Eve. So for the sake of it all, I'm going to post videos of my favorite make-up tutorial people. Here is one by Michelle Phan doing Disney's Snow White. I love this one because she explains how to do it and can also pull it off at the same time. Plus she has music in the background so there is no awkward silence. She also voices it over so while she does the make up she doesn't have to talk. Here it is:



Also there is one that is really fast and stuff, but I'll post it on the last day I do this. I think it would be completely appropriate to have on the last day. So instead I'll have something else now.

Michelle not only does make up but she also does DIY tutorials. And since winter is on the way where I am, I'll do one on how to make something for dry skin. In North East Ohio it gets really dry during the winter outside and humid in the summer. So here it is... don't eat it!



To me the product of this looks like marmalade which is pretty much orange-jam. Yeah, if you know what it is please say you agree! If you don't well then that is your opinion, so whatever. But that is just mine so yeah...

Anyway, other than my boring life of watching stuff, I have been writing! Yay!!!

I'm writing a vampire book... yeah! I said vampire! It is about a girl who wanted to commit suicide and she did... sort of. Before she was completely dead these vampires saved her and made her into a half vampire so that within a year she could choose whether or not she really wanted death, if she wanted an extended life as a half vampire, or wants an immortal life as a full vampire. She ends up living in underground railways and tunnels built up over centuries by the two vampires who started the Order of the Heart, Thorn and Amy. Amy originally gave Thorn the choice of life or death the same way Roza (main chick) has now. He ended up choosing immortal life, but there will be a catch. Thorn begins to feel as though he's loosing his soul and ability to truly love. Even darker works are about them and Roza must help Thorn find his Heart.

The title is literally called The Heart. So yeah, please comment on that preview. I have to actually hand write it all down or else I'll never finish it. So I may or may not type up the first chapter to post here, or maybe even another part of the book to make you even more excited!

Oh! And if any of you have a comment on the way I did this blog with the videos and stuff, then please comment on that. If you don't like it, tell me and I will consider stopping... or at least after Halloween because I seriously want to keep posting the make-up tutorials for you all to check out if you don't know what you want to be. Me, I'm most likely going to be the human girl version of Eeyore from Winnie the Pooh. Me and my friends want to be the whole crew, so also comment on that. I'll be sure to take pictures if it follows through because I think you'd all sort of like to see how it turned out.

Till next time!

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Post by lunachild on Mon Sep 19, 2011 5:31 pm

Right so last time I posted three of my favorite vids from youtube. I hope you liked them as much as I did! So anyway, I will be posting another one here later for another look that can be done for Halloween. It is actually just an autumn time look by this girl, Lauren Luke. She really is amazing, but unlike Michelle she actually talks while she does her video so it is really different... but here it is anyway...



And if you've noticed she also has sort of an up-date on her own life. She even says how she is feeling about herself. If you could look her up on youtube and give her some of our MoonChild love? That would be awesome!

Right so there is that, and I guess I might post another, or a song I listen to or whatever, but for now I guess I'll just type up some random shit about my life. That is what this blog is for right? All about my life and what happens in it. Thus the title "Life of a LunaChild." But I really do like to talk of my mind more than my life. I have way more going on up in my mind then in my actual life.

For instance, I have a very active imagination so when my mom/teacher told me to write a personal narrative I was kind of bummed. How can I, S. F. Harrison, write a PERSONAL narrative? I can't really write about myself that well so I decided to write about a moment I hardly remember. Oh and if I miss a "B" in here somewhere it isn't working that well lately. Every time my sister Amber uses my computer something seems to go wrong with it... oh well. C'est la vie!

ACK! I have to show you guys something that I love, love, love watching! You know those Sims thingies people make that are sort of like animated cartoons? Well there is this one on youtube and the series is called "Search for the Distant Moon" and I love it! Here is the first one!



The first voice in it is sort of annoying in my opinion but it works. There is also a video somewhere that shows the back story of the Distant Moon. So I hope you like it. I can post the other videos here, but there aren't too many of them so it isn't like I can do one everyday and get away with calling it a series in my blogging.

Another thing I like to watch is sped up episodes of Spongebob Squarepants! Here I'll post the episode Sailor Mouth where Spongebob and Patrick say bad words.



So I guess that is it for now. Besides the fact that my brother has a really bad cough, and play try outs are tomorrow I guess there isn't much to say left... so...

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Okay so I know that my homecoming was, like, at the very beginning of October, but I just had to tell you all about it. It was magickal and so... so... well you get the idea. The theme was Sweet Dreams or Candy Land though everyone kept going back and forth between the names. Honestly it doesn't really matter to me, just the fact that I went with this amazing guy. His name is Tim and I swear, best guy in the world!

Here is a quick description of Tim: Smart, cute, funny. That is just three words and there are so many more to describe him. They will be used, trust me!

So in other words, all went well. We danced together with a group of people: Abby, Abi (two Abby/Abi -s!!!), Casey, Scott, Skylar, Bridget, and sometimes Haley! So Tim and I danced a lot, slow dances and all. Now you all have to remember that I'm 14 and Tim is 16, but he is still the sweetest guy on the planet. So no real trouble there! During one of the slow dances, when I was wrapped in his arms, just dancing, he told me that... well... HE REALLY LIKED ME!!!!!! AND HE WANTED TO SEE ME AGAIN SOMETIME AND PRETTY MUCH HE ASKED ME OUT!!! AND I SAID YES!!!! During one of the other slow songs he KISSED ME!!!! I swear, I could have died then and been happy!

Now here is why I'm gushing now: I have a boyfriend. His name is Tim Henry. He is amazing. We've been dating since October 8th, the night of homecoming. He's told me he loves me and I've said it back.

All of you older readers with experience: ANY ADVICE??? Like, should I believe him when he says he loves me? I mean, he is very gentle, and has not forced me to do anything I don't want to, so that's good. Plus we are both like, the real for real firsts for each other, so... yeah. Did I mention he is shy? So am I in a few areas. We have a lot in common. And how do I know if I really love him? What does it feel like to truly love someone in more than just a brother/sister/relative/friend way? And if I really do love him, how long will this last? Oh man... I have to stop on this subject for now.

Okay other than my new found love life, what else is there? Hm...

Well for Halloween, my friends Haley and Maria are teaming with me to be the Power Puff Girls! If you think it is... like... little kiddish?... to be dressing up as that trio at age 14, let me tell you it is far from kiddish. Mostly we are wearing huge shirts in the right colors then wearing any kind of tights: Haley= white tights, Maria= black tights, Faith(me)= fish nets. Also we are tying ribbon around our waists and wearing black flats. I don't know about make-up. Mine will be green and black surrounding my eyes with white highlights and nude lips. Haley, I have no idea, as well as Maria. I'm Buttercup, Haley is Bubbles, and Maria is Blossom (she has red hair!) so that should give an idea. Maria is wearing a red shirt because we couldn't find pink, but it works. Then we are wearing glow in the dark stuff for when we go trick-or-treating.



I personally want to say this because it needs to be said: I friggen HATE IT when adults see a few teenagers, coming up to their door for trick-or-treating and they say "Why are you trick-or-treating? Aren't you a little old?" All I want to say is, "Hell no! I took the TIME to DRESS UP in order to walk around and get FREE CANDY!!" But of course I have respect for people older than me, but still. We, as a group of friends, decided "Hey lets go get some free candy and celebrate Halloween stuffing our face with sweets we collected because we actually dressed up!" I mean, I can understand if you get that teen that doesn't dress up, and further more doesn't even say the phrase, "TRICK-OR-TREAT!" because then, they aren't even trying to do shit! They don't deserve candy! But people, who dress up and say the friggen phrase, should get the friggen candy!!!!

And that is it on my rant about adults who are just.... ugh!... about teens still wanting to have fun on a day that is supposed to be FUN!!!

Okay, besides my royal bitch-ie-ness, I hope I didn't offend anyone. I just don't care though because... well read the above and you'll know. But now lets move the subject to another matter: Me not following through and posting make up tutorials by people who rock like I promised. Sorry to those who really were looking forward to that. With school and a new boyfriend I lost all track of things. So here is one for you...



Yeah, so sorry about all of that. Anyway, here is a description written by me: This make-up tutorial is by Michelle Phan, make-up guru and expert. That's at least my opinion. Anyway, this look is her take on the Brother's Grimm character Red RidingHood. This look is slightly creepy, but with a Gothic sweetness to it that just sings!

And that is my cruddy review. Yay for cruddy-ness!!!!

Anyway, I think that is it for now so...

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